Date Posted:23:19:27 07/13/05 Wed Author:poppy helgren Subject: Re: So Very Sad In reply to:
Mary St. John
's message, "So Very Sad" on 10:28:35 11/02/04 Tue
>I lost my son a little over two years ago and I am in
>so much pain. He was 19 years old and he died of a
>medication interaction I found him in my bed and he
>had been gone for several hours. TThe shock of
>finding him was such a shock. A shock that I don't
>think that I'll ever get over. I had support at the
>time of the services but that all went away in a few
>weeks. I do have a daughter that lives with me. She
>doesn't even understand at times. I sleep with some
>of his clothes under my pillow since he has passed
>away. I miss him so much and feel so alone. My
>sisters don't understand. They think I should be
>over it by now and getting on with my life. I had to
>go into a psychiatric hospital for 3 months after he
>died. I had a completer nervous breakdown. Nobody
>seem to be able to understand what a terrible tragedy
>I have been through. I guess you can't understand
>unless you have been through it. My daughter gets
>jealous of my grieving so much for my son. I love her
>and shes all I have left. MY husband died 5 years ago
>so it's just the two of us. I would like to meet
>other mothers who know what I am talking about. I
>need a friend who can understand. Please help me.
Dear Mary:
I read your message. I do understand how you feel. My daughter Pam, age 24, was found dead 3 weeks ago. I feel like I will loose my mind. I feel like nothing will ever be the same. Nothing matters any more. My beautiful, special and loving daughter is dead.
If you would like to write to me, I would like to help you--maybe we could help each other.
God bless you,
Poppy
