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• Joey was sitting on the stairs at the top, his head in his hands, trying to control his breathing after he had just thrown up for the past five minutes. He couldn't believe he had just left her there at the hospital but there was nothing else he could do. His heart broke a little more as he heard Nina's yelling, his eyes squeezing shut as he dropped his head into his hands. This couldn't be really happening, he couldn't tell his girlfriend that her best friend was dead.. (NT) -- Joey, 13:22:40 10/11/05 Tue

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• She stopped short when she saw him sat there, staring at him a moment. She knew from his expression that things weren't alright. And she knew that feeling of fear that was forming in her gut... yes she knew that feeling only too well. She rested a hand to the rail and set her jaw a little, letting her dark eyes fix warily on him. "What? Where is she? Whats happened?" If she'd run away Nina would just have to run right after her and bring her back... Lysi always listened to Nina. (NT) -- Nina, 13:27:41 10/11/05 Tue

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• He tried to stop the tears before they broke free again - he didn't know how he had any left. He had sat for nearly forty minutes holding the shell of a body that used to hold his beautiful girl and shed gallons of tears over the body but somehow his tears had replenished themselves and were once again streaming down his face. "I am so sorry Nina, so sorry...I should have known what she was going to do..I should have seen it..." Something was off when he took her to work and he should have seen it coming - he should have watched her more carefully... (NT) -- Joey, 13:31:11 10/11/05 Tue

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• Uncharacteristic tears seemed to burn in her eyes as she took a step back from him, trying hard to toughen herself up suddenly as she clenshed her teeth together all the more tightly. She watched his tears fall from his eyes before jogging up the remaining stairs, pushing past him and storming quickly into her best friends room, looking around wildly for her. "Where is she?" (NT) -- NIna, 13:34:29 10/11/05 Tue

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• He pushed himself up, following her into Lysia's room where the blanket was gone and so was Lysia. The bottle that she had kept the pills in was still knocked over on the table and the half empty glass of milk was standing on the floor next to the bed. The feeling of death clawed at his throat as he tried to control himself again but he just shook his head, the words choked out. "She's gone...Nina..she's gone." He leaned against the wall, tipping his head back and closing his eyes. How was he supposed to comfort her when he couldn't even control himself? (NT) -- Joey, 13:38:11 10/11/05 Tue

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• >> -- NIna, 13:46:20 10/11/05 Tue
  • Her cries brought him out of his own grief and propelled him over to her. It wasn't easy for him either, he had found her there, held her until they took her to the hospital. Making his way over, he sat down on the floor next to her and pulled her into his arms, holding her tightly as she cried. They were all going to play the blame game for awhile, each of them should have seen it coming some how...in a way he still felt like it was all a bad dream, none of this should be happening... (NT) -- Joey, 13:52:38 10/11/05 Tue
  • She burried her head in her knees, curled up against his chest as she allowed the sobs to overwhelm her. She allowed herself the comfort of his embrace for a good five minutes before she lifted her head back to the best, staring at it angrily. "Why did she do it? Did she leave a note? Tell anyone?" She should have known from their conversation last night- she knew she was fed up with it all and she knew she hated how her life was... but didn't they all feel that way now and again? How could she not have seen how desperate she was. "Tell me what happened. Tell me everything." (NT) -- Nina, 13:58:17 10/11/05 Tue

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• He shook his head. "She didn't leave a note..." He decided to leave out what Travis had said - that the other mans own personal business. "She was really...affectionate when I dropped her off at work last night..telling me she loved me and all that..." He took a deep breath, clearing his throat. "I came up here around one in the afternoon to try and get her to eat something and I found her...she'd been gone for awhile when I found her..I didn't know what to do at first...I called Trav and he came over and we took her to the hospital...I had to leave her there, god, that killed me Nina, leaving her there...but I didn't have any other choice..." (NT) -- Joey, 14:06:08 10/11/05 Tue

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• She listened quietly, staring blankly at her bed as she rested her head back against the wall. She played the information over in her head several time before she spoke. "The city hospital?" She struggled to her feet- feeling weak and exhausted. "I have to see her." She didn;t care how much it would hurt- she just had to see her to say goodbye- to prive to herself that she was really gone- that she had really left her even after she had promised so often that she'd never do what everyone else had done. (NT) -- Joey, 14:11:37 10/11/05 Tue

