Subject:  Chapter 85 |
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Date Posted: 18:31:17 11/07/03 Fri
Cashmere laid in the bed fed up with herself, fed up with life. She looked down at the purple scar on her arm and sighed getting up. She took a glimpse of herself in the mirror and shook her head. It was amazing how easily she shut the people she loved out of her life. As she broke down in tears for the hundredth time that day she knew what she had to do. She had to get help. Soon.
The bright red walls were far too bright for Cashmere's liking. She sunk into the bright orange chairs of the student wellness center. She had found a way to be invisible on campus by wearing oversized sweaters and baseball caps.
Receptionist: Mrs. Harris they'll take you now.
Cashmere returned a weak smile to the receptionist as she walked into the counseling office. Cashmere knew she needed help. All she did was go to class and sleep. She found it odd that her friends didn't notice this. It gave her all the more reason to end her existence.
The tall, dark, young man hardly seemed like a counselor. He greeted Cashmere with a warm smile.
Devin: Hello Cashmere I'm Devin.
Cashmere: Hi
He motioned for Cashmere to have a seat and nervousness over took her.
Devin: So Cashmere, how are you doing?
Cashmere: Honestly not to good.
Cashmere bit her lip trying her best not to cry.
Devin:Whats going on?
Suddenly Cashmere felt a release as a loud cry rose out of her. The tears she had been holding in since Shawns death had finally came out.
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Catrina stared out the window as she sat in her Mom and Dads kitchen.
Cat: Mom?
Marion: Yes honey?
Cat: How old were you when you and Dad got married?
Marion:20. Why?
Cat: I was just wondering....I know John is the one for me
Marion: Your young
Cat: No Im not. You and Dad were only 2 years older then me and John
Marion: Okay honey if you think your in love, Im happy for you
Cat: Mom I don't think Im in love. I know I am. Im married.
Marion: Your what!
Marion missed the carrot she was cutting and cut her finger.
Marrion:Damn it!
Cat ran to get her mother a towel.
Cat: sorry Mom! Are you okay
Marion: Im fine. Your married?!!
Cat: Mom Im sorry but I didn't want anyone to talk me out of it.
Marion started to cry. Cat didn't know what to do, she didn't expect her Mom to react like this.
Cat:Im sorry Mom.
Marion:I would have liked to see my baby walk down the aisle.
Cat felt horrible.
Marion:So your married...Its okay. You'll just have another wedding here for all your family and friends to see.
Cat:You sure Mom.
Marion:Yes honey, this is very important to me.
Cat:Okay
Cat gave Marion a big hug.
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The girls sat inside Frostys that Monday afternoon. Tyra, Des and Cat all car pooled to see Jackie.
Des:Oh Jackie we miss you so much, you and Symphony.
Des gave Symphony a kiss on the cheek
Tyra:Dag shes getting huge!How many months is she now?
Jackie:She'll be 9 months next week
Cat:Man time travels fast.
Jackie:Tell me about it. Wheres Cashmere?
Des:She went to meet with her counselor
Jackie:Hows she doing?
Tyra:A lot better than before. She let us take her to the movies last night.
Jackie:Good.
Des:So Cat we've all been waiting to hear about the wedding night!
Cat:Oh my gosh yall! It was beautiful. Im so glad I waited until I was married and I know John is to.
Jackie:I bet he is.
Cat:Shut up! Just watch how blessed my marriage is going to be, because I honored God.
Tyra:Im so mad you got married without us. I wanted to be a bridesmaid
Cat:Oh yea my Mom is giving us another wedding. Its two months from now. Nothing big or anything, just something for my friends and family.
Des:Good. So we do get to be bridesmaids
Talib walked into Frostys with his girlfriend
Jackie:Look at Talibs girlfriend.Shes so dang pretty I hate her
Everyone laughed.
Des:That must be killing Krystina right now
Jackie: Girl I thought you and Krystina's problems were over.
Des:They are, they are.
Talib walked over to their table.
Talib:Whats up yall?
Des:Hey boy.
Tyra:Whos your friend?
Talib:This is Marie. Shes new in town.
Cat:Nice to meet you Marie
Marie:Nice to meet yall too.
Talib:Well were going to get a table so we can order. Congratulations on your marriage Cat. Johns real excited about it.
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Devin could not take his eyes off the long black scab that appeared on Cashmere's hand. It was their 9 th visit. And Devin was beginning to enjoy her regular visits. He found that all Cashmere really needed was someone to talk to. Someone to assure her that everything would eventually be okay.
Devin: What happened to your hand
Cashmere shrugged her shoulders.
Cashmere: Tyra left a glass of kool-aid in the room and the bugs attacked me. So anyways guess what I did this weekend?
Devin: What?
Cashmere: I actually went out. To the movies!
Devin:Thats good what did you see?
Cashmere: Scary Movie 3. It was so funny
Devin smiled happy she was making progress but he still couldn't take his eyes off her hand
Devin: Your so beautiful Cash why are you always wearing long sleeved shirts like your trapped in a snow storm.
Cash gave a nervous laugh
Cash: I don't know, I don't like to show that much skin
Devin: Are you sure that's it?
Cash: Yea Devin. Why?
Devin: Can you show me your arms?
Cashmere cut her eyes at Devin
Cash: Are you serious?
Devin: Do you cut?
Cash: No I don't Devin!
Devin: Then why cant you show me your arm?
Cash: Because I don't want to, I don't want to!
Cash bowed her head.
Devin: Cashmere, let me help you, let me help you before its too late.
Cash:It already is. I cant stop! Look at my arms!
Cash lifted her sleaves to show Devin her many scars that she herself had made.
Devin looked away in his 1 year of counseling he had seen a lot of things but nothing like this. He couldnt stand to see such a beautiful person hurt herself so deeply.
*Im back officially I cant wait for your chapter Ade I miss the soaps!
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