| Subject: A message for all here - NOT A POEM - but please read - it is a very important message to all |
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Date Posted: 09:00:56 01/24/02 Thu
Author Host/IP: hsdb-yktn-56-17.sasknet.sk.ca/142.165.56.17
First let me say Jim - I'm sorry I didn't contact you earlier, my oldest and dearest friend. You are my rock and I guess I forgot that. Also I am sorry that I have not been around as much lately.
I have been fighting Depression for over a year now, well Sunday night was really bad for me, I cried for six hours. For the first time ever it carried in to the next day, I wasn't happy the next morning when I got up. I even called and made a doctors appointment about it, something I swore I would never do. That night I took 135 - 200mg tablets of Ibuprofen. Immediately after taking the pills, I felt an immense calm, and fell asleep immediately. Something I hadn't done in a very long time, I rarely get more than four hours peaceful sleep. You can not imagine my surprise when my alarm went off at 7:30 and I was still alive. It wasn't anger, just surprise.
I tried going to work that morning, but I had a terrible case of the diarreah, so I went home sick. By lunch time I was feeling better, physically and emotionally, still not 100% but better. I decided I was going to go and spend some time with a friend of mine that knows about my depression. You see I have hidden this very well from everyone I know except a select few, even my parents, who I live with, did not suspect.
Well an online friend of mine was very worried about me after I told her about this. She called the police in my home town, they in turn called my father. Then my father and a uniformed RCMP member showed up at the door of my friends shortly before one in the morning. They thought it was a bogus call, because I was obviously alright, and were giving me heck for causing so much trouble, when I said, "It, wasn't bogus, I took over 100 Ibuprofen tablets just after midnight last night." Well then the whole emotion of the room changed, I agreed to go up to the hospital and get checked out. The police officer took some names, and my dad wisked me away to the hospital.
I AM FINE, physically, mentally, it will take some time. My mom called this morning, and I told her. She was going to find out anyway, so I wanted to be the one to tell her. It would have been easier to let my dad tell her, but I knew I had to be the one.
The past three days were horrific, but the future now seems a little brighter.
I love you all, and I wanted to show you just how powerful the internet, and internet friendships can be, if you let them be.
ad infinitum,
Crys
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