Date Posted:10:37:53 08/04/04 Wed Author:Amy Frawley Subject::~( loss of stillborn son
Hi, I'm a 22 year old mother who lost a son. He was carried for 7 1/2 months only to be born lifeless with the cord around his neck. Doctors tell me and my fiance that it wasn't our fault but it still feels like it though. We are trying to help each other and be there for each other but there is only so much we can do for one another. We both cannot sleep for fear of nightmares and in my case fear of seeing his angelic face all over again. i'm living a constant nightmare wishing that somehow i'll wake up and i'll have my little ethan. But i remember that this is real life and there is no rewind button or erase button. And i just keep reliving that day over and over again. and it feels like i'm slowly dying inside. I know i have to be strong for the son i do have but i can't help being filled with loss and greif. So if anyone can help me i would really appreciate it. even if it is just to talk through emails. I would grately appreciate all of the support i can get. Thanks.