Date Posted:14:37:35 11/15/05 Tue Author:El Subject: Our Children originally posted by Karen
How right you are - this hell on earth! Time will never erase the pain, the grief which comes from somewhere so very deep inside. Anyone who has not suffered the death of a child cannot possibly understand - we all lose our grand parents, then our parents - it's THE order, it's sad but it's natural - but not a child! no one should ever have to experience the passing of their child, not matter what their age. How can u 'pick yourself up' 'get on with your life' 'about time you...' NOTHING will ever be the same because that child is missing. Missing from your world but not missing from your heart. The empty bedroom, the toys not touched, the clothes in the cupboard - never to be washed again, the shoes never to be worn again - total emptiness engulfs your heart. Knowing they will never feel the sun on their face, the rain on their head, the snow underfoot....... why do we carry on? I have absolutely no idea - can we? can I - I don't know!
All the things you do from the moment you know you are pregant - you nurture - eat the right foods - don't drink or smoke - make so many plans... then, it's constantly on the watch - don't touch that it will hurt you, don't do that its dangerous - teach them to swim so they don't drown, teach them road safety and, how to ride a bike, play ball, be kind to animals and other people - all this and so much more BUT, you don't have to teach them how to love.... why?.....
Are this rantings from a mum so bereft - probably....
