Date Posted:15:34:56 08/11/04 Wed Author:Cindy Standiford Subject: Re: loss of stillborn son In reply to:
Amy Frawley
's message, "loss of stillborn son" on 10:37:53 08/04/04 Wed
>Hi, I'm a 34 year old mother who also lost a son. On May 12, 2004, I was 38 weeks pregnant and went into labor. When I got to the hospital and was hooked up to the heart monitor, we found my perfect little angel, Anthony Mark had no heart beat. Telling my older son, Tim who is 11 years old was devastating. He was so looking foreward to having a baby brother. My heart was breaking for Anthony and for Tim. Everyone, for 3 months have been telling me to embrace the griefing process, but I have been fighting it. After reading your story, I know it has helped me a lot to look at Anthony's pictures and let my mind remember every minute of his birth and holding him for hours. Yes, I have cried so much, I sometimes think I can't cry any more. But I do! It is part of the healing process to cry and remember everything. My heart still hurts and sometimes feels empty, but not has bad as first. My older son has helped alot, to do fun things with him, because I know Anthony would want that for his big brother Tim. I have read alot about grieving and that has helped tooo. Talking to people that have gone through the same loss has also helps. You have to give yourself time, and right now I know that advice sounds terrible and a bunch of bull, because I felt that way when people said it to me! It will be 3 months tomorrow, since my little angel went to heaven and I miss him very much, but I am still here, and I hope everything I have been through can help someone else get through this heart break. You are in my prayers. I would love to help in any way I can.
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