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Date Posted: 21:35:36 06/08/01 Fri
Author: Jesse
Author Host/IP: 24.150.112.129
Subject: Ambivalence

Have you ever been abandoned? Have you ever not been able to decide between two opposing situations? Live, or die?
Do I ever make sense? I'm sorry to waste your time. What I say never seems to make sense to anyone. I don't even understand it myself, sometimes. No wonder they think I'm weird. People thought I was weird because I never talked. I felt like my opinion didn't matter because I am nothing.
Have you ever felt like the one thing you want the most you can't have because you love someone else too much? You just don't want to be, and you're sitting on the edge of the bridge and you hear their voice saying "I live for you" If it wasn't for you I'd kill myself"? It makes me cry to think someone could love me so much. Why? Is that a good enough reason to live? Someone else's feelings? Sometimes I can't help wishing no one loved me. It would be so easy.
I searched for a reason of my own, there just aren't any. If you have nothing to give, nothing special about you, I'm not beautiful inside or out. Especially out. What's the point continuing to live?
I know, I sound insane, well I am, but that's ok with that, perfectly ok. But to love yourself... I want to love myself. I'd give anything to love myself. That's the most beautiful thing in the world. But how do you do it? Is it really possible? SOmebody tell me please...

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