Date Posted:00:19:53 11/03/05 Thu Author:Shandi Subject: Re: I lost my 2 month old In reply to:
Mary Newberry
's message, "I