~~~~~~* His eyes open slowly..getting used to the sun..his ears alert for more words any mare would speak.... -- ~*~Central Desert~*~

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Date Posted: 16:50:50 06/16/01 Sat
Author: Flaming Myst
Subject: ~~~~~~* His eyes open slowly..getting used to the sun..his ears alert for more words any mare would speak....
In reply to: Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert:: 's message, "::Steps forward::" on 08:10:14 06/16/01 Sat

~~~~~~* His coat dull, his eyes showing nothing..yet hiding nothing he tryed to struggle to his feet....but fell back onto the sand beneath him. He had no strength in his body but he felt it.....something. His eyes seemed to come afire in a blaze as he again tried to struggle up...but again fell back the flame flickering out. And still not giving up he again struggled to his feet.....making it halfway up but yet again falling down. The fire seemed to be washed out as he sighed. Lowering his head he smelled of the soft sand and then lifted his head.....once again trying to stand, but this time he made it~~~~~~~~*

~~~~~~~* He turned his head to both mares....pain again seeping into his eyes...but this time there was nothing else..fear had left his body...life...feeling....it had all let go. His spunk and fire that had made Sand Storm love him....was gone....the acceptance..that had made Night Fire love him...was gone. Only pain was left. His love did not shine although he felt it. He stood there letting the sand sit on his back....letting the feeling run through him.....He did not know how to answer...what to say. For fear of hurting one....altogether held him back.His pale blue eyes flashed in pure agony as his body filled with a hurt..a hurt he knew couldnt be helped by water or food. His answer did not come soon...he just couldnt bear the pain...~~~~~~*

~~~~~~* He looked over to Sand Storm in pain...waiting for those words she thought she knew were coming...the words that she knew would probably kill her...he looked over to Night Fire....the mare who had come to him in her own pain...wanting someone who had been through it...knew what it felt like...and his eyes clouded. False Hopes...feeled him....^He didnt want to cause anything but he already had..without speaking he turned to the pond..that he had not long ago...felt joy in....felt a quenched feeling in...and he walked to it...stopping at its edge.~~~~~*

~~~~~~* Lowering his head his drank of the water letting it sooth his dry throat...and he looked up and turned to the mares....and lowering his head he began to speak...with truth...care..love...and pain...~~~~~~~*

~~~~~~` I can not hurt anyone...I can not speak the words I fill..for fear...for fear of letting someone feel the pain that I have felt...' hesitating he thought to himself...flashes going through his mind^ A mind is as easy to kill as a soul....and yet mine is gone to hatred and pain....and again I feel pain for my own doings..Why did I ask Sand Storm to come to my herd....Why did I accept Night Fire for my mate...Why didnt I just live a solitary life...by myself...alone^~~~~~*

~~~~~~* For a moment he was silent then he continued...his voice shaking...`I would not feel pain if I had stayed where I lived before...but ashes were the only thing that the wind blew across the land...ashes. I can not send you away Sand Storm...I can not see you in that pain....I can not make you feel more pain...^and to Night Fire he said^=Neither can I see you in pain again....I can not make you feel pain like you have done before....not again..~~~~~~*

~~~~~~~* His knees buckled and he fell to the sand and before he could see confusion flash in the mares eyes he closed his own....but still spoke..` To tell any one of you I do not love you...would be a lie..so I will tell you I love you both. I will tell you my own love for both of you would not compare to another stallion that could dare to love you...my love is a long living pain...because I feel love and protection for you...I feel your pain more than maybe you do...for I see it in your eyes and feel my own pain combined with yours.I do not like pain....and do not seek pain.....nor do I seek death...harm.....lies left in the midnight darkness...but I do seek understanding...^ While saying this he looked at both mares...his pale blue eyes seeming to grow darker....in pain....in a feeling of loss of words....^` Sand Storm...I can return your love...I can feel your pain...fear....and the feeling of death....I can feel all of those...^ Then turning to Night Fire^` I love you so much....and do not want you to feel pain...again...and again...and again..I cant let that happen.~~~~~~~~~*

~~~~~~~~* ` Night Fire....Sand Storm...both of your beauties will never match the beauty of the sun..the sky...and any other mare...because you are more beautiful than any of them...but your beauty is equal. ^ His gaze flickered as he continued to speak...letting himself go to his soul and heart in words...^ ` I can not find the words to speak in letting anyone go...I feel there is no need. I can not bare to feel the pain I see flash through anybodies eyes as they hear the words I know I will soon have to say...but please come to an understanding...I am a stallion and can love many mares...equally..to no extent, but you two are hard to be able to love any other mare as much.^ His eyes darken into a pure black as he finally sighs.....~~~~~~~*

~~~~~~~* I seek happiness in my herd...loyalty...trust...love.....friendship...and a silent hope to fulfill all of the needs from anyone...to comfort them in their agony....in their losses. I do not seek pain...death....uncaring wishes....scarred vengeance. Here and now I will ask both of you to stay and to be loved equally...and if you both agree on this....there will be no lead mare.....nothing of the sort. I only ask you to understand and accept this offer....for I will love both of you more than any mare that enters these lands to ask to stay...I promise this...I just can not bare the thought of my words causing pain in one and a river of joy through the other at the same time....I find that unfairly wrong in trust...love....and loyalty...in which I believe are the three most important things in a creatures existence.~

~~~~~~~~* His breathe came short as he finished speaking..hoping for acceptance...for something to be accepted....for both mares to understand...and for love to handle the end.....

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Replies:

::Nuzzles him:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 17:04:28 06/16/01 Sat
- His smile not only is on his face but in his eyes as he hears the acceptance... -- Flaming Myst, 17:47:19 06/16/01 Sat
  - ::Laughs:: -- Sand Storm, 18:01:11 06/16/01 Sat
    - He lauged went to a shallower part.... -- Flaming Myst, 18:05:15 06/16/01 Sat
      - ++Turns, and walks away leaving them alone....++ -- Night Fire, 18:49:15 06/16/01 Sat
        His eyes turn back to their lost look as he jumps out of the pond..... -- Flaming Myst, 19:48:53 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Rolls eyes..++ -- Raving Beauty(Enchantress)(OOC:Old name Night Fire), 20:00:49 06/16/01 Sat
        His eyes feel in pain as his heart seems to fall apart.... -- Flaming Myst ; Escaped Silence, 20:16:26 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Her eyes still so pained.....++ -- Raving Beauty, 20:36:03 06/16/01 Sat
        ++More.....++ -- Raving Beauty, Fuco Kola, 20:41:52 06/16/01 Sat
        His eyes pained he follows her quietly and he lays down beside her.... -- Flaming Myst; A heart too easy to surrender, 20:43:24 06/16/01 Sat
        ++She hadn't wished for this to happen......++ -- Raving Beauty, Fuco Kola, 20:57:11 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Dying eyes++ -- Raving Beauty, Fuco Kola, 21:08:10 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Light's going out++ -- Enchantress(Nickname of Raving Beauty), 21:22:59 06/16/01 Sat
        ::Tears shine in her eyes as she takes a step back:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 22:16:14 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Rears++ -- Enchantress, 03:52:15 06/17/01 Sun
        ::Shakes her head:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 09:09:58 06/17/01 Sun