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• He shook his head, his brow furrowed. "You can't Nina, I dropped her off and said I had found her - we couldn't have them asking for all sorts of information..." He couldn't just act like that had been easy for him either, it killed him not to be able to give her a funeral at least but this is the way she would have wanted. She had refused to go see anyone about getting her pneumonia treated because people would ask to many questions and she didn't want to cause any trouble. Lysia would be pissed if her death caused any problems with the cops or social services or anything. (NT) -- Joey, 15:58:56 10/11/05 Tue

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• She glanced back to him with an angry glare, she hated to be told what to do... and she hated that all this shit meant she couldn't see her best friend one last time. "I have to... I'll just lie... I don;t care they can throw me back in juvi." She had to see her somehow... she wasn;t sure why it was so important to her but it seemed like somehting that she just had to do. She turned away from him and headed for the door, brushing her tears away from her cheeks without smudging her make up. (NT) -- Nina, 16:09:02 10/11/05 Tue

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• "Thats not what she would have wanted and you know it, Nina!" He didn't have the patience right now to deal with her rebellion and he couldn't handle something happening to her or anyone else here because she was making rash decisions. He didn't go after her though, just stood in the bedroom, keeping his tears at bay and watching her back as she turned away from him. He had done what he had to do and he couldn't handle taking any guilt from her on how he had handled things. (NT) -- Joey, 16:12:23 10/11/05 Tue

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• She wasn't blaming him on how he handled things... she was just angry at Lysia for doing this to them... and heartbroken that she hadn;t been here for her friend when she'd needed her. She hesitated with his words, closing her eyes and falling tot he side a little to lean against the door frame, her back still to him as she lifted a hand to her eyes, burrying her face as she dissolved back into tears. It was just a surreal concept that she would never see her again... never wake up opposite her, never discuss all her deepest darkest secrets and gossip with her. She couldn;t believe how selfish and fooling Lysia had been... how could she do something like this and give them no warning... (NT) -- NIna, 16:37:32 10/11/05 Tue

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• He let out a soft breath, sitting down on Nina's bed and dropping his face back into his hands once again. He was at a loss on what to do here, it hurt so bad he couldn't believe it. He wasn't really angry at Lysia though...a girl could only take so much before she gave up and honestly he was surprised that someone hadn't tried this before, though Lysia would have been his last guess on the person who would actually go through with it. He had always thought she was the strong one, but apperantly, she was just the one who hid the weakness the best. (NT) -- Joey, 16:53:16 10/11/05 Tue

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• She always masked her hurt with anger... and the more she cared the more angry she got. She turned back around to him, resting her head against the wooden frame as she watched him sat on her bed- seeming defeated. She knew he was right- she knew Lyssi' wouldn;t want her to be so stupid as to risk everything they'd worked for. She hesitated a few moments before crossing the room to him, standing infront of him and winding an arm around his neck tenderly, letting her fingers run through his blonde hair silently as the tears rolled down her cheeks unchecked. "You think shes happy now?" (NT) -- Nina, 17:13:38 10/11/05 Tue

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• He rested his head against her chest, letting out a long shaky breath. "I hope so..." He murmured, his eyes sliding shut as his arms wrapped around her waist, holding her close to him. "You should just move into my room..." It wouldn't be good for her to just stay in this room with the ghosts of a memory haunting her - not until they figured out what to do with Lysia's stuff at least...there was just so much to do and figure out and he didn't know how to do any of it. Luckily, Travis had figured out what to do with the body....at least someone had a level head. (NT) -- Joey, 17:15:54 10/11/05 Tue

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• She dipped her head to press her lips to the top of his head, closing her honey colored eyes softly as she wound her arms around his shoulders, nodding agreable... it wouldn't be right staying in here staring at Lyssi's empty bed, talking to the wall. She didn't care about being tought right now- she was heartbroken- and she was only human. A soft sob shook her soft form as she stood in his embrace, her brow furrowing heavily as she spoke "Can't believe shes gone." (NT) -- Nina, 17:25:23 10/11/05 Tue

