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Date Posted: 22:15:14 07/21/03 Mon
Author: remy lebeau
Subject: i miss being overwhelmed by you..

and i need rescue..
i think i'm fading away

name: remy lebeau
alias: Gambit
age: i dont know...twenty?
gender: male
alliance: erm...he's with magento...so he's not brotherhood exactly but not x-men either.
school year: he graduated somewhere far away. :P
school: *shrug* i dont know.
power: he can charge up things and throw them and they explode! BOOM!
player name: krystal
email: mistcangl2@aol.com
other: HE IS MINE! YOU CANNOT HAVE HIM! GAMBIT=KRYSTAL'S! woo...i actually dont mind that he's evil anymore. x.x it makes him more interesting, but i do want him to be good in the end. ^-^ theere are way too many things preoccuping my brain, so please forgive me for being dumb and making an icky past thats...disgustingly cliche. *hides* >,<
history: i, just like every other mutant in this world, never asked to be different. before it happened, i was a happy kid in a happy family...there werent any secrets (or so i thought), we had a comfortable home in a nice neighborhood, and i had friends. i was normal, or...well, normal enough to not have to worry about the neighborhood bully coming after me for being dorky, and where my only real problems were getting good grades and standing up for my little sister should anybody try picking on her. but that was all before...after, everything changed...after...well, it happened. it was when i was fifteen and i was yelling at some guy for something...i dont really remember what, but it was really important at that point...so important that my emotions were high...very high. and i had this apple in my hand, i had already taken a bite of it...but i decided to be juvenile...i didnt realize then that i was making a choice between his life and death...and afterward, i often wondered why i had to throw that apple...why i had to get physical. but i did, and...right before i threw it there was a shock, a numbing sensation all through my arm as though i had slept ontop of it and it had fallen asleep. i didnt understand at that point what had happened, but the apple took on a supernatural glow...and when it connected to the boy's head, it...exploded. he flew back a few inches and slammed bonelessly against a table, smashing it in half with the power of the blow. the kids that had gathered around us were showered with the remains of the apple...and the boy had died, but he was dead before he hit the ground, my apple had snapped his neck, and the explosion had left the kids in a daze. funny, to think that the one thing that gave Adam and Eve knowledge was the source of my ignorance...its almost ironic, almost funny...but i'm not laughing, not even now when i've killed far more then just a foolish boy. i think...that part of me died with him though, which is why his death stands out so much more then the others...that and he had died just for making me angry, the others had died, have died, and will die because they made/make/will make Magneto angry. it might not make much of a difference to you, but it takes away the whole cold blooded murder note to the deaths and turns them into impersonified assassinations instead. but anyway, after that, complete chaos broke out, and through it all i was able to slip away completely unnoticed...here's another point where i had had to make a choice. maybe if i had stuck around, Xavier would have found and saved me too. however, he didnt...he was too late, because Magneto found me first and planted ideas of a place where i wouldnt be strange...where i wouldnt have to run from people...fear them. i couldnt help but accept the temptation, he was offering to teach me how to control it...and there wasnt anything more in the world that i wanted at that time. of course, i didnt know that later, my word would be used against me...i didnt know that later, he would take extreme precautions just to make sure that i would stay loyal...stay his bitch for eternity. you see, after the three year period that i had learned and killed for him, i wanted out. i was tired of relying upon him, i wanted to be independent and free...i just wanted to get away from the constant guilt and dirty feeling that killing put upon my shoulders. i was so dumb...if i had just stayed, then perhaps my family would be just as safe as i was dangerous...but they're not, not anymore. because when i told Magneto that i wanted to leave, he threatened the one thing that i wanted most but could never have again...he threatened that for every week i was gone, he would kill one member of my family, starting with the youngest and moving up...i wasnt going to let him kill Kady...i would have died before she did. and...so here i am, the b a d g u y. the one that everybody can hate so that they dont hate themselves...i dont mind, not that much, as long as she stays safe...as long as Magneto doesnt hurt my family anymore then i already have.

and i keep asking...
is that the best i'll ever be?

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Replies:

evaluation -- .owner., 11:26:58 07/22/03 Tue
- *grin* -- krystal, 13:12:46 07/22/03 Tue
  - o.O ... -- tiara, 09:32:23 07/23/03 Wed
    - MWUHAHAH! -- krystal, 11:46:50 07/23/03 Wed