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Date Posted: 11:24:26 05/16/06 Tue
My son will be 25 this week; addicted to meth for 5 years, rehab at 21; continued heavy use with a few brief periods of clean time, lasting a couple of months each time. For me and my family, those times were truly glorious and meaningful - because I know without a doubt that my real son is still in there, somewhere. But the meth use creates a whole different character: violent, paranoid, deceitful, manipulative, humorless and ungrateful. This is not my son and I cannot have a relationship with this imposter - for moral, mental and physical integrity to myself and to my real son.
This Mother's Day was uneventful and pleasant, due to the efforts of my daughter and her husband, as well as my husband. My son arrived at the restaurant late, and brooding. He had been clean since October, got engaged and lived with us to save money. I bonded with his adorable fiance. By the end of March, his behavior dramatically changed, and we asked him to leave. He stayed with my daughter for a short while and now rents a room in another city - which one I do not know. He denies using, of course, but admits to alcohol use. He moved out of our home with the usual string of profanities, threats, etc., and said that I was - get this - a "pillpopper." Apparently, because I use aspirin, and take a prescription medication (no narcotics, tranqs, sleep, mind-altering meds, or alcohol, ever) to control symptoms associated with mild lupus and hypothyroid - then I'm the one with the problem. I mistakenly tried to discuss this with him, and he flew into a rage. One of the last things I said, was, "You are a very sad person, son. I love you and I always will. But, I am very sad for you and am praying for you. Please, look at yourself and seek help." He hung up but showed up for daughter's birthday and Mother's Day.
I am trying like hell to disengage from his drama, and I think I've learned to do that with some finnesse over the years. But, the last couple of days I have felt extremely tired and depressed - and have to force myself to go through the motions of daily life.
Thank you for listening. I can really sympathize with all you mothers out there - and the rest as well. I've turned to this board for the past year, but never posted out of fear of recognition. Oh well.
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