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Date Posted: 15:45:41 02/16/04 Mon
In reply to:
Moon(*
's message, "Sorry I havent been here.....:(" on 07:51:43 02/16/04 Mon
You are certainly in good and loving company here, sweetie. Stress is definitely the excuse why I was so fat for so long. But the reason was what I put in my mouth because of the excuse. We are under incredible stress lately, too. Yesterday we had a huge, and I mean HUGE family 'row' with everyone screaming and some people saying things they shouldn't, and some people storming off and then coming back. It was just just horrible. Finaly, in the late afternoon my 18 year old got meek and apologetic and we got better between him and I but by that time SW had had to leave for an apointment so wasn't able to get in on that apology, and had to hear it second-hand. So here it was, already after 5 PM and I had had only breakfast all day, then in walks SW and I start filling him in and we are talking and next thing I know it is like 7:30 and I haven't finished my excercises or even started supper. So I fix supper for him and my daughter and I start my excercises and my daughter gets invited to a sleep-over a half hour away for that night. Well, to make a long story short...SW took her to the sleep over and I finished my excercises around 10 PM and then had a salad with shrimp!!!!!!
I have to say I absolutely know that I never would have done that years past. I would have said frig the excercise ( and that would be the case lots of times) and I would have eaten anything really decadent I could find like pie or cookies or mac and cheese or gone out to eat. That was the norm. and you know how often the stress gave similar sinarios as my excuse. But I am just so re-trained in my habits now. I just can't. I just can't put it in my mouth. I would sooner down poison. After what happened right after new year's this year I have a hard time with even the one bite of something rich. So I did the excercises even though I absolutely had to force myself. And I made the salad and cooked the shrimp. It was hard. But it was just so, I don't know, so CRITICAL. I guess that's the best word for the sense of how I feel about it. I can un-do my success so easilly. I can gain wieght so easilly and so fast. And it is so hard to make the downward progress. It would just be so painful to have to re-do the progress, so lousy to not fit in the now loose size 4 jeans, so awful to lie in bed and not feel good and comfortable in my body. You know that awful heavy, stuffed, feeling when you eat heavy and rich things? I hate that feeling now. So I didn't do that to myself. And I know that it is really really a big deal to finaly get to this point when a day as hideous as yesterday doesn't totally do me in. Just a really ingrained habit now, I guess.
Moon, egg whites are a fabulous and cheap source of lean protein. Make a veggie omlet with egg whites for supper! I will give you a call. You will get back on track and this stress will pass and other stress will come and then go. Life is going to keep being like this...always. Ebb and flow. But you will be in such a better state to survive and endure and not be wiped out if you are taking care of yourself and nurturing yourself and in good health. And let me tell you....the biggest source of stress in our lives is the kids. Sure do love em but man oh man can they do a number!
I am thinking of you and holding you in my mind's eye surrounded by soothing and calming and re-enforcing energies.
love,
Dreemy
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