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• He nodded a little, letting out a soft breath as he hugged her tighter, finally pulling her closer and into his lap. "I know baby, I know..." He sighed, shaking his head. "Travis is really shook up...everyone is..." But it was especially hard for his new friend. His arms wrapped tighter around his girl, taking comfort in her closeness and trying to give her some comfort as well. "I just wish I had checked on her earlier..." He blamed so much of this on himself, he should have been watching over her better... (NT) -- Joey, 17:33:03 10/11/05 Tue

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• She settled in his lap and wound her arms around his neck, hugging him tightly, feeling his warmth begin to melt her numbness. "He nade her miserable... she missed him really bad... " She couldn;t help but feel that he hadn;t helped this situation in the least. Maybe if he;d stayed out of her life she would still be here with them. "Its not your fault baby... Lyssi's a bright girl... and a determined one... she would have had this planned out, none of us were meant to know.... she wouldnt pull this shit for attention... " (NT) -- Nina, 17:40:47 10/11/05 Tue

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• He frowned at that, shaking his head. "He also made her happier then she had ever been." He stated, brushing back Nina's curls as he tightened his other arm around her. "We need to tell everyone else still..." He murmured, biting his lip as he dropped his head down to rest onto his shoulder - letting out a soft breath. It wasn't getting any easier to talk about and he had a lot of people to talk too still. (NT) -- Joey, 05:07:41 10/12/05 Wed

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• She wound her arms tightly around his neck, closing her eyes as she burried her face in his neck- not wanting to ponder too long on Travis and what he did or didnt do. "Kaden will be crushed..." She and Lyssi had always liked the boy and been close to him at juvi and here- Lysia more so as they'd been regular fuck buddies at one time... and she knew how close joey was to him. "I'll tell him... " (NT) -- Nina, 05:18:19 10/12/05 Wed

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• He shook his head, frowning at that. "no...I'll tell him." If Kaden got violently angry he wanted to be the one there to control him. He pressed a kiss to his girls temple, hugging her tightly. A deep sigh slipped through his lips - he just didn't know what to do with the whole situation or how to help everyone here work through this... (NT) -- Joey, 05:25:10 10/12/05 Wed

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• She wound her arms tightly around his neck, squeezing her eyes shut tightly and swallowing hard. This was all so difficult... she was so angry at Lyssi' for doing this to them, for messing them up, rocking their frail boat, hurting them so much- leaving Nina alone. "God... I'm so mad at her Joey.... how could she do this to us? I know shouldn;t be but I can;t help it... " It hurt too much. (NT) -- Nina, 06:36:24 10/12/05 Wed

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• "I know baby..." He let out a soft breath, shaking his head as he cleared his throat. "I have a friend who goes to school across the state, she's been thinking about moving out here cuz school is so much cheaper...She's studying to work in social services and therapy..I think it would be good if she came around sometimes...give everyone someone to talk to who is kind of a professional and be able to give me a heads up on what is going on with the social workers and whatnot..." (NT) -- Joey, 06:42:45 10/12/05 Wed

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• She frowned a touch but just shrugged her shoulders. She wasn;t a huge fan of therapy- it had just been a huge joke at Juvi and she didn;t talk about her feelings anyone- except to joey and...well, Lyssi. She didn;t really like new people coming intot he group- Jasons friend from back home had been bad enough, but right now she just didn;t really care. "If you think they need it.... I thought you always said talkin' doesnt do shit though..." (NT) -- Nina, 06:47:17 10/12/05 Wed

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• He nodded a little. "I don't know..I think it would be good...I think I need it." He was all sorts of screwed up from this and he needed an outside view, someone who wasn't involved, to talk to about it. His hand soothed over her arms gently, quietly. "It would be good to have someone else around...take a bit of the responsibility of me and Jason, you know?" He pressed a kiss to the back of her head, still holding her closely. (NT) -- Joey, 06:53:00 10/12/05 Wed

