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lara
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Date Posted: 14:48:52 09/26/04 Sun
In reply to:
Courtney
's message, "Re: Just need to vent" on 14:24:42 09/26/04 Sun
Courteny,
you are conscious that the ed doesn't just vanish...
somehow you need to let your parent's know this too, even if it is your senior year! Because your ed will be there–active, haunting you, following you, and stealing senior year from you...
listen, I am a sophmore in college and what I can tell you is that some things will get easier once you leave home, but somethings you will wish you had confronted and dealt with before you left.
Try to look for an outlet where you feel free to express and explore yourself, the real you, not the ed you. Look for something positve: Do you write, play music, enjoy the arts... Volunteer to babysit–watching children and playing in their imaginary world can help you escape your ed and see thngs in ways you never have... Or do something you have never done before and even feel silly doing. Try to find yourself, define yourself, without the ed and without food.
Because you are worth more than your ed, and you are worth seeking help, even if you miss some of your senior year... You are worth taking care of!
lara
it will be ok...
>I talk to friends but if I tell my consuler he will
>make me get help and its my senior year and I can't
>aford to miss school. My parents know but thinks it's
>not happening anymore and I just "turned it off"...
>like thats possiable. Thats for the help...
>Courtney
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>>Courtney,
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>>Are you talking to anyone–a good psychologist, an
>>informed nutritionist, someone you trust? Listen, I
>>cannot stand the way I feel when I've eaten either. I
>>hate it when I can feel the food inside me–my stomach
>>seems to blow up–but I realize that a lot of what I am
>>feeling is ana. In other words, even if you don't eat
>>you still won't feel comfortable in your own skin!
>>Eating disorders are not about the food, you know
>>that. And not eating is really not going to help you.
>>You may think it will, but it won't. It will just make
>>you sick, I know...
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>>If you think about it, having an ED is kind of like
>>being an alcoholic. Alcohol numbs the pain for an
>>alcoholic just like not eating numbs the pain for the
>>anorexic. But the pain is still there and your trapped
>>feeling like a failure, hurting, and not knowing
>>why... None of us chose to have an ED; somehow we all
>>developed them, and they are horrible friends that
>>stab you in the back repeatedly! Because it is not
>>about the food, and EDs only twist reality to make you
>>think it is: EDs are about something in your past, the
>>way you feel about yourself, obsessions and
>>distortions, "perfection" and the feeling of "not
>>being good enough," a lack of self and a pain that you
>>are desperately trying to "fix" with food but may not
>>even recognize. I hope you find someone that you can
>>confide in, because these feelings aren't going to
>>just go away, even if you don't eat. Try to remember
>>that an ED is just the symptom of underlying
>>problems...
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>>take care,
>>lara
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>>>Ok so I am so stuck. I was so happy when school was
>>>starting because you know I won't have anyone
>watching
>>>to see if I eat or purge. But then the double ended
>>>sword, if i don't eat I get dizzy and fall down. I am
>>>stuck and my mom is a teacher at school so i just
>>>don't know what to do. I mean I can't stand the was
>it
>>>feels when I eat. Like I am this discustiong thing. I
>>>hate it. What do i do does anyone have any idea. I am
>>>taking vitames everyday but still nothing.
>>>Lost,
>>>Courtney
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