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Date Posted: 09:14:28 06/10/07 Sun
Hello all. My name is Kahlan and I am 15 yrs old. I started smoking only just over 2 months ago. I began by sneaking cigarettes from my mom's pack, usually only about 1 or 2 a day so I wouldn't get caught.
It was one of my friends that got me started. I actually hated smoking and it took her a lot to convince me to try it, but I am glad now that she did. I really enjoy it, the extra buzz I feel when I inhale, the taste of the cigarette and it that it makes me feel older.
I did not tell me parents for about a month, as I said, I snuck cigarettes from my mom's pack when I could. But I finally did tell them about a month ago. Neither of them were happy, but especially my dad.
It's better now that I don't have to be so sneaky about it, but I still don't smoke around dad as I still don't think he's accepted that his little girl is a smoker. I know my mom would probably prefer I didn't smoke, but at least she has accepted it.
Mom has actually set up some rules for me on my smoking. I can't smoke in the house with my dad or siblings home. That's not so bad having to wait when dad isn't home, but I have two younger siblings and a lot of times they are home, so that is kind of hard when I really want a cigarette. My mom just doesn't want them to know that their older sister smokes yet, I think she is worried about the influence of another it may have on them. It's one thing if their mom smokes, but if their sister smokes that is different. I guess I can understand that.
But when mom and I are home alone, it is great. We smoke together and she has taught me a lot. I was so clumsy when I first stated smoking and she taught me the little things in how to hold a cigarette, how long to drag and inhale for for best effects. My mom is a very experienced smoker and it shows. She has been smoking for as long as I can remember.
Also, one last rule is she will supply me with the cigarettes, but I have to buy them from her. She charges me $3.50 a pack, which is a little below shelf price if you buy them singularly, but it's about what she pays as she buys them by the carton.
I think she does this because she wants me to learn smoking isn't a cheap habit and she also wants to be able to monitor my smoking. This works for me because I don't have to worry about trying to get ahold of cigarettes (as I am underage) and I usually only go through a pack every 3-4 days. And it also works because I did get hooked with her brand (Virginia Slims 120 menthol) from when I was sneaking from her.
It's actually kind of funny how quickly things change. It wasn't even 3 months ago where I hated smoking. While growing up, whenever my mom would light up, I would complain of the smell and do my best to "avoid" the cigarette smoke.
I remember the two worst places being with my mom when she smoked was in the car or when we went out to eat at a restaurant as we would always sit in the smoking section.
Both places I didn't like because of the inability to go anywhere when she lit up. My mom always did her best to keep the smoke away from me in the car, she would keep the window cracked for the smoke to go out the window and would exhale out of the window, but it seemed like everytime we stopped, the smoke seemed like it always found its way over to me in the passenger seat. As for the restaurant, it was the same thing. Again, my mom would do her best to keep the smoke away, she would always exhale up towards the ceiling. But like in the car, the smoke from my mom's cigarette seemed like it always drifted towards me or my drink.
But now, it is much different. Since I smoke, the cigarette smoke doesn't bother me at all anymore. I even smoke with my mom in the car (and sometimes restaurant). Even though or relationship has always been good, I feel it has only gotten better since I've started smoking. Sharing a cigarette with her is really fun.
Well, sorry about my long rambling. This seems to be a great group and hope to meet some new friends.
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