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Subject: circle of chaos

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phil

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Date Posted: 01:52:41 12/27/01 Thu

IN THE CIRCLE OF CHAOS
FALLING FAILING DREAMING I LOOK TO THE SKY TO SEE MYSELF FALL MY OWN STRENGTH FAILS ME AS I SCREAM FOR A DEEPER PURPOSE. AN EXISTENCE THAT IS MEANINGLESS SCARES THE LIFE FROM ME. I WALK THROUGH OPEN DOORS ONLY TO WATCH THEM SLAM BACK AT MY FACE. THE RESOUNDING SOUND OF MY HATE ECHOES INTO MY ACTIONS AND TRUST IS HARD TO FIND. MY LIE WINDS INTO THE INNER DEPTHS OF ME AND GRABS MY SOUL. DISTRUST AND ANGER TAKE ROOT DEEP INSIDE OF ME AND I CANT HELP BUT CRY OUT. MY ANGUISH IS ONLY MATCHED BY THE DEPRESSION REACHED IN THIS SEASON OF CHANGE. MY WOUNDS ONLY EQUAL THOSE IVE HURT BUT IT SEEMS SO MUCH MORE. HOW WILL THIS WORLD OF CHAOS BRING PEACE. FATHER HOW WILL YOU BRING PEACE TO MY HEART. THE BLOOD SPILLED ON THIS DAY WAS IN THE ENEMIES FAVOR AND I FEAR THAT I AM SLIPPING AGAIN. SLIPPING INTO MEDIOCRITY. INTO ANOTHER FAILURE. BUT THIS TIME THERE IS NO BACKUP PLAN. THERE IS NO WAY TO MAKE IT WORK. I HAVE NOTHING. I HAVE A NAME. SLANDERED AND DEGENERATE IS MY WORK BUT I WISH TO CONTINUE. I WANT TO HAVE YOUR HEART. MINE IS ANGRY TIRED AND SELFISH. UNCOMPREHENSIVE TO YOUR WAYS I FIGHT TO GET A GRIP ON THE FUTURE ONLY TO SEE MY FIGHT END IN AN EXPLOSIVE RAGE AND NOW IN THIS CYCLE I AM AT THE START. WHAT TO DO� WHERE TO GO� WHO TO TRUST� WHO TO GIVE MY HEART TO� YOU SAID TO GO ALL OUT BUT I CANT EVEN BRING MYSELF TO GET OUT OF BED.
-Phil Simmons

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Subject	Author	Date
Re: circle of chaos	wanabie	02:15:06 12/27/01 Thu
Re: circle of chaos -- michelle, 07:54:17 12/27/01 Thu
Re: circle of chaos	kaela	23:34:16 12/27/01 Thu