| Subject: Re: Just need to vent (sorry Courtney!) |
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lara
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Date Posted: 14:53:32 09/26/04 Sun
In reply to:
lara
's message, "Re: Just need to vent" on 14:48:52 09/26/04 Sun
Sorry about all the typos–especially your name Courtney! I didn't mean to post the reply like that, but my browser did!
if you need anything, just ask,
lara
>Courteny,
>you are conscious that the ed doesn't just vanish...
>somehow you need to let your parent's know this too,
>even if it is your senior year! Because your ed will
>be there–active, haunting you, following you, and
>stealing senior year from you...
>listen, I am a sophmore in college and what I can tell
>you is that some things will get easier once you leave
>home, but somethings you will wish you had confronted
>and dealt with before you left.
>Try to look for an outlet where you feel free to
>express and explore yourself, the real you, not the ed
>you. Look for something positve: Do you write, play
>music, enjoy the arts... Volunteer to
>babysit–watching children and playing in their
>imaginary world can help you escape your ed and see
>thngs in ways you never have... Or do something you
>have never done before and even feel silly doing. Try
>to find yourself, define yourself, without the ed and
>without food.
>Because you are worth more than your ed, and you are
>worth seeking help, even if you miss some of your
>senior year... You are worth taking care of!
>
>lara
>
>
>it will be ok...
>>I talk to friends but if I tell my consuler he will
>>make me get help and its my senior year and I can't
>>aford to miss school. My parents know but thinks it's
>>not happening anymore and I just "turned it off"...
>>like thats possiable. Thats for the help...
>>Courtney
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>>>Courtney,
>>>
>>>Are you talking to anyone–a good psychologist, an
>>>informed nutritionist, someone you trust? Listen, I
>>>cannot stand the way I feel when I've eaten either. I
>>>hate it when I can feel the food inside me–my stomach
>>>seems to blow up–but I realize that a lot of what I
>am
>>>feeling is ana. In other words, even if you don't eat
>>>you still won't feel comfortable in your own skin!
>>>Eating disorders are not about the food, you know
>>>that. And not eating is really not going to help you.
>>>You may think it will, but it won't. It will just
>make
>>>you sick, I know...
>>>
>>>If you think about it, having an ED is kind of like
>>>being an alcoholic. Alcohol numbs the pain for an
>>>alcoholic just like not eating numbs the pain for the
>>>anorexic. But the pain is still there and your
>trapped
>>>feeling like a failure, hurting, and not knowing
>>>why... None of us chose to have an ED; somehow we all
>>>developed them, and they are horrible friends that
>>>stab you in the back repeatedly! Because it is not
>>>about the food, and EDs only twist reality to make
>you
>>>think it is: EDs are about something in your past,
>the
>>>way you feel about yourself, obsessions and
>>>distortions, "perfection" and the feeling of "not
>>>being good enough," a lack of self and a pain that
>you
>>>are desperately trying to "fix" with food but may
>not
>>>even recognize. I hope you find someone that you can
>>>confide in, because these feelings aren't going to
>>>just go away, even if you don't eat. Try to remember
>>>that an ED is just the symptom of underlying
>>>problems...
>>>
>>>take care,
>>>lara
>>>
>>>>Ok so I am so stuck. I was so happy when school was
>>>>starting because you know I won't have anyone
>>watching
>>>>to see if I eat or purge. But then the double ended
>>>>sword, if i don't eat I get dizzy and fall down. I
>am
>>>>stuck and my mom is a teacher at school so i just
>>>>don't know what to do. I mean I can't stand the was
>>it
>>>>feels when I eat. Like I am this discustiong thing.
>I
>>>>hate it. What do i do does anyone have any idea. I
>am
>>>>taking vitames everyday but still nothing.
>>>>Lost,
>>>>Courtney
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