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Subject: Re: Guilty feelings

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Adam’s
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Date Posted: 06:22:49 11/10/24 Sun
In reply to: Ginger 's message, "Guilty feelings" on 08:36:09 11/30/23 Thu

I was never spanked growing up, but I did get threatened with it from time to time. As far as I knew, it was a real possibility I could get spanked if I got in big- enough trouble, even though I never did.

One day when I was 12 during the summer my Mom had dragged me to the mall for shopping, and it was really boring shopping. I was having a really bratty attitude all day, constantly whining about when we could go home, and just generally throwing a long-form tantrum the whole time.

When we finally left, during the whole car drive home, Mom lectured me about how disappointed she was in my attitude, and how I was acting like a little kid, and how self-centered I was being.

When we got home she sent me to my room for the rest of the afternoon to think about how I had acted. And the thing is, I really did think about it and realized she was right — I had been acting terrible and treating Mom badly for no reason.

I felt really badly about it and began to feel like I deserved to be really punished. Not just sent to my room — which was basically nothing, but really punished. And the thought formed in my head that those threats from the past had truly scared me into acting right — the threat of a spanking. And I began to think that I deserved to get a spanking that day.

I was terrified of the idea, of the humiliation and the pain. But I couldn’t shake the idea that I felt like I deserved to be spanked. I actually considered writing a note to my Mom to leave where she would find it where I explained all this.

My thinking was that I was too embarrassed to just tell her directly, and I was too afraid to outright ask to be spanked, but if I left that note, maybe she’d take it into consideration and decide to spank me.

Ultimately I didn’t work up the nerve to actually do it.

Looking back all those years ago, I do still feel guilty about that and still feel like I deserved to get a spanking. And I kind of wish, even if it was the only one of my whole childhood that I had actually gotten spanked that day.

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Re: Guilty feelings Danny to Adam 17:59:37 11/10/24 Sun

Re: Guilty feelings -- Danny CORRECTION, 18:02:48 11/10/24 Sun

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>I was never spanked growing up, but I did get >threatened with it from time to time. As far as I >knew, it was a real possibility I could get spanked if >I got in big- enough trouble, even though I never did. > >One day when I was 12 during the summer my Mom had >dragged me to the mall for shopping, and it was really >boring shopping. I was having a really bratty >attitude all day, constantly whining about when we >could go home, and just generally throwing a long-form >tantrum the whole time. > >When we finally left, during the whole car drive home, >Mom lectured me about how disappointed she was in my >attitude, and how I was acting like a little kid, and >how self-centered I was being. > >When we got home she sent me to my room for the rest >of the afternoon to think about how I had acted. And >the thing is, I really did think about it and realized >she was right — I had been acting terrible and >treating Mom badly for no reason. > >I felt really badly about it and began to feel like I >deserved to be really punished. Not just sent to my >room — which was basically nothing, but really >punished. And the thought formed in my head that >those threats from the past had truly scared me into >acting right — the threat of a spanking. And I >began to think that I deserved to get a spanking that >day. > >I was terrified of the idea, of the humiliation and >the pain. But I couldn’t shake the idea that I felt >like I deserved to be spanked. I actually considered >writing a note to my Mom to leave where she would find >it where I explained all this. > >My thinking was that I was too embarrassed to just >tell her directly, and I was too afraid to outright >ask to be spanked, but if I left that note, maybe >she’d take it into consideration and decide to spank >me. > >Ultimately I didn’t work up the nerve to actually do >it. > >Looking back all those years ago, I do still feel >guilty about that and still feel like I deserved to >get a spanking. And I kind of wish, even if it was >the only one of my whole childhood that I had actually >gotten spanked that day.

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