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Courtney
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Date Posted: 14:24:42 09/26/04 Sun
In reply to:
lara
's message, "Re: Just need to vent" on 12:43:09 09/26/04 Sun
I talk to friends but if I tell my consuler he will make me get help and its my senior year and I can't aford to miss school. My parents know but thinks it's not happening anymore and I just "turned it off"... like thats possiable. Thats for the help...
Courtney
>Courtney,
>
>Are you talking to anyone–a good psychologist, an
>informed nutritionist, someone you trust? Listen, I
>cannot stand the way I feel when I've eaten either. I
>hate it when I can feel the food inside me–my stomach
>seems to blow up–but I realize that a lot of what I am
>feeling is ana. In other words, even if you don't eat
>you still won't feel comfortable in your own skin!
>Eating disorders are not about the food, you know
>that. And not eating is really not going to help you.
>You may think it will, but it won't. It will just make
>you sick, I know...
>
>If you think about it, having an ED is kind of like
>being an alcoholic. Alcohol numbs the pain for an
>alcoholic just like not eating numbs the pain for the
>anorexic. But the pain is still there and your trapped
>feeling like a failure, hurting, and not knowing
>why... None of us chose to have an ED; somehow we all
>developed them, and they are horrible friends that
>stab you in the back repeatedly! Because it is not
>about the food, and EDs only twist reality to make you
>think it is: EDs are about something in your past, the
>way you feel about yourself, obsessions and
>distortions, "perfection" and the feeling of "not
>being good enough," a lack of self and a pain that you
>are desperately trying to "fix" with food but may not
>even recognize. I hope you find someone that you can
>confide in, because these feelings aren't going to
>just go away, even if you don't eat. Try to remember
>that an ED is just the symptom of underlying
>problems...
>
>take care,
>lara
>
>>Ok so I am so stuck. I was so happy when school was
>>starting because you know I won't have anyone watching
>>to see if I eat or purge. But then the double ended
>>sword, if i don't eat I get dizzy and fall down. I am
>>stuck and my mom is a teacher at school so i just
>>don't know what to do. I mean I can't stand the was it
>>feels when I eat. Like I am this discustiong thing. I
>>hate it. What do i do does anyone have any idea. I am
>>taking vitames everyday but still nothing.
>>Lost,
>>Courtney
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