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Subject: Having a REALLY rough time

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Dreemdanser

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Date Posted: 10:22:07 01/07/04 Wed
In reply to: Dreemdanser 's message, "still in sight.....but not there yet." on 11:16:09 01/02/04 Fri

Boy oh boy....I can pack on lbs faster than you can say stuff your face. Just give me a fork (or not!) and I can jump up 6 1/2 lbs in the blink of an eye! I made the mistake at the neighbor's holiday party Jan 2 in having a little of this and that. It was this huge buffet of food and no one doing ANYTHING but eating. It was really really boring actually and we had just had another stressful time with our kids/teens. Looking back...by biggest mistake was in nt having supper first. I thought I would be Ok cause they always have a tons of shrimp and I was bringing a veggie tray. But i should have had at least a spiruteen shake and then just basically stayed away from the food area....true I would have been sitting alone part of the time!!!!! but I still should have...and made people come to me, or whatever. Anyways by the end of the evening ( I started off ok) I was trying a little cracker here and a little dip there and then a piece of a cookie and then a half a piece of cheesecake.....you get the idea. Well, here was the problem...even though I started off very well the next day getting back on track, the sugar and white flour was in my system and it set me up for unreal cravings the next evening. I had a horrific binge. So the next day I started off back on track again and did well until really late at night ( I should have gone to bed....brushed my teeth....done my nails...ANYTHING!) but I ended up eating a bunch of dry 7-grain cereal flakes out of the box....healthy you say? sure but not like 3 cups (100 cal. in 3/4 a cup) and not at like 12:30 at night. So the next day I am back on track again and I did well....one full good day. That was 2 nights ago...then last night I had another binge. I walked right into it. Instead of having a healthy dinner free of starch...I had soup. Oh it is very appropriate calorie wise....but full of salt. Next came the craving for the pretzels...then the crackers....then the peanut butter....and oh faeries and elves....you gotta have some chocolate kisses with the peanut butter!!!!!! Yup, yup, yup...you get the idea. So the scale has gone up and down and up and down and up....and this time I earned every fluctuation.

Evidentally I can't handle the flour and sugar AND SALT! Especially when under all sorts of stress...and Goddess we have plenty of stress of late.

So today i am back on track again. desperately watching everything I do, and planning my meals so as not to get hungry. Trying to stay busy (not a problem)! Looking at my size 4 pants and looking at spring clothing catalogs. I can do this. Food is not my master. Fat no more in 2004. but for now....not even one bite of any no-nos.

love u all,
Dreemy

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Subject	Author	Date
you'll be fine....	Moon(*	19:33:17 01/12/04 Mon
Thanks for the vote of confidence -- Dreemdanser, 10:11:27 01/14/04 Wed