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Date Posted: 12:14:50 04/02/06 Sun
In reply to:
Melinda
's message, "Just wanted you all to know....." on 17:50:16 03/29/06 Wed
I am another mother stuggling to understand this awful drug. I have a 26yr. old daughter and a 28yr. old son addicted to meth. This has been a long horrible road that started well over 10 years ago.
My kids grew up in a great home and had all the advantages of life. They were great in school, were active in sports and had the love and support of my husband and I.
They started experimenting with drugs and alcohol in their early teens. My husband and I tried to do everything humanly possible to curb this self destructive pattern. Over the years it progressively grew worse. Then they both started using METH about 3 years ago. OH, the other drugs were bad enough but this is one in its own league.
To make a long story short...my daughter as she started using lost custody of her two year old son, she became pregnant by her abusive drug dealer, with twins. He beat her and threatened her life regularly. And she still stayed with him. We tried everything to get her away from him. She finally turned her self in at the hopital during childbirth and the state stepped in with foster care for the twins, her first born went to his father and she was sent to rehab for 8 months. At this point we had great hopes. She completed her treatment, got her kids back (49% custody of the two now 5 yr old, and full custody of the twins) moved in with us and stayed with us six months until she received public housing. She has been there now one year and all the signs are back. She doesn't answer the door, she's dropped her cell service and has dropped in weight.
As for my son he is currently in jail pending charges for identity theft, criminal mischief and forgery. One year ago we also sent him to rehab. He completed a one month treatment program and he moved back in with us to get on his feet. He then landed a great union job at $38.00 per hour moved out with his girlfriend and one year old son. Everything looked so promising. It felt like all the time, energy and money spent had worked. Then Around Christmas time he broke up with his girlfriend, quit his job, lost his apartment, car and belongings and subsequently began living on the streets. This is where the cops picked him up 20 days ago.
Now I'm really scared. I went to visit him to see where his head was at. He has become delusional. Part of him makes sence and the other is totally off the wall. I'm afraid that he has damaged his brain.
It is so confusing to me. I've seen him after a drug binge, with no sleep and he appeared similar, however, after a few days of sleep and rest he'd come back around.
He has been in jail now for 20 days and there is no apparent change. Both my husband and myself have relatives with a history of mental illness. I'm not sure if he has developed a mental illness or induced one and needs medication of if we should just stand back and let him run his course.
I know that there is nothing I can do to get my kids off drugs. God knows I've tried everything. I've gone through the classes to help me not enable them and I have not given them a cent nor bailed them out of their circumstances for at least 5 years now.
I don't know if I should call the state and turn in my daughter. I'm so afraid for the twins. I've allready talked to the father of her first born and he will not allow her to see her first born. She doesn't even make contact to see him. I feel so bad for my grandson. We have kept close contact with him to give him some kind of security through this hell.
I am so torn up, it is so hard to let go. I don't know if I can do it. But, this is killing my husband and I. Its a wonder that we've stayed together through all of this.
I just don't know how to cope with may saddness and this is very hard on my husband as well.
I've always been a person who believes in God and that there is a purpose for all things, and that we have to have faith and help where we can. But I see no purpose here. I guess the line is so hard to see in this nightmare called METH. Any thoughts are appreciated.
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