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Date Posted: 22:24:35 01/07/09 Wed
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's message, "In Hack for Christmas, Part 1" on 22:10:57 12/23/08 Tue
In Hack for Christmas, Part 4
Author: Maximus
(Sue) It’s strange that you would know it was his sperm. They try to keep that confidential.
(S) It is a long story but I refused to accept any other. We have worked as partners for 8 years and are desperately in love with each other but the regulations forbid fraternization between couples in the same command. If we marry, we will be separated and might end up on different sides of the world. We want and need to be together forever.
This way I can prove in-vitro fertilization as a single parent which is allowed in the Navy. I can keep my honor intact and everyone wins. We have fooled around a lot but never went all the way so we can safeguard our choice. This way we can have both, our baby and our relationship.
(Sue) So the regulations have forced you to go thru all this trouble just so you can be together. That sounds so stupid. I would think they would want you to be happy.
I have 3 grown children and none have been in the service. Being between 26 and 33, they lead normal lives and I now have 4 grandchildren. I lost my husband 2 years ago and find myself free to sub in on holiday to free up others to be with their families. I know it is important for them to share this time with their kids as I did earlier in life.
My job really “sucks” at times. If today is average, some of my patients will live and some will die in a small Maryland town named Cumberland. We all try to make the number of living ones outnumber the dying. We all try so hard to make a real difference but it still happens.
After you explained your situation, I can tell you truly that you should make every day count and you should marry your guy as soon as you can. Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed to anyone.
(S) Harm and I are living charmed lives because we have been thru so much that should have killed both of us. We accept what you say as truth but duty is our burden if we are to be together.
(Sue) I guess my retort to that would be “screw the navy”. I am sure you both could get good jobs being paralegals or something. The children of dying patients never seem to care about what their parent did for a living. The love among the family is what endures.
(S) I concede your point. We are definitely heading that direction but it must be done correctly to avoid both court marshal and confinement. Before meeting Harm, being alone didn’t bother me but that has all changed now. He has changed my whole life for the better. One look from him sometimes turns my insides to jelly. He turns me on big-time.
(Sue) My husband had that effect on me also. What is it about Harm that makes you want only him?
(S) Hmm……….that is a good question. I guess it is the whole package. How he looks at me, how he gets tongue tied around me, how he shows me respect, how he intends to keep every promise he makes to me, and the lust I see in his eyes that is mixed with love sometimes. Our celibacy at times frustrates us to the point of distraction. The effect he has had on so many people as he does his job, the coffee he brings that is just like I like it. He does thousands of things and some are just to make sure I know how special he thinks I am. The whole package makes him what I love so much.
(Sue) Do you make him feel the same way?
(S) I believe…… I do…….……..…..most of the time. Why haven’t I asked myself that question before? I have days of the month that cause me problems and he shares in those with me. I am sure you can relate to that.
(Sue) I can relate but you need to remember they are not his problem, there yours. You don’t get a free pass to act like a bitch just because you don’t feel good. He can help during those times making you feel better if you have not dumped a load of crap on him.
(S) You’re right. He is a person that is “up” most of the time and he knows me so well that my bad mood can totally mess up his day at times. I can see I need to work on that.
(Sue) How is the whole male/female thing between the two of you?
(S) I don’t know as I already explained we have not been intimate with each other.
(Sue) I don’t mean about sex. I mean, are you both secure in your male/female rolls? Are either of you a little light in the loafers?
(S) Not hardly. Harm is self-assured and likes being a man and is cool with it. Many women tease him and he knows how to deal with them without pissing me off. He does not receive challenges from his peers. He is a man’s man.
(Sue) What about you?
(S) I have had problems with a poor self image caused by a difficult home life with my parents but with help, I have worked thru most of that. Harm helped me with some of it. I have to admit that I like to be the leader more than the follower with most people but not so much when it comes to Harm. I don’t have a thing for women, if that was what you wanted to know.
(Sue) Who is the boss?
(S) He is.
(Sue) That was quick. And you have a problem with that?
(S) No, not really. We compliment each other so well. When something happens my first thoughts are about what effect it will have on me but his first thoughts are about what effect it will have on us. I am detail oriented while he thinks more about the bigger picture. He is going to be a wonderful father and is very protective of me.
