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Date Posted: 09:00:45 07/15/03 Tue
Author: Kesi
Subject: I love you, and I need you...

She was beyond nervous as she paused outside of the visiting room, tugging on her hoodie. She looked young, but beautiful as usual, in jeans and a hoodie, her hair down around her face. She had lost some weight, and definately had a sad, older look about her now, but she was still the same girl - albeit a little nervous. "You...you should go on in before me, and maybe...just..see what he says." She bit her lip, running a hand through her hair. "I don't want to make him mad, or freak him out, or upset him or anything..." Her young brow furrowed as she shifted her weight, she hadn't told her parents they were coming here, Kato'd flip.

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She nodded a touch, glancing in before looking back to the other girl - she was still a little upset by how her friend had treated her. "Okay. I'll be back in a bit." Tugging the hem of her fitted zip-up hoodie down over her stomach, she sighed softly before heading in - she too had lost some weight, her eyes looked tired, and stress lined her delicate features. (NT) -- Kali, 09:05:20 07/15/03 Tue
She sighed softly, sinking down onto a bench and closing her eyes. She felt badly, and knew she had to make amends, but being around Kali, and knowing that she was so much closer to Jake then she was, and probably ever would be - drove her crazy. (NT) -- Kesi, 09:06:19 07/15/03 Tue
She headed inside and settled onto the indicated chair to wait. When Jake arrived, he placed a kiss to her cheek - ignoring the glares he received from the guards - and then dropped onto the chair opposite her. Leaning over the table as they spoke - first catching up on small talk... -- Kali/Jake, 09:13:57 07/15/03 Tue
- She had moved from sitting to pacing, walking back and forth. Her eyes were hiding from the catcalls and looks she got from the men who passed - she was only intrested in Jake. (NT) -- Kesi, 09:15:23 07/15/03 Tue
She stayed in the room to talk with him for a while longer before standing, speaking quietly with one of the guards, and then touching his shoulder and kissing the top of his head, and heading out to see Kesi. "Your turn." (NT) -- Kali, 09:16:58 07/15/03 Tue
She let out a soft, nervous breath, her eyes scared. "Thanks Kali..." She murmured softly, touching her friends arm before she stepped hesitantly through the doors, her lip tucked between her teeth. (NT) -- Jake, 09:18:05 07/15/03 Tue
She nodded a touch and dropped onto a bench to wait, arms crossed under her chest... // He took a deep breath as she stepped in and tried to sit a little taller - he was still a little beat up from the fight with Dylan but luckily no fresh bruises were obvious, he was generally well-behaved... Jaw clenching, he glanced up to her only briefly before she sat down. (NT) -- Kali / Jake, 09:20:36 07/15/03 Tue
Her gaze drifted slowly over him before her bright blue eyes dropped to the ground. "I'm..." She frowned, pausing a minute. "I just...wanted to say I was sorry...I know it's horrible...stupid..and pointless to even say..but I really am..." (NT) -- Kesi, 09:22:24 07/15/03 Tue
His chest tightened at that, brows furrowing as he looked up - voice soft. "Kesiyeh, you have no reason to be sorry. This is all my fault." (NT) -- Jake, 09:23:59 07/15/03 Tue
She swallowed, shaking her head and trying so hard not to cry. "No..no, if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't be here..if I hadn't left..if I hadn't gotten you involved..." She looked up, her bright eyes full of turmoil. When Dylan had tried to take advantage of her, she'd been terrified, and scared, but none of that mattered after what happened to him..it was nothing. (NT) -- Kesi, 09:25:53 07/15/03 Tue
"Kesi, listen to me.." His voice was firm, but gaze deeply pained. "I chose to get involved. I knew what I was doing when I did it..." (NT) -- JAke, 09:27:54 07/15/03 Tue
She bit her lip heavily, her eyes bright with unshedding tears. She'd been so confused, and hurt, and she still was. She didn't know what to make of him, or 'them'. Bryce had warned her that seeing him would be hard, but she hadn't been prepared for this. (NT) -- Kesi, 09:29:41 07/15/03 Tue
He frowned darkly - he was still hurt by her too, but just wanted to make things better for her. "I don't know what to say." (NT) -- Jake, 09:32:30 07/15/03 Tue
"Me either..." She sighed softly. "I didn't want to come here and upset you, I just wanted you to know how bad I felt, and sorry..." She shrugged a little. "I don't think Kali thought I should come..." ...and maybe her, Bryce, her parents, and Zeke had all be right. (NT) -- Kesi, 09:33:41 07/15/03 Tue
