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Date Posted: 04:55:56 01/24/20 Fri
In reply to: Ulysses 's message, "True Story-Introduction" on 19:42:14 08/12/18 Sun
I was determined that this thing was over and I was going back to a normal life, or at least normal for me. After about a week of reluctant nightly reports, including some of my feelings and anger at what this had become, I stopped writing. I got nightly demands at first, then a mix of contacts from questioning my motives to almost pleading as well as reprimands and threats.
I kept up intermittent reports, some expressing my feelings and finally stated that this next session would not be occurring. I had had enough. I felt that her hold on me had grown too strong and I had to finally put my foot down. I was relieved. I started feeling strong and self reliant again. I also started falling into the same poor habits and irresponsible decisions as before.
At first I went back to my old drinking and dietary habits just out of spite, almost as a way to rub it in her face. I was becoming a defiant child who suddenly had no restrictions. I felt tinges of guilt going back on the circuit to chat and perhaps meet with submissive, kinky females. When the date that was usually set aside for our session came around, I felt defiant and indignant and very proud of myself for making a point of blowing her off and tried to convince myself I felt justified in hurting her. I felt like a real asshole too. Another part of me was being realistic. This thing had gone to near psychotic proportions and it was in my best interest to put a stop to it.
I will continue with my freedom at a later time.
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