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Date Posted: 07:28:04 10/09/01 Tue
Author: Sandy
Author Host/IP: 172.138.129.175
Subject: Jonathan
In reply to: Jonathan 's message, "Are you out there. God?" on 20:44:04 10/07/01 Sun

I wish I had the words to bring some comfort to you. I do understand a lot of what you are saying. I guess for me I've found a way to put a lot of the past out of my mind, for the most part. It took a long, long time and sometimes even now it resurfaces. Sometimes it's triggered by things that happen and transport me back in time to the feelings I had as a child..the fright, uneasiness, wondering what terrible thing is going to happen today, the sick feeling of watching my dad drive up the driveway and wondering if he's drunk and if he is, is he going to beat on my mother, call us all sorry SOBs, run up and down the hall slamming our doors all night and calling us every name in the book. Most of the time though, I will push these thoughts out of my head and I've become pretty good at that. It's taken practice. I've tried to think about it differently...that obviously something was wrong with this man, maybe he didn't understand it himself, but he couldn't have been happy either...not that it gave him the right to terrorize his family. And the effects are felt years later by all of us, in the form of low self-esteem and being more nervous and high-strung than we probably would have been, and also depression that came with it. I read an article once that said that children who were raised in violence and alcoholism exhibit a lot of the same symptoms years later of someone who has fought in a war. I believe that's true. The constant not knowing what to expect and being on guard all the time and the violence take it's toll. Thank God those days are over, even if the effects are still there in varying degrees.

None of this helps you. I know that.

As for God and religion. Like you and Dave and many others, I'm not real clear on what I believe these days. I do believe there's a God..but I'm not sure that any organized religion out there has all the answers. Sometimes I think the truth is different than a lot of people think or maybe it's a combination of a lot of different religions. I don't really know. I don't know why some people live in the conditions you and I did. I don't know why some people have great family lives and some have horrible ones.

I guess most of the time, I try hard not to think about it, or keep myself distracted with other things.

Well..gotta go. Matt's finally ready to go to school :)

Take care,
Sandy

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  • God loves you so much Jon -- Michele, 10:06:58 10/09/01 Tue
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