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Date Posted: 13:23:28 11/08/04 Mon
In reply to:
Shani
's message, "Re: Anyone live in the UK?" on 10:04:29 11/07/04 Sun
I met with Prema today, the study abroad head. We discussed Oxford. So, here I sit, contemplating my future; and the more I think about the possibility, the more I feel that such a change might be the best thing I could do for myself at this point in my life. The only problem is that this year has been going so well academically, and leaving SL just when things are falling into place is what I would be doing. It is that I crave change, need change, but I am scared of it too. Still I keep thinking that what Oxford could do for me, is help me find myself, define myself, without the baggage that I have been carrying here. It could be so freeing–ironically, I think that that is what I am scared of–and still that is also why I feel I should go–to expand myself and face change head on. I keep telling myself that there is no progress without change, and there is no change without risk; but truthfully without change, without risk, there is no future worth living. I think I want to apply.
>>I am contemplating studying at Oxford next year? I
>>would be going abroad as a junior.
>>I think going could be amazing. But I am scared as
>>Hell that I will not be able to handle it. I don't
>>know what I am more afraid of: the food, the work, the
>>change... (What I eat is vegetables and nutrition
>>bars. I cannot eat "prepared" dishes; I haven't in
>>over 7 years.) But, I keep thinking that I could,
>>possibly, grow so much. Just maybe I would find myself
>>there, which is more than I could ask for. I don't
>>want to make this decision based on fear, so if I base
>>it on what I believe I will regret, I might very well
>>be throwing myself into something I won't be able to
>>handle, which isn't any better. I just want "this
>>life" to be over, and I think that in going I could
>>perhaps do that. I could change so much. But then I
>>know that I can never escape myself, and that is what
>>I dream of most. I want to go, but I am so scared of
>>it all...
>>
>>So if anyone lives in the UK, could you maybe tell me
>>about it–food and all?
>>I would really appreciate it.
>>
>>lara
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>Lara,
>Personally, I think that you should do it...weird food
>habits and all. I moved from GA to Chicago a little
>over a year ago. It's not moving overseas, by any
>means, but my reasoning was the same as yours. I
>wanted to grow and change and become someone
>different. And I have done those things. It's
>amazing (like Fran said) the difference that I see in
>myself from when I was living there in GA. I see
>myself then and see how much more mature and free I am
>now. I do struggle with how people to see me and I
>still hate to eat in front of people and all of those
>things, but I am self-sufficient now. It's like I
>needed to do this to know that I could take of myself
>and wasn't going to end up like the people that I knew
>back home. I felt like I was drowning there. It was
>hard moving here and having to face some things about
>myself, but it was worth it. I say, go to England.
>When are you ever going to have a chance like that
>again? Do it now while you are young and have few
>ties. You don't want to look back and regret not
>taking this chance.
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