He sighed softly and ran one hand over his head, looking away for a moment. "I haven't stopped thinking about you." (NT) -- Jake, 09:36:41 07/15/03 Tue
"Me either..." She murmured quietly, bringing her gaze back up to his. She knew it hurt Bryce, cuz she had a feeling he was growing a little attached to her - but she was completely infatuated with Jake. (NT) -- Kesi, 09:39:10 07/15/03 Tue
"You don't deserve this." He stated simply, no matter how much he hated to say it - it was true. (NT) -- Jake, 09:40:20 07/15/03 Tue
"Neither do you." She caught a small amount of boldness, leaning over to touch his hand gently. "Your a good person Jake, no matter what you think. I know that..." (NT) -- Kesi, 09:41:10 07/15/03 Tue
He almost jumped at her touch, gaze shifting to his hands. "Good people don't go to jail, sweetie." (NT) -- Jake, 09:43:36 07/15/03 Tue
"'Sometimes they do..my dad was in jail for a long time..." She shrugged a little, drawing her hand back as he seemed to retract from her touch. "You were just angry..." (NT) -- Kesi, 09:44:44 07/15/03 Tue
He caught her fingers before she could completely pull them away, glancing to her. "Kesi, I'm gonna be here a while..." (NT) -- Jake, 09:46:54 07/15/03 Tue
She bit her lip, her eyes on him, gently squeezing his fingers between hers. "I know..." She murmured softly, her gaze soft. (NT) -- Kesi, 09:48:16 07/15/03 Tue
Throat tightening, he shook his head slowly, free fingers brushing over his eyes. "And it's not fair for you to have to be alone because I'm in here.." (NT) -- Jake, 09:52:32 07/15/03 Tue
She sighed softly, her hands running over her hair as she tugged on her hoodie. "There's a lot of things I'm thinking...and feeling....but I don't want to scare you off..." (NT) -- Kesi, 09:54:28 07/15/03 Tue
He sighed deeply and watched her quietly. "I just.. I don't know." (NT) -- Jake, 09:57:15 07/15/03 Tue
She bit her lip, her eyes - a dark, stormy blue - moving to beyond the glass windows, to where Kali was. "Do you want me to send Kali back in?" She questioned, figuring the other girl would make him feel better then she was. (NT) -- Kesi, 09:58:40 07/15/03 Tue
"In a minute..." He didn't want her to leave just yet, dark gaze meeting hers for another brief moment. "Will you come see me again?" (NT) -- Jake, 10:01:10 07/15/03 Tue
Her gaze lifted slowly, searching his. "Do you want me to?" Her voice was hesitant and shy, her brow furrowed. He just didn't understand how much he was on her mind. (NT) -- Kesi, 10:02:05 07/15/03 Tue
He nodded slightly, jaw tensing momentarily, voice a gentle murmur. "Yeah..." He didn't even want her to leave. (NT) -- Jake, 10:03:39 07/15/03 Tue
"I'd come and see you as much as they would let me..." Her voice was soft, her gaze on him alone, not paying attention to anyone else in the room - or hallways. (NT) -- Kesi, 10:04:39 07/15/03 Tue
"Bryce would be better for you." His gaze drifted away, speaking softly - his heart wanted her to want him more than anything, but his mind knew the other man would do better by her. (NT) -- Jake, 10:07:09 07/15/03 Tue
She shook her head, her voice soft as she kept her gaze on him - even though he wasn't looking at her. "I don't want Bryce, and Bryce knows that." (NT) -- Kesi, 10:08:24 07/15/03 Tue
"Kesi, if this ever gets to be too much for you, you don't have to do it." He didn't want her to feel obligated by pity to visit him. (NT) -- Jake, 10:10:40 07/15/03 Tue
She shook her head, a soft sigh escaping her lips. "I care about you Jake, I know I'm not Kali, and we aren't as close as you two are...but I still wanna see you..." (NT) -- Kesi, 10:12:55 07/15/03 Tue
His lips curved into the hint of a smile as he looked back to her, gaze tender. "Kesi, I care about you in a very different way than I care about Kali..." (NT) -- Jake, 10:14:49 07/15/03 Tue
She let out a soft breath, his expression relaxing her somewhat as she shruged. "I just...never know." She murmured, her eyes on his. (NT) -- Kesi, 10:15:53 07/15/03 Tue
"I don't handle relationships very well." He admitted - or rather, he just didn't handle them period. Running a hand over his head and then down his face, he sighed softly. (NT) -- Jake, 10:17:34 07/15/03 Tue
She shook her head, watching him - aching for his touch once again. "I wasn't even positve we were in one." (NT) -- Kesi, 10:19:15 07/15/03 Tue
"Neither was I, but we were atleast close.. I've had some bad experiences.." As if reading her mind, his hand stretched out across the table for hers. (NT) -- Jake, 10:22:02 07/15/03 Tue
She slipped her hand into his, entwining their fingers slowly. "I haven't exactly provided you with a lot of good experiences either.." Her voice was sad, she'd really done nothing to cause him anything but trouble. (NT) -- Kesi, 10:23:27 07/15/03 Tue
