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Date Posted: 21:44:19 09/21/03 Sun
why I don’t attend (2003/01/01)
By: becs
It’s been a long time since I have done anything on a message board...but I feel like this is something important to be said,
This has been the most hectic year of my life. Being a junior in high can be decribed in one word “*&^%” Haha yes that one word. I am not going to do any grammer or spell checks on this,so this will just all spill from my mind. What you read is what get haha (what a cliche line). Well continuing on, I haven’t been able to attend my church I think for the past 4-5 months. One reason being how harsh school is and Sunday is my (rest/ school last minute homework day), another is because I hate the atmosphere in our church, the elders gossip all the time about rumoured relationships in the church, that is just the start. I just feel like I am gaining nothing, I don’t love God or Jesus more and my life declines because of church, the people, the church itself. My life has been tough this year, and I have been through enough drama, enough for a million life times. At points I wonder where God is, where is he guiding me, and why do I have to have such a rocky path to follow? At points I think low of myself and feel so low I wonder why I exist. I really hope I can make it this year
Re: why I don’t attend (2003/01/01)
By: Eugene
Yeah, Rebecca,
My prayer has been that the church will be a place that is safe for people to work on their lives. That is why I am going to spend this one year thinking about how God would want me to be a part of this church. I will stay and serve only if there is a way for me to contribute to making the church safe.... I am also going to save some money just in case the work on the church involves any physical changes (like hardware re-design).
If after that one year I realize that God doesn’t want me to do anything at CCCO, then it will be the right time for me to leave. Though I would really hate to leave -- I really care for the people here.
Re: why I don’t attend (2003/01/02)
By: Arnold
Yeah I can relate, at times I don’t really feel like going to CCCO...well I love the church and the people, but I don’t really grow and get anything out of it. I know fellowship with other christians is nice and all, but I feel like I don’t learn or realize anything when I attend this church or Sunday school. Don’t get me wrong, Ban and Ying are doing a really great job! THANKS! The thing is...nothing strikes me, comes at me...makes me go wow! Well besides the fact I live kind of far, but CCCO is still my home church and forever will be...I grew up in it! Just saying, if you aren’t getting what you want out of church, maybe you should check out a church that you like, the main thing is finding a place where you are still able to learn about Christ and grow a closer relationship with him! I think that’ll be one of my goals this year, have a deeper relationship with god. Well I understand fully what you guys are feeling, and I can relate...
*please don’t take this response as something bad, and saying you guys are wrong! Because I’m not :)
Re: why I don’t attend (2003/01/02)
By: becs
oh no that is not too harsh. that is completely true, and well said Arnold.. CCCO will always be my first church and my hometown church but right now I rather see what else is out there
Re: why I don’t attend (2003/01/02)
By: Eugene
I really appreciate what you said also. There is nothing said in a mean spirit and really shows that you are maturing spiritually. I am glad.
Late response (2003/01/05)
By: anna
sorry, i just got back from Taiwan and the computer there was very slow. I could read responses but couldn’t post one up. Honestly, speaking as an outsider, I think that this church needs a little change. This isn’t my home church because my home church is Mandrin Baptist of San Fernando Valley. Therefore what I say is up to you if you want to read it.
All churches have room for growth and this church looks like as if it is taking a long time in its baby stage. MBSFV’s English ministry was in its “teen years” as I was leaving so the messages hit me pretty hard. However, the church was a really big church, but all it contained was those familiar looking faces with nothing behind it. There was too many people to have REAL felllowship. The size of CCCO looks to me as just fine for fellowship, yet the people inside don’t really seem to fellowship. Some things that are said just as a fellow member of a fellowship would say are taken as criticism and tears are shed over those comments. This is the same reason why i feel as if some of the people in this church aren’t true to themselves and speak exactly whats on their mind. I hate how people hide things behind that churchgoing mask and yet at the same time critize church. They havent been true to church so why should church be true to them? Please don’t take what i said the wrong way as that is the only feeling i get.
thanks for all your time.
just felt like puttin gthat tidbit in.
btw, arnold: you go to a four year, it’s enough stress as is
rebecca: you are trying to get into a good university, it’s understandable
eugene: (mid life crisis?) jk.. you know me... i’ll always be understanding :)
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