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Date Posted: 16:37:20 06/28/06 Wed
Anxiety setting in again.
I cannot believe how long these addicts will try and try to manipulate a situation. Spencer wants to be a part of my son's life but will not take a drug test. Blames it on money. ??? Ok. Then when I ask him to start helping me by giving me money for our son, he tells me that all I think about is money. I just laughed though because does he realize how stupid and selfish he sounds? He states that he is working on getting a business of the ground and cannot give me money right now but might take a loan out and pay me all the back child support blah blah blah. All I asked him to do was work a part time job on the side and send me the money he owes for child support. He has more free time then anyone I know. He says he is waiting on a contract that he will be getting soon. He said that 4 months ago. I was better off not dealing with him at all. I was much healthier. I don't want him, but he has a way of making me hurt by pointing the finger in my direction. Still blaming me. He says I kicked him out and that's why he can't take care of his son basically. Does he remember that he left me and the kids? I have a letter he wrote before he walked out to go get high. Regardless of the past, today is still today and what is real sad is that he is still the same way and actually I think he is worse. His cockiness is amazingly outrageous and I am a bad mom. ??? The cycle is still there. One week I spoke to him (2 weeks ago), he was arrogant, the next week he was sad and saying ok it sounds like you guys are having fun so I won't bother you, then last night he was screaming at me and cussing me out then today he called to apologize but was angry and said he was only apologizing for screaming and cussing at me, not the fact that he put me down several times. I wasn't nice to him last evening on the phone because he was saying that if he wanted to take his son somewhere, I had no business asking questions about who he was with, where he went, etc. I told him I had every right and that he had no rights.
Is he really that stupid? I mean come on now. He even said he doens't care about what the judge says and that he won't pay for a drug test even if it's ordered.
Please pray that this is over soon. I wish he would get off drugs and be the person he should be for his son, but at the same time 'he's not' so I hope he goes away. Sad but true. He is not going to hurt my boy in any way, especially mentally, emotionally, and physcologically. I have been feeling bad about the whole situation and my son misses his dad, but I was reminded that my baby boy is only 4 and cannot understand why I don't want him around his own dad.
I need support guys, I am hurting over this. Not for me but for my baby and this whole situation. I have decided to get a restraining order against him because I see now that this is not going to stop. I have so much on him and it's time I stop feeling sorry for him and start living with my boys completely.
Prayers please, comments...
Thanks,
Heather
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