The less they fought, the more he wanted to be out of there. Gaze falling to their hands, he exhaled shakily. "I never gave you the chance.." (NT) -- Jake, 10:25:50 07/15/03 Tue
She bit her lip again, her own eyes on their hands. "We..had fun though..together.." She forced a small smile for him, though her eyes were still sad. She wanted to tell him that he could still give her a chance, she didn't care if she was young.... (NT) -- Kesi, 10:27:40 07/15/03 Tue
His throat tightened as it hit him once again that this was it - this was his life for an indefinite amount of time. "I care about you, so much." (NT) -- JAke, 10:29:26 07/15/03 Tue
Her eyes slid shut as she brought their hands to rest against her lips, trying to compose herself, not letting herself cry. She didn't trust her voice yet though, so she just remained silent. (NT) -- Kesi, 10:31:27 07/15/03 Tue
"I'm so sorry..." He seemed to be apologizing alot lately, but it was all necessary. (NT) -- Jake, 10:33:47 07/15/03 Tue
She opened her eyes lightly, shaking her head, the bright depths glistening with unshed tears. "I care about you too..." (NT) -- Kesi, 10:35:15 07/15/03 Tue
He squeezed her fingers gently. "Don't cry. Please don't cry." If she cried, he would cry, and he didn't want to.NT) -- Jake, 10:36:43 07/15/03 Tue
She shook her head, a soft, awkward laugh escaping her lips. "I'm trying really hard not too..." She smiled a little, trying to just not bring him down any. (NT) -- Kesi, 10:38:07 07/15/03 Tue
He glanced at the clock reluctantly before looking back to her, dark gaze attempting to relax. (NT) -- Jake, 10:41:40 07/15/03 Tue
She looked at the clock, sighing reluctantly, though not letting go of his hand. "I should probably let Kali come back in...she wasn't in here for very long..." (NT) -- Kesi, 10:42:44 07/15/03 Tue
He nodded slightly, he hated having his visiting time restricted. "Yeah.." (NT) -- Jake, 10:44:00 07/15/03 Tue
She bit her lip, it wasn't easy to leave him - or to give up her time to her friend. "I'll see you soon...right?" (NT) -- Kesi, 10:44:50 07/15/03 Tue
He nodded again and squeezed her fingers gently. "Yeah... Next time Kali can get out." (NT) -- Jake, 10:46:12 07/15/03 Tue
She nodded, a little confused to why he wouldn't want to see just her, but then again, maybe he only had certain times, and days. She squeezed his fingers in return, before she stood and tucked her hands into her hoodie pocket. "Bye Jake.." (NT) -- Kesi, 10:47:29 07/15/03 Tue
"Bye sweetie..." Every time anyone visited him, goodbyes got harder and now was no exception. (NT) -- Jake, 10:49:00 07/15/03 Tue
She offered him a small smile before she moved out the door, her gaze on Kali thoroughly emotional. "He wants to see you for a little bit..." (NT) -- Kesi, 10:50:01 07/15/03 Tue
She nodded a touch before standing slowly and heading back in. She hated the wedge that this had forced between them, but knew that there was nothing she could do personally.. Settling down opposite Jake, the pair chatted quietly until a guard came to inform them that his time was up. She kissed his cheek and they murmured their goodbyes before he was locked back up and escorted out and she returned to the waiting area... (NT) -- Kali, 10:52:41 07/15/03 Tue
She smiled a little, though she was obviously preoccupied as she stood up and waited for her friend. "All set?" (NT) -- Kesi, 10:53:34 07/15/03 Tue
"Yeah.." Her voice was soft - she hated leaving him there, seeing the wide teary look in his eyes as he shuffled off - and she hated being distanced from her other best friend. (NT) -- Kali, 10:55:30 07/15/03 Tue
She looked back to catch one last glance at him before she nodded, grabbing their purses and handing Kali hers. "Lets go then, less I am with him, this place creeps me out." (NT) -- Kesi, 10:56:31 07/15/03 Tue
"You want me to drop you off at your place?" She glanced around a bit before leading the way out - she had to agree, it was creepy there. (NT) -- Kali, 10:58:48 07/15/03 Tue
She shrugged. "'Whatever, I have nothing planned for today..." She let out a breath. "You could stick 'round my place for a bit..." She shook her head. "This sounds so stupid and juvenile, but I think we deserve it..." She smiled a little, a truce in a way. "There's a Brad Pitt Marathon on FX..." (NT) -- Kesi, 11:00:43 07/15/03 Tue
She smiled a touch at that and nodded, glancing at her friend. "Mm, yeah, we deserve it." (NT) -- Kali, 11:03:01 07/15/03 Tue
She smiled again before she headed out the doors to her friends car.... (NT) -- Kesi, 11:03:35 07/15/03 Tue

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