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kim
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Date Posted: 14:50:25 01/18/05 Tue
In reply to:
Basil
's message, "Re: the aftermath / KIM" on 18:02:47 01/17/05 Mon
Hey everyone,
thanks so much for all of your advice. yeah it's really dissapointing, and i know i was crazy for taking in such a short amount of time, but i really thought i could do it. it is def hard to not think i'm a failure though, because of all the amount of work i put into learning the material...anyways, i think it's more frusterating that i have to RETAKE the course now. it just seems like life is very frusterating for me right now. i am just driving myself nuts with everything in my life. i worry so much about the future, i can't even enjoy now. i do this in my relationship with troy...and it is driving him crazy too. its like, he wants to go away and do internships and study abroud and stuff, and i am very supportive of him, yet at the same time, all i can think is that he'd find someone who is better than me in these other couuntries or whatever...am i crazy or what?? all i know is that the past few days its been very hard for me ot keep food down, its like i just am allowing myself to spiral into these old patterns. i hate this, i hate how one day you can feel completely normal, and the next day be sad for no real reason. and i also hate being the one with all of htese problems, its like I"M always venting to people, and i just wish that instead of venting to everyone, i could help more people..ya know?? there is so much i want to do with my life and helping people is on the top of my list, but i am kind of at a point where all i can think is how can i help people when i can't even figure myself out right now?? i am so stressed out about everything, i'm on meds, seeing a therapist, and am still going crazy, i thought htings were better, but now i'm not so sure. sorry guys, i hate to keep venting, but i'm just letting my fingers go right now....anyways...i am really fursterated at myself with this class, especially because now all i can think is htat iw asted three weeks of my life pretty much...along with a bunch of money...which is honestly the LAST Thing i need to be doing...is wasting money...none of you know about hte "situation" with my dad, but it's pretty horrible...i wont even bother explaining it, but still, i'm going insane. anyways, enough of me...thanks for all of your help ladies. your wonderful...and mean soo much to me! take care!
~always~
kim
>Kim, I think Deb is on to something, so I'll add my
>two cents worth. You gave yourself what, like 3 weeks
>to learn this course? Never mind how you got into that
>pinch--we all live and learn. But do you know anyone
>who could learn that course in 3 weeks? Give a task
>like that to anyone and they'll fall short, in fact
>they probably wouldn't have done as well as you did.
>Another reason to forgive yourself and give it another
>chance.
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