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Date Posted: 10:01:15 07/12/05 Tue
Author: Christi
Subject: Loss of my Son

I lost my beloved son, Dean, in a one-car automobile accident on April 2, 2005. He left behind a wife, 3 beautiful young children, 3 sisters, his father and myself. At the time of Dean's death I was still grieving the sudden death of my father on 12/31/04. I was getting to a point where I could get through the days without crying or being angry, but now my pain is tenfold. I have good days but even those are rarely without tears and heartache and grief. I miss my son terribly and grieve for all of those who loved him and I grieve for all of the days to come when we will each have to deal with his absence. Holidays have always been such a time of joy and happiness in my life, and I find myself dreading the pain I know I will feel in celebrating without my beautiful son. I find myself remembering his amazing smile that could light up a room and, instead of being filled with wonder at how infectious it was, my heart breaks with the thought of never seeing it again. I find myself praying that I will dream of him at night, but I have no dreams at all. I find myself sobbing at the thought of never having his arms engulf me in one of his love-filled hugs. I find myself reaching for the phone to call and say I love you, and instead, reaching to wipe away the tears when I remember he is gone. I find myself thinking of little things about him that always made me smile and having trouble breathing. I find myself asking why and knowing there is no answer or reason that will ever be enough to satisfy my need to understand. I find myself longing for the day when I find the peace within myself, the strength from a higher power and the acceptance of the love of those around me to accept this terrible tragedy. I pray that I will find the courage and the determination to find a way in my life to honor Dean's memory and to always be the person that he always was so proud to be his Mom.

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>I lost my beloved son, Dean, in a one-car automobile >accident on April 2, 2005. He left behind a wife, 3 >beautiful young children, 3 sisters, his father and >myself. At the time of Dean's death I was still >grieving the sudden death of my father on 12/31/04. I >was getting to a point where I could get through the >days without crying or being angry, but now my pain is >tenfold. I have good days but even those are rarely >without tears and heartache and grief. I miss my son >terribly and grieve for all of those who loved him and >I grieve for all of the days to come when we will each >have to deal with his absence. Holidays have always >been such a time of joy and happiness in my life, and >I find myself dreading the pain I know I will feel in >celebrating without my beautiful son. I find myself >remembering his amazing smile that could light up a >room and, instead of being filled with wonder at how >infectious it was, my heart breaks with the thought of >never seeing it again. I find myself praying that I >will dream of him at night, but I have no dreams at >all. I find myself sobbing at the thought of never >having his arms engulf me in one of his love-filled >hugs. I find myself reaching for the phone to call >and say I love you, and instead, reaching to wipe away >the tears when I remember he is gone. I find myself >thinking of little things about him that always made >me smile and having trouble breathing. I find myself >asking why and knowing there is no answer or reason >that will ever be enough to satisfy my need to >understand. I find myself longing for the day when I >find the peace within myself, the strength from a >higher power and the acceptance of the love of those >around me to accept this terrible tragedy. I pray >that I will find the courage and the determination to >find a way in my life to honor Dean's memory and to >always be the person that he always was so proud to be >his Mom.
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