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Date Posted: 17:35:08 06/15/01 Fri
Author: Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::
Subject: ::Pain::
In reply to: Night Fire 's message, "++Enchantress lifts her head.++" on 03:04:12 06/15/01 Fri

::Searing pain fills her body as she watches the stallion fall::

::Getting up, ignoring her own, all to get to him, no longer caring how much Black Fire would hurt her, no longer caring what would happen to her.::

::Stepping up to him, she bows her head, and kisses his muzzle, all the while knowing ow mad Black Fire would be, but no longer caring anymore if she would kill her.::

::She looks into his eyes, hers reflecting all of his pain, but refusing to shed the teasrs she felt deep in her soul.::

::She spoke to Flaming Myst, ignoring the world about her, Night Fire lying so close. Flaming Myst.... please.... I am sorry for hurting you so.... I'm so very sorry.... ::

::Tears runs freely down her face and meld with his own. All I wanted... all I ever wished in my life was a stallion to love me, for me, and not my position or my beauty. You did that, and.... I fell in love with you.... from the minute I saw you... ::

::She arches her neck, the first sign of any prodness left in her. I was born in the desert, not by a mare, nor a stallio, but the sands themselves gave birth to me... Not knowing why she was revealing her past to him, she changed the subject and turned her orbs to fasten onto his::

:: If you want, Flaming Myst, I will dissapear, no matter how it will hurt me or kill me... I care only for you... you need never see my face again... She says these words, trying hard to to scream her anguish::

::All the while, asking herself Why is life so? Why does it happen to me? She turns to fasten her eyes on his, finally noticing Night Fire again. She turns her gaze to her and speaks from her heart. Why do you hate me so? You love him just as I, and yet you treat me like the dirt from under your hooves! You talk about as though I am but an object, a dark one, like a disease, who tries, tries to ruin lives! You speak as though I manipulated your mate, Sand Storm, to make him leave you! Tears in her eyes at this unfairness, she cuts back a sob::

::Turning her gaze back to Flaming Myst, she eyes him, almost knowing before she spoke what his answer would be. Leave. Never come back. It had happened before, she realized, she had buried it in her mind and had eventually forgotten about it. Turning back to Flaming Myst, she spoke. I hate to cause you such agony... its kills me as well as you.... She fights back a sob and speaks the words dreaded most. And, to stop your pain, for you, I will leave.... you can continue with Night Fire, and forget about a mare named Sand Storm. You can forget my love, and all that has happened.::

::Flaming Myst, if, in your heart, you choose Night Fire over me, I will leave... I can not live where I am treated as an object, or some thing lower than yourselves. If you want, I will leave, no matter how it kills me, you will never lay eyes upon me again...::

:: Her whole body shaking, she turns and looks at Flaming Myst. I just want you to know, before.... I leave, or die, that I will, and always will, love you, Flaming Myst, eternally and forever. No matter how Night Fire may hurt me, or treat me, no matter how many times you nuzzle her as you never did me, that I will, love you, an undying and truthful love, no matter how many times it has been betrayed.::

::She takes another step back, and etches Flaming Myst's features into her mind, all the while knowing that she could never forget him. Preparing to leave, she stes her orbs upon the setting sun, her heart in agony and mourning. Never would she and her love stand underneath the sunset, never would they race upon the desert sands.::

::A thought strikes her. Perhaps... he did love her? She shakes the thought away, would not alow herself to hope, not alow herself to be hurt any more than she knew she would. A small part of her heart had hope.::

:;She takes a breath, preparing herself, and turns to Flaming Myst. It is your choice... ask your heart, not your concience.... Turning to Night Fire, she looks at her in the eyes. Please... say nothing... I want to hear it from him, first, and then you may torture me all you wish.... Eyes holding tears, yet full of love, she turns to Flaming Myst, and whispers, almost inaudibly, Please... make the pain stop... Before quickly ducking her head and hiding all emotions, praying Night Fire would heed her wishes... for once...::

::Sighing, she lets her thoughts wander as she waits for the answer to her question, wondering how she would live, with all that love, for him, and no oe to accept it? SHe turns to Flaming Myst, her orbs showing only pain and love, for him, and he only, but resopecting his choice, tough in her heart, praying her love for him would for once, at last, be returned...::

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Replies:

++Rears++ -- Night Fire, 19:23:25 06/15/01 Fri
- ::Shakes her head:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 19:51:01 06/15/01 Fri
  - ++Snorts++ -- Night Fire, 20:15:32 06/15/01 Fri
    - ::Nods:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 20:53:42 06/15/01 Fri
      - ++Sighs++ -- Night Fire, 21:03:31 06/15/01 Fri
        ::Shakes her head:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 22:20:02 06/15/01 Fri
        ++She gets up, and shakes off++ -- Night Fire, 03:31:49 06/16/01 Sat
        ::Steps forward:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 08:10:14 06/16/01 Sat
        ~~~~~~* His eyes open slowly..getting used to the sun..his ears alert for more words any mare would speak.... -- Flaming Myst, 16:50:50 06/16/01 Sat
        ::Nuzzles him:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 17:04:28 06/16/01 Sat
        His smile not only is on his face but in his eyes as he hears the acceptance... -- Flaming Myst, 17:47:19 06/16/01 Sat
        ::Laughs:: -- Sand Storm, 18:01:11 06/16/01 Sat
        He lauged went to a shallower part.... -- Flaming Myst, 18:05:15 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Turns, and walks away leaving them alone....++ -- Night Fire, 18:49:15 06/16/01 Sat
        His eyes turn back to their lost look as he jumps out of the pond..... -- Flaming Myst, 19:48:53 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Rolls eyes..++ -- Raving Beauty(Enchantress)(OOC:Old name Night Fire), 20:00:49 06/16/01 Sat
        His eyes feel in pain as his heart seems to fall apart.... -- Flaming Myst ; Escaped Silence, 20:16:26 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Her eyes still so pained.....++ -- Raving Beauty, 20:36:03 06/16/01 Sat
        ++More.....++ -- Raving Beauty, Fuco Kola, 20:41:52 06/16/01 Sat
        His eyes pained he follows her quietly and he lays down beside her.... -- Flaming Myst; A heart too easy to surrender, 20:43:24 06/16/01 Sat
        ++She hadn't wished for this to happen......++ -- Raving Beauty, Fuco Kola, 20:57:11 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Dying eyes++ -- Raving Beauty, Fuco Kola, 21:08:10 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Light's going out++ -- Enchantress(Nickname of Raving Beauty), 21:22:59 06/16/01 Sat
        ::Tears shine in her eyes as she takes a step back:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 22:16:14 06/16/01 Sat
        ++Rears++ -- Enchantress, 03:52:15 06/17/01 Sun
        ::Shakes her head:: -- Sand Storm ::Goddess of the Desert::, 09:09:58 06/17/01 Sun