| Subject: Re: Mother's Day Aftermath |
Author:
Shari
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Date Posted: 06:25:06 05/17/06 Wed
In reply to:
Momofprodigal
's message, "Mother's Day Aftermath" on 11:24:26 05/16/06 Tue
Sometimes we forget to look at the positive.
Your addict showed up, late and brooding, but he was there. You know he is alive which means he still has a chance for God to turn him around someday.
Your daughter and her husband went through efforts to celebrate your day with you! Your husband was there with you.
You can have my Mother's Day instead if you want.
I was sicker than chit and had to get out of bed only to be extremely misserable all day while I attempted to take care of the needs of my two year old and my 9 month old. I woke up to a car honking only to find out that my two year old has learned how to get out of his crib and over the gate to his room. He was sitting on the couch with the contents of my purse emptied pushing the panic button on my car keys. He had already totally destroyed the upstairs, and most of the contents of my refrigerator was on the floor. My two year old threw up on me twice, and purposely misbehaved all day because he misses his dad. My 9 month old was ornery because he didn't get special loving and attention. I cried most of the day because I was so sick and it was so hard to take care of them.
This is my 3rd Mother's Day, and once again didn't have any pictures taken of my children with me. In fact, most of my pictures of my kids are of just them. To get pictures of them with me I have to go to a photographer.
There was nobody here to make my day special for me because my addict husband is in prison, my children are too young to know the concept, the grandparents keep their distance because they don't want to deal with the situation, any other relatives are far away, the neighbors don't want anything to do with us because they know my husband is a meth addict, I have no friends because half this town is on meth and they know I call the police (don't want anything to do with them anyway), and the half that is not doesn't give me the time of day because they just don't understand.
My positives? I know where my addict is, he is alive, and he is getting help. God willing, he will make it. I have been blessed with two beautiful boys that will someday know the concept of Mother's Day, and will someday realize that Mommy is not the reason Daddy is not here and will stop taking it out on me. I am not on drugs so at least my boys have someone to raise them that puts their needs first. I won't be sick forever, but right now it sure seems like it!
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