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] Date Posted: 15:31:53 10/25/07 Thu I want to express here... Not always so eloquent about penning my heart in laymen terms, but here goes. Poetry is my voice, that neither replaces or justifies, but merely reflects from the deeper layers of my heart and soul. What is love anyways? Why is it the most coveted thing in this lifetime? I need to know, because I seem to have my radar mistuned or something. Revelations that explode within my mind, keep me seeking answers to questions I didn't know I had. Yet, the revelations come and go, and come and go. So what then is it I need? I need "love", the real kind, not the superficial kind, that bends rules and scars, but the kind that mends and uplifts. And I wondered today, why I strive to uphold a love for all, even when they strike me down. Is it my own stupidity? My grandfather taught me to be fair, kind, loving and forgiving. Now I question it. I need answers, for alone, I stand in bitter tears that erupt with every new revelation that lights up like fireworks within my mind. How can I claim to love someone, that would only be self-serving? I talked to my dead grandfather today, and blamed him for some things, like making me promise to do something that went against my beliefs, because his beliefs were to forgive, and do what is right. So, I did, and where did it get me? It got me up shit's creek without a paddle, but it also brought to the fore of the truth of my illusions. Love A Love that I "thought" I needed, and has only proven to be worthless in it's efforts to sustain it. I have many things to learn about love I surmise, and I will undoubtedly fall prey again to my own misgivings of what it should be. So, I need to know...what is "love", and why do we covet such a prize? Therapy anyone? I need it I suppose, in the aftermath of trying to find steady ground once again. So that's it... ~Tam [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] |
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Author: Christine [ Edit | View ] |
Date Posted: 18:56:20 10/25/07 Thu Tammy-Love, *Soft smile* I don't know what has moved you to write so bitterly, but I can tell you that this feeling of acidity passes and drains to leave us with an empty hole. See, we all need that kind of uplifting and mending love. Every last one of us. You know what love is when you look into your children's eyes for that very first time. Remember that feeling - it sustains you when you are feeling bitter and tight. Then remember their first giggle or smile....and feel your own joy. Hold it inside. Embrace it again and again. Love are the moments that hold time back. Love is those moments that heal when you can let go of a perception and can gain a clarity and healing. You know that saying, "You are love is you"? Love yourself, accept yourself, take pride in yourself, take responsibilities for all the negative as well as positive that you have conceived, perceived and released into your life. When you love yourself, you are loved. By the best person for you. Period. Not many people get that. When you find love, you find it in yourself...and then and only then can you share someone else's. *Smile* End of lecture/explanation....and therapy? You? Poetry works... ~Hugs~ Me |
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Author: andy [ Edit | View ] |
Date Posted: 07:38:46 10/26/07 Fri O.K. Tammy, I have the answer and I am sure you are not surprised at all. First of all, love means getting naked and celebrating. It has to do with rain dances in thunderstorms and spontaneous combustion. Love mean walking away when staying leads to bad things. It doesn't insure that it is forever because someone is ussually messing it up. It doesn't carry any weight. It's free and easy and when you feed it with the right person it grows to be a strong and healthy entity. But, for me love means the smile on a friends face. The story of a child who overcomes great tragedy to accomplish big things. The union of hearts in families that learn to express love without fear or compromise. Love is all around us all the time. Just because some people are really dysfunctional and screw up our faith in it doesn't mean that it needs further definition. What it needs is better choices from us. .....and most of all Christine is right so read her response again. Dammit the bitch ussually is right except about me. Then of course she is always wrong. It's a new day, find a new way, to carry on. Much love, andy |
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Author: Sasha [ Edit | View ] |
Date Posted: 13:00:38 10/26/07 Fri ~ wishing you lots of love and healing, honeybunch lighting my healing candle for you *love 'n' kiwi hugs* Sash xx |
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Author: Tammy [ Edit | View ] |
Date Posted: 14:40:19 10/26/07 Fri You guys are something....all the love and support shines and touches me deeply. I just needed to vent the moment I was feeling and I will bounce back (no snickers here please LOL) But anywho...it's just some days feel like the weight of everything comes to the fore to be examined once again. Just when you thought you were finished with it, it pops back up again (no pun intended Mr. Andy LOL) But I'm ok, I have good friends *smiles* Sasha...Thank you for the healing candle..might want to add an extra one for my older son....I'll probably blog that one very shortly. Thank everyone. Hugs and love, Tammy |
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