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Date Posted: 02:01:54 09/30/00 Sat
Author: Artur
Author Host/IP: oo2-2.ipartners.pl / 195.94.192.66
Subject: To Marcel (private post)

To everybody.

First of all, I want to mention that this post is private. I post here simply because I know that Marcel reads this forum, which I know he doesn’t do with the email. And I would like him to read this post of mine. So if you are reading this and you are not Marcel, please stop reading. This is a private stuff.

To Marcel.

I decided to write this stuff, because I am concerned. I assume there will be quite a lot of stuff here, since there are a couple of issues I want to talk about.

I would like to take a step back and talk to you like a friend talks to a friend. You are Marcel and I am Artur. You once stressed that and I remember that very well. Everything what you will find here will not be meant to cause any offence, bear that in mind.

There were times when I seemed to be forgetting that my name is Artur. I thought I was Drake. Yes, I will get back to these old times, since this related to the theme of my post. I started to think in other terms, Utopia terms and Utopia started to mean a lot to me. At some point, I started to put Utopia over my friends, which was not a good thing. I thought I was God, so superb only because I managed to get a stupid top rank in the game.

That was wrong and I needed time to understand that. You remember these times well, I presume.

Why do I refer to that? Well, Marcel, I observe you from some time. All the Alleria stuff, now this game Aldaria... I think I know you well. I had a chance to know you over these couple of years over which we game together in many many games.

Now, if GM Xane of Aldaria reads this message let me tell him “Go the fuck out of here! You’re not the person I talk to.” Now if this is Marcel who reads this post I’d say “Here you are amigo. Where have you been?”

Let me get more to the point. You might still read this message out of your pride or anger or both, but at least I will try.

Marcel, I know you have this tendency to criticize decisions made by various people. It was Jeremy once, GM Kat next etc etc... Over a course of time I observe that and I think this is due to the fact that you would like to lead things yourself... It’s not even due to what Jeremy or Kat does. You simply want to run things yourself. It’s a simply psychological fight for domination. Now, you may disagree and you probably will. I saw many people who disagreed to such a statement as I mine above, but after some time (even long period of time) they eventually admitted to it.

Now I am not blaming you for that. I know the hreat feeling of being a leader where majority salutes you and praises you. I experienced that as Drake. You remember how things were in Endoria... These people loved me... And I loved them. My influence there was very strong.

Another side note... Ebony. I remember what you did at the time when Justin disappeared. I remember how many efforts and work you put into getting this game back to life. And we did it at that time! We found John and the game started to prosper once again. We placed posts at pbem.com and at Amber list. We talked to some people and finally John came.

What you did this time? When John disappeared... You simply wrote very briefly that you give a fuck... You even didn;t say goodbye and quickly sacked the game... What a difference to the last time....

Can I tell you why you acted like this? Well, simply because at the time when Justin dropped, you played in Ebony and maybe 1 or 2 other games. Now.... ha! Now you have your Aldaria.

And slowly I am getting to there... to the thing which I want to say.

Now I was always under the impression that you would very much like to lead things, but you do not know precisely how to do this. Maybe it’s the matter of age and experience. The more mature one becomes, the more he experiences, the better conclusions he may draw.

So we have Aldaria. Surely you have people who support you now in this game. And they will be on your “side” as this is a game run by you. Jeremy had his game, where players were on his side, GM Kat has her game with the majority of players on her side. ;-)

So... you get my point? Not yet? Rings some bells.

Who is GM Xane of Aldaria? Something tells me he is heading EXACTLY in the same direction that Jeremy and GM Kat did. GM Xane of Aldaria may say “This is my game and I rule here and I am the greatest and I am GOD!”

Isn’t it exactly this what these people were saying in their games? I remember your posts about “Let’s bring some fairness to Alleria.” Or “Isn’t there any honesty left in Alleria?” etc etc... Well, maybe the words were different and I do not remember these posts exactly, but the general meaning was just this.

Does GM Xane want to be GM Kat 2?

Marcel, look at you. Look at what you are saying in this forum in Aldaria...

Did you want to combat GM Kat just to replace her and become GM Kat yourself? Is this how it work? Bitching her, just to become her yourself?

BTW, why not just Xane.... Does it have to be GM Xane? Just exactly the same as the way it is presented in Alleria? Or maybe you like this “army” style of their GMs. “Reporting to SGM Kat”. “SGM Kat ordered me to moderate this threat.” etc etc... You like it, don’t you? Even though you say you don’t and even though you fight these people... Xane (oh... pardon me, should I say GM Xane?) fights Kat, because he wants Kat to report to him and he can’t stand Kat being a decision maker about Lizardmen magic, something she is actually right about. ;-)

And what I hear in this forum, Aldaria forum, makes me wonder... You want to kick out of your game? Sure, you can do that... And sure, I will leave if this is what you wish. And moreover, if it happens like this I dare to say it will be your failure, not mine.

Why your failure not mine? As Drake, I managed to save my friendship with Marcel. Now I ask what about GM Xane of Alaria?.... Will he manage to save his friendship with Artur? Does friendship mean anything to him?

Now, don’t get me wrong here. I don’t want to say *shrug, this will be his failure, I don’t care*. Actually I do care. I wouldn’t write this message if I didn’t. The value of friendship means something to me and it’s not a thing one should treat lightly in my opinion.

But I had some friends in the past who chose different path, so if things collapse I will not force anything.

This is mostly everything I wanted to say. I wrote most things chaotically and I mixed the order as I’m writting as things appear in my mind. I tried to sort things out in this message, so I hope everything will be rather clear.

I wrote what I think and I am kinda happy that I did this. ;-) If things turn the way I fear they may turn, well, I leave with a clear heart. There are many paths, some of them are dark paths. Jeremy and Kat are already servants of the Emperor and Darth Vader. They were once tempted by the dark side of the force and now it’s too late for them. By the way, I tried once with Jeremy as you tried with Kat.

Your friend,

Artur

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