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• She frowned at that, letting her deep golden brown eyes open and fix on her wall behind him. She didn;t like when he referred to her- to them- as his responsibility- like they were a bunch of babies tying him down... and she also didn;t like the idea of someone else 'taking the responsibility'- someone none of the rest of them knew. "I don't. Don't expect me to talk to her." (NT) -- Nina, 06:59:03 10/12/05 Wed

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• His jaw set as he let out a low breath. She could never just go along with anything he said. Maybe it was just the rebellious teenager atttitude but it drove him crazy. "Fine." He leaned his head back against the wall, looking down at her for a second before he closed his eyes. All he wanted to do was curl up in bed, by himself, and go to sleep for a very long time. He wanted his twin too, just to make sure he was alright. The bond between the two of them was thick and knowing how much Jason would be hurting, well that just hurt him in return. (NT) -- Joey, 07:02:46 10/12/05 Wed

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• She frowned as he leaned back, letting her arms unwind from around his neck as he pulled away from her, her tearfilled and bloodshot eyes casting him a hurt look before she shifted herself out of his lap to move to their chest of drawers, routing through her draw till her hands fell on the tin box that contained her rolled joints. She took one out and slipped it between her lips, using the zippo he;d given her on their first day here to light it, leaning back against the chest of drawers, her head turned tp the window as she drew a heavy breath, letting her eyes slide closed. (NT) -- Nina, 07:14:56 10/12/05 Wed

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• He had his own pain to deal with too and he was finding it hard to be a comfort to her when he felt so confused and hurt himself. With a sigh, he pulled off his beanie cap, tossing it onto her bed as he rested his head back once again. His hair was growing long and shaggy and he had a couple of days stubble on his face but his appearance wasn't something he was overly concerned about usually. The frown stayed on his features, his head tipped back, trying to control his breathing. The weed was tempting but his job drug tested... (NT) -- Joey, 07:18:47 10/12/05 Wed

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• She brushed her curls back from her face, inhaling the soothing drug hungry for some relief from the pain. Now wasn't a time for them to be falling out, she needed him now more than she'd ever needed anybody... but she wouldn't admit as much. She let her gaze wander back to him, watching him as he leant back with his eyes closed, taking in his every feature. She was so scared of loosing him too... then she really would be all alone... but her theory seemed to be holding itself true- everyone you care about and love leaves you... you can;t rely on anyone but yourself. She knew it would only be a matter of time before he too left her. (NT) -- Nina, 07:27:19 10/12/05 Wed

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• He sighed deeply, shaking his head as he tried to figure out what to do with himself now. Finally he leaned forward, clearing his throat a little bit before he stood up. "I am going to go take a bit of a lie down...hopefully catch some sleep - it's going to be a long night." He tipped his head towards her, pausing in the doorway. "If you want when your done with that you can join me." He offered her a slight almost shadow of a smile before he exited the room and headed into his bedroom... (NT) -- Joey, 07:42:13 10/12/05 Wed

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• >> -- Nina, 07:56:19 10/12/05 Wed
  • He let out a soft breath, wincing as he heard the glass shatter before he continued the trek to his room, closing the door softly behind him. As he stretched out on the bed, he realized he was out of tears and all he wanted to do was sleep but everytime he closed his eyes all he could see was Lysia's still form on the bed - how pale and cold she had been wouldn't leave his thoughts. (NT) -- Joey, 08:02:12 10/12/05 Wed

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• She closed her eyes, finally stubbing out the end of the joint when she had smoked it down. She let her dark eyes wander around the room- her mascara dark around her eyes as she took int he chaotic sight, reaching for her best friends hoodie and balling it up in her arms, resting her head back down on it and closing her eyes, , remaining on the floor infront of the door, sobbing herself into an exhausted sleep eventually. She remained wholed up in their room all night, slipping in and out of unsettled sleep untill the sun shone in through the window, lighting up the room without mercy. (NT) -- Nina, 08:09:59 10/12/05 Wed

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• He had gotten up that morning to find out that Jackie had gone into the hospital during the night and that the rest of the house had obviously found out about Lysia. Everyone was grieving, tears and obscenties were really the only noises coating the rooms of the house. With a sigh, he headed outside to smoke a cigarette and call Camryn to see how soon she could be out here... (NT) -- Joey, 08:18:06 10/12/05 Wed