Date Posted:14:16:18 10/29/09 Thu Author: Esther Subject: Yeah. I suspected *G* >>> In reply to:
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And thank you for making him vulnerable, which makes him even more irresistble, a thing I didn't think possible. Now I not only want to throw down with him, but then take him home afterward and feed him pie. *G*
“Darian.” Fallon panted out the words. “Please, for the love of mother…Heather’s suffering. Do it.”
Darian looked straight at me and then shook his head. “She wouldn’t…” He coughed, blood mixed in with the spittle. “She…doesn’t…want me…t—”
Against my will, my gaze went to Cadmus, imploring him to help.
Cadmus’s resigned eyes met mine. “I warned you. It’s a battle neither can win, but which neither can give
up.”
Darian collapsed to his knees, an image of Fallon. Almost. Fallon’s arms were still restrained behind his back; Darian’s were braced in front of him. But both gasped for breath. Both complexions were an unnatural shade. Sweat formed on Fallon’s hairline, the arousing scent of him shifting to a sweet, sick odour conveying the extent of his suffering. Darian’s hands were curled into fists, his agony showing in the way the veins stood out in relief on his forearms.
Well, fine. Narcissistic, egotistical males. A strange woman messing around in my head? This was so not happening.
I love this thought of Heather's!
Yeah. I did too. But then I took the swear words out and…it’s just not the same *G*
With the little I felt of it, I concentrated on the pain, drawing it inward, imagining it as a tangible being, growing with purpose, feasting on my essence, consuming me until it wanted only what I possessed. Taunted with what it couldn’t have, it came sizzling toward me with the intent to incinerate my physical form to ashes.
Ooh, verra nice the way you made the pain almost a living entity. Makes me see clearly how intense the pain was in a much more effective way than saying, "The pain was intense." Show not tell, indeed! Bravo!
Thank You!
Warmth, as necessary as breathing, brought the
conception of a blazing fire. We all sighed in
relief. But then our breather
Huh? Typo?
Well, not that I can see, but this never read right to me either. Thank you for pointing out that it just wasn’t me. *G*
Worse now, because Fallon lived in me. In addition to what I felt, he now contended with the backlash of what Darian had living inside him. His anguish tripled because of my whim. My hasty actions ensured Darian would have a chance at the cost of Fallon’s existence.
I must confess this last paragraph lost me.
Well…hmmmm…that wasn’t suppost to happen…okay…let’s test my theory *G*
Darian lives _for_ her, Fallon lives _in_ her. Fallon’s first sentence in this scene was a hint that Darian had the power to stop the pain for all of them. But Darian didn’t do it, because his nature doesn’t allow him to do anything against Heather’s wishes. Fallon suffers no such compunction. In the meantime though, Heather thought to end it, and she knows she can because of the time Darian gave her unfettered access to his power. Lisha, told Heather she was causing their distress and Heather acted without thinking. In the meantime, Fallon, who has that engaging twin of perception, anticipated her acting just thus and waited, and then when the opportunity presented itself, took the pain she had, as well as the pain she assumed from Darian, into himself. Now the trouble is that Darian’s temperament and Fallon’s personality clash. Darian gives. Fallon takes. And that thoughtfulness, the absolute purity of heart Darian possesses, now that its _in_ Fallon, makes Fallon see his strength as failing and consequently, makes him weak. And weak immortals are vulnerable.
My Heart, you stopped time. Fallon is fighting the effects to get back to you.
I'm lost again. I thought time didn't exist for them?
Oh. Yeah. Well, technically it doesn’t because they can manipulate it. But…they do have a conscious notion that it’s there. I mean it has to exist on some level if it can be twisted for their own purposes. Darian and Fallon do dabble with the females in the mortal sense after all. And Heather is very aware of time, in fact still wears her watch, and thinks that she can protect Fallon if he isn’t aware of time passing. But of course he does, and she can’t, because it is.
His lashes flickered open, and with utter ruthlessness, Darian sought the reflections.
Whew! *wipes brow* If Fallon had died, I would have had to come up there and give you a good talking to. After I'd cleaned your pool.
LOL The pool is froze over and the pool boy is a deflated thought in the back of my mind until next year when he’ll re-emerge as a wish of sorts. But feel free to give me a good talking to anyway. *G*
Woman, as soon as I think I know what's going on, I get lost again. *G*
Well that’s cool! I’d hate to think that I’m predictable. ;-)
Let me explain what's confusing me.
In my understanding (which is puny, at best *G*), Darian exists to make dreams come true -- the perfect man, fulfilling every romantic desire, always ready, always willing, never out of sorts or preoccupied, making every woman he's with believe that, Yes, by God, she is a queen, his queen, the most desirable woman ever born. Fallon exists to fulfill dreams, too, but the dreams a woman ever knew she had -- the forbidden dreams of being dominated, mastered, taken. The rough, demanding physical release she never knew was possible until he shows her, wanting for the sake of having, with no restrictions whatsoever.
