Date Posted:13:26:31 10/15/05 Sat Author:Scarlett Subject: Re: Christine In reply to:
Stella
's message, "Christine" on 21:42:39 05/13/05 Fri
>This is my second reply today, I'm not sure if the first one went through. If it did please forgive me. It has been 16 years since our baby, Amber Elizabeth went to heaven. She was born at 27 weeks, as a result of my having placenta previa and a "staff" infection. At home, I had a 13 month old son and a 9 year old step-son. This pregnancy was unexpected, and I had just quit working full-time. I'm ashamed to say I cried for 3 days after 3 tests proved I was pregnant. After the shock wore off, though, we were determined it would all work out according to God's plan-God doesn't make mistakes. I would give my life just to have her back. To tell her how much we love her, we've never forgotten her, and just to hold her one more time. Yes, life does "go on", but its an emptiness only those who have lost a baby can know. Amber would have turned "sweet sixteen" on August 17, 2005. Her death date is near, October 24th. Our son is a senior in high school now, my pride and joy. My step-son is 25, unmarried, no children. I hope one day to have grandchildren, hopefully at least one granddaughter, so I can spoil her the way I couldn't for Amber. From someone who understands and cares, God bless. ScarlettIt's been fifteen years since she died in utero in the
>eighth month. Nobody remembers; nobody talks about
>it. I almost forget, and then my body remembers. I
>start to go into a depression and at first I don't
>know what it's about. Then it hits me: it's May,
>almost the 16th. I don't know the exact day she died,
>just that they took her from me on the 16th. It still
>haunts me to think she died inside of me, the one
>place she should have been safe.
>It's been fifteen years...and suddenly I'm crying my
>eyes out. Thank you for this website. I wanted to
>cry but my eyes felt frozen until right now. Thank
>you again. This moment is a gift from God, who I
>know, also cried with me. However, I do know for
>certain that this child was born in heaven and one day
>I will see her and hold her.
