Date Posted:15:43:37 10/31/09 Sat Author:Page Subject: In which the lightbulb finally goes off over my head >>>> In reply to:
Esther
's message, "Yeah. I suspected *G* >>>" on 14:16:18 10/29/09 Thu
>And thank you for making him vulnerable, which
>makes him even more irresistble, a thing I didn't
>think possible. Now I not only want to throw down
>with him, but then take him home afterward and feed
>him pie. *G*
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>LOL YW!
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>Funny thing though. Fallon doesn’t eat…pie.
>*G*
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>Well, fine. Narcissistic, egotistical males. A
>strange woman messing around in my head? This was so
>not happening.
>
>I love this thought of Heather's!
>
>Yeah. I did too. But then I took the swear
>words out and…it’s just not the same *G*
Just wondering...why the edit?
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>Worse now, because Fallon lived in me. In addition to
>what I felt, he now contended with the backlash of
>what Darian had living inside him. His anguish
>tripled because of my whim. My hasty actions ensured
>Darian would have a chance at the cost of Fallon’s
>existence.
>
>I must confess this last paragraph lost me.
>
>Well…hmmmm…that wasn’t suppost to
>happen…okay…let’s test my theory *G*
>
>Darian lives _for_ her, Fallon lives _in_ her.
>Fallon’s first sentence in this scene was a hint that
>Darian had the power to stop the pain for all of them.
> But Darian didn’t do it, because his nature doesn’t
>allow him to do anything against Heather’s wishes.
>Fallon suffers no such compunction. In the meantime
>though, Heather thought to end it, and she knows she
>can because of the time Darian gave her unfettered
>access to his power. Lisha, told Heather she was
>causing their distress and Heather acted without
>thinking. In the meantime, Fallon, who has that
>engaging twin of perception, anticipated her acting
>just thus and waited, and then when the opportunity
>presented itself, took the pain she had, as well as
>the pain she assumed from Darian, into himself. Now
>the trouble is that Darian’s temperament and Fallon’s
>personality clash. Darian gives. Fallon takes. And
>that thoughtfulness, the absolute purity of heart
>Darian possesses, now that its _in_ Fallon, makes
>Fallon see his strength as failing and consequently,
>makes him weak. And weak immortals are
>vulnerable.
> Aha, aha, aHA! Methinks I get it now. So our Fallon can feel more than physical release now. He feels Darian's pain because Heather feels it. Okay, making sense now.
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>His lashes flickered open, and with utter
>ruthlessness, Darian sought the reflections.
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>Darian is love, and yes, as corny as that is, he is
>everything that is good in the world. But he is not
>the perfect man, nor does he exist to satisfy a woman
>who seeks pleasure. He exists to satisfy the heart’s
>desire. I think the confusion comes in cause
>Heather’s heart’s desire was to have Darian as her
>lover, fantasy and dream. *G*
>
>Fallon is lust, and no, he is not everything that is
>evil, because this is not a story about good kissing
>evil’s gorgeous backside before kicking it out the
>door as bad. Fallon’s motives are as pure as
>Darian’s, it’s just that he exists to service those
>women whose desires stray beyond their own comfort
>level. Basically, everything you said. *G* With the
>distinction that the fantasy doesn’t matter.
>Dominant. Submissive. One. Two. Three. Fallon,
>can and does, enjoy swinging both ways and everything
>in between.
>
>I guess it can be summed up as Darian services the
>psychological and Fallon services the physical.
>
Oh, oh, oh!! I understand now!
>
>But. And here's where I get lost. Fallon claimed
>Heather as his, even before she was born, which was
>obviously a big no-no in their world. And then sent
>Darian to show Heather that world existed? Is it
>because Darian sent her back that's causing the
>problems? Would Fallon have come to her sooner if
>Darian hadn't sent her back? I'm also getting a Harry
>Potter like "one cannot live while the other survives"
>feel, and I don't understand why.
>
>Fallon claimed Heather when she was conceived to
>protect her from their world, and because to do so
>means he could exist inside her. And really what
>better place to ensure her needs/wants were being met
>and that she was safe?
>
>He sent her to Darian true. His reasons for doing so
>are many, but mainly because he knew Heather’s
>potential and he suspected his brother’s solitary life
>with no one to love was making/keeping him weak.
>Which it was by the way. But Fallon also expected
>Darian to recognize her for what she was and claim her
>himself, because loop holes always exist in a world
>that can be anything you want to make it. Right? And
>Darian could live and not just exist. He could
>protect her. Openly. Without judgement or
>consequence.
Oh! He claimed her so Darian could have her when she was grown! Bless his pointed little head.
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>Would Fallon have come to her sooner if Darian hadn’t
>sent her back? No. He wouldn’t have come to her at
>all. Cause, you see, until Fallon scented her need,
>he didn’t want her. His magic is only called upon
>when there is need and so he did not exist for her
>until feelings of lust became her reality as well.
>And as we’ve seen, there is more to Heather than even
>Fallon suspected, so now he’s as susceptible to her
>whims as Darian is.
>
>As for the Harry Potter “one cannot live while the
>other survives” feel, I gotta say this has me smiling.
> I can see where it’s coming from, I think *G*, and
>love the implications. Can’t say any more than that.
>*G*
Are you going to....are they going to....can they do that? But, but...can't she just have both of them? I'd be quite willing to give it a test run for her, just to make sure it would work...Y'know.
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>I guess the main thing that's confusing me is this --
>if they're so all powerful, then why is it possible
>for her to hurt them? And if Fallon claimed her, why
>would it hurt Darian if she chose Fallon?
>
>Why is it possible for her to hurt them? Easy.
>Cause individually, they can’t satisfy her and really
>that is why they exist. She’s unhappy. They hurt.
>
>And if Fallon claimed her, why would it hurt Darian if
>she chose Fallon? Easy. Because being with Heather
>has brought Darian to a higher awareness of his full
>power, his full potential. How can love love, if he
>only feels heartbreak?
Okay, and now Fallon can feel that, too, right? And since Heather loves him, and he can't really love back, he's not satisfying her. And Darian...but he's proved he just might be able to satisfy her the way Fallon can. Or am I getting that wrong?
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