He has let me be the boss many times but I had to live with the results when it didn’t go well. He doesn’t coddle me much. He doesn’t mind telling me I am wrong if he thinks I am. Of course, I make sure to keep him honest also when he screws up. Being partners for so long taught us to be honest with each other.
(Sue) You have listed the excuses you both use for why you are not together, but what is the real reason?
(S) Eight years of honesty and stark reality have left scars and bruises that only time and understanding hearts can heal. I honestly believe today could be the turning point in our lives. I want it to be so ….……………….so very much.
(Sue) So you are ready but he isn’t?
(S) No. I think we both are but we both need to believe what the other tells us. We have both trusted the other with our lives but now it is time to trust the other with all of our love. We will both need to take that final step with the faith we have in the other.
(Sue) So is it time to ask forgiveness and tell each other that you want your new life to start today with past mistakes only to remind you what not to do ever again?
(S) Yes……..It sounds almost too simple…………but we need to forgive and trust each other completely…………again.
(Sue) Since you now know what it will take, what is holding you back?
(S) Nothing, I guess. Thank you. I believe we can resolve our situation before this trip is over.
(Sue) That’s good because we only have a couple more miles before my turnoff. Do you want me to drop you anywhere special?
(S) We will need a bathroom and food before we start again. If you know your way around here, where would be best?
(Sue) The best place is about 400 yards on the right after my turnoff. It has a Village Inn, a MacDonalds, a Denny’s, and a Waffle house right across from the Hampton Inn. Since it is Christmas Eve, most places will close at 5 or 6 to let their people have the evening with family. If you eat before then, you will not be hungry before you get your next ride. You need to wake your partner and I will drop you in front of Denny’s.
Sarah turned and found Harm getting ready. He pulled their bags onto the seat and handed her her cover…..winked at her and gave her his “Sarah” smile.
Sue stopped the car and Sarah thanked her for her good advice and Harm thanked her for the ride. They crawled out into the cold air and closed the door to keep Sue from getting cold also. They fussed with their bags and clothing as they watched her drive away.
(H) In-vitro fertilization? Babe, I love the way you ad-lib sometimes. It’s Christmas Eve so let’s go across to the Hampton Inn first. Watch the highway.
Harm interlaced his right hand fingers with her left and carried both seabags as Sarah held her other hand on her cover keeping it from blowing away as they carefully crossed the 6 lane highway into the driveway of the motel. They entered the lobby and he dropped the bags before going to the desk. He asked for a room on one of the upper floors and was given 907. They both entered the elevator with the bags and finally opened their coats. Cold weather was OK some of the time but they both had enough for now.
They opened the room and found it nice and warm. They checked and found two beds and plenty of bath towels in the bathroom. They took turns at the bathroom and finally let everything slow down.
(H) I believe we have hit it about as hard as Chegwidden thought we would. Tomorrow is Christmas Day and we are going to have our talk tonight. I have a feeling I have heard how you feel about our relationship already. I agree with what you have said and I don’t believe it will be as difficult like I feared. If our talk goes well, I want to take tonight and tomorrow off…..with you………….right here in this motel room………….in Cumberland.
If I haven’t told you already today, Sarah MacKenzie, I am in love with you.
(S) I love you too, Harm.
I guess we need to watch the time because Sue said most stores and restaurants will only be open until 5 or 6.
(H) What kind of civies did you bring?
(S) I only brought blue sweats in case we could go for a run.
(H) I brought a shirt and jeans. Let’s dress down and make it to
Denny’s for dinner and get some munchies at the gas station for the night. We need to find when they are open tomorrow.
They made the change and used their overcoats to try to stay warm as the made the dash to the restaurant. They sat in the back corner, ate slowly, and ordered desert items knowing that it would be a while before the morning breakfast was served at the motel. They didn’t talk very much and it seemed like they were memorizing what they intended to say later.
They stopped by the service station for coffee, chips and bottles of soft drinks and took it all back to the room. They emptied their seabags and inventoried what they had brought so they knew what would be needed if they could make a trip up to Grams place work. After that, they both waited for the talk. Finally:
(H) I guess we have put this off about as long as we can, so where do we start?
TBC
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