Close. So very very close. But not quite. And I’m blaming this on you reading this in chunks every couple months when I get around to posting. And for that reason, as well as having a good grasp of this to understand what follows, I’ll try and explain. *G*
Darian is love, and yes, as corny as that is, he is everything that is good in the world. But he is not the perfect man, nor does he exist to satisfy a woman who seeks pleasure. He exists to satisfy the heart’s desire. I think the confusion comes in cause Heather’s heart’s desire was to have Darian as her lover, fantasy and dream. *G*
Fallon is lust, and no, he is not everything that is evil, because this is not a story about good kissing evil’s gorgeous backside before kicking it out the door as bad. Fallon’s motives are as pure as Darian’s, it’s just that he exists to service those women whose desires stray beyond their own comfort level. Basically, everything you said. *G* With the distinction that the fantasy doesn’t matter. Dominant. Submissive. One. Two. Three. Fallon, can and does, enjoy swinging both ways and everything in between.
I guess it can be summed up as Darian services the psychological and Fallon services the physical.
But. And here's where I get lost. Fallon claimed Heather as his, even before she was born, which was obviously a big no-no in their world. And then sent Darian to show Heather that world existed? Is it because Darian sent her back that's causing the problems? Would Fallon have come to her sooner if Darian hadn't sent her back? I'm also getting a Harry Potter like "one cannot live while the other survives" feel, and I don't understand why.
Fallon claimed Heather when she was conceived to protect her from their world, and because to do so means he could exist inside her. And really what better place to ensure her needs/wants were being met and that she was safe?
He sent her to Darian true. His reasons for doing so are many, but mainly because he knew Heather’s potential and he suspected his brother’s solitary life with no one to love was making/keeping him weak. Which it was by the way. But Fallon also expected Darian to recognize her for what she was and claim her himself, because loop holes always exist in a world that can be anything you want to make it. Right? And Darian could live and not just exist. He could protect her. Openly. Without judgement or consequence.
So…yeah, eternity passes, Darian’s magic grows and then he sends her back. Okay it wasn’t his decision, but in hindsight, still it was a mistake. Fallon knew she remembered what others could not. Big problem. And because Darian had fulfilled her need to know what he experienced, Darian’s magic is inside her for her to use at will. Basically, he gave her everything of himself, except the protection his power as her mate would provide, which is what females need above all else. And yeah, she uses his magic. How can she not when he is love and she loves him? But she doesn’t realize the consequences. Fallon does. And others are questioning/involved now because they shouldn’t be catching scent of Darian and they are. Big time. And bigger problem.
Would Fallon have come to her sooner if Darian hadn’t sent her back? No. He wouldn’t have come to her at all. Cause, you see, until Fallon scented her need, he didn’t want her. His magic is only called upon when there is need and so he did not exist for her until feelings of lust became her reality as well. And as we’ve seen, there is more to Heather than even Fallon suspected, so now he’s as susceptible to her whims as Darian is.
As for the Harry Potter “one cannot live while the other survives” feel, I gotta say this has me smiling. I can see where it’s coming from, I think *G*, and love the implications. Can’t say any more than that. *G*
I guess the main thing that's confusing me is this -- if they're so all powerful, then why is it possible for her to hurt them? And if Fallon claimed her, why would it hurt Darian if she chose Fallon?
Why is it possible for her to hurt them? Easy. Cause individually, they can’t satisfy her and really that is why they exist. She’s unhappy. They hurt.
And if Fallon claimed her, why would it hurt Darian if she chose Fallon? Easy. Because being with Heather has brought Darian to a higher awareness of his full power, his full potential. How can love love, if he only feels heartbreak?
Aaarrggghhh! *G*
Hey honey, I’m right there with ya! *G*
As always, very compelling story. I just wish I wasn't so lost.
LOL No doubt. But alas, I’m now backtracking to see if I have anything of my comments implied anywhere. *G* Wish me luck…
>And thank you for making him vulnerable, which
>makes him even more irresistble, a thing I didn't
>think possible. Now I not only want to throw down
>with him, but then take him home afterward and feed
>him pie. *G*
>
>LOL YW!
>
>Funny thing though. Fallon doesn’t eat…pie.
>*G*
>
>Well, fine. Narcissistic, egotistical males. A
>strange woman messing around in my head? This was so
>not happening.
>
>I love this thought of Heather's!
>
>Yeah. I did too. But then I took the swear
>words out and…it’s just not the same *G*
Just wondering...why the edit?
>
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>Worse now, because Fallon lived in me. In addition to
>what I felt, he now contended with the backlash of
>what Darian had living inside him. His anguish
>tripled because of my whim. My hasty actions ensured
>Darian would have a chance at the cost of Fallon’s
>existence.
>
>I must confess this last paragraph lost me.
>
>Well…hmmmm…that wasn’t suppost to
>happen…okay…let’s test my theory *G*
>
>Darian lives _for_ her, Fallon lives _in_ her.
>Fallon’s first sentence in this scene was a hint that
>Darian had the power to stop the pain for all of them.
> But Darian didn’t do it, because his nature doesn’t
>allow him to do anything against Heather’s wishes.
>Fallon suffers no such compunction. In the meantime
>though, Heather thought to end it, and she knows she
>can because of the time Darian gave her unfettered
>access to his power. Lisha, told Heather she was
>causing their distress and Heather acted without
>thinking. In the meantime, Fallon, who has that
>engaging twin of perception, anticipated her acting
>just thus and waited, and then when the opportunity
>presented itself, took the pain she had, as well as
>the pain she assumed from Darian, into himself. Now
>the trouble is that Darian’s temperament and Fallon’s
>personality clash. Darian gives. Fallon takes. And
>that thoughtfulness, the absolute purity of heart
>Darian possesses, now that its _in_ Fallon, makes
>Fallon see his strength as failing and consequently,
>makes him weak. And weak immortals are
>vulnerable.
> Aha, aha, aHA! Methinks I get it now. So our Fallon can feel more than physical release now. He feels Darian's pain because Heather feels it. Okay, making sense now.
>
>
>
>His lashes flickered open, and with utter
>ruthlessness, Darian sought the reflections.
>
>
>
>
>Darian is love, and yes, as corny as that is, he is
>everything that is good in the world. But he is not
>the perfect man, nor does he exist to satisfy a woman
>who seeks pleasure. He exists to satisfy the heart’s
>desire. I think the confusion comes in cause
>Heather’s heart’s desire was to have Darian as her
>lover, fantasy and dream. *G*
>
>Fallon is lust, and no, he is not everything that is
>evil, because this is not a story about good kissing
>evil’s gorgeous backside before kicking it out the
>door as bad. Fallon’s motives are as pure as
>Darian’s, it’s just that he exists to service those
>women whose desires stray beyond their own comfort
>level. Basically, everything you said. *G* With the
>distinction that the fantasy doesn’t matter.
>Dominant. Submissive. One. Two. Three. Fallon,
>can and does, enjoy swinging both ways and everything
>in between.
>
>I guess it can be summed up as Darian services the
>psychological and Fallon services the physical.
>
Oh, oh, oh!! I understand now!
>
>But. And here's where I get lost. Fallon claimed
>Heather as his, even before she was born, which was
>obviously a big no-no in their world. And then sent
>Darian to show Heather that world existed? Is it
>because Darian sent her back that's causing the
>problems? Would Fallon have come to her sooner if
>Darian hadn't sent her back? I'm also getting a Harry
>Potter like "one cannot live while the other survives"
>feel, and I don't understand why.
>
>Fallon claimed Heather when she was conceived to
>protect her from their world, and because to do so
>means he could exist inside her. And really what
>better place to ensure her needs/wants were being met
>and that she was safe?
>
>He sent her to Darian true. His reasons for doing so
>are many, but mainly because he knew Heather’s
>potential and he suspected his brother’s solitary life
>with no one to love was making/keeping him weak.
>Which it was by the way. But Fallon also expected
>Darian to recognize her for what she was and claim her
>himself, because loop holes always exist in a world
>that can be anything you want to make it. Right? And
>Darian could live and not just exist. He could
>protect her. Openly. Without judgement or
>consequence.
Oh! He claimed her so Darian could have her when she was grown! Bless his pointed little head.
>
>Would Fallon have come to her sooner if Darian hadn’t
>sent her back? No. He wouldn’t have come to her at
>all. Cause, you see, until Fallon scented her need,
>he didn’t want her. His magic is only called upon
>when there is need and so he did not exist for her
>until feelings of lust became her reality as well.
>And as we’ve seen, there is more to Heather than even
>Fallon suspected, so now he’s as susceptible to her
>whims as Darian is.
>
>As for the Harry Potter “one cannot live while the
>other survives” feel, I gotta say this has me smiling.
> I can see where it’s coming from, I think *G*, and
>love the implications. Can’t say any more than that.
>*G*
Are you going to....are they going to....can they do that? But, but...can't she just have both of them? I'd be quite willing to give it a test run for her, just to make sure it would work...Y'know.
>
>I guess the main thing that's confusing me is this --
>if they're so all powerful, then why is it possible
>for her to hurt them? And if Fallon claimed her, why
>would it hurt Darian if she chose Fallon?
>
>Why is it possible for her to hurt them? Easy.
>Cause individually, they can’t satisfy her and really
>that is why they exist. She’s unhappy. They hurt.
>
>And if Fallon claimed her, why would it hurt Darian if
>she chose Fallon? Easy. Because being with Heather
>has brought Darian to a higher awareness of his full
>power, his full potential. How can love love, if he
>only feels heartbreak?
Okay, and now Fallon can feel that, too, right? And since Heather loves him, and he can't really love back, he's not satisfying her. And Darian...but he's proved he just might be able to satisfy her the way Fallon can. Or am I getting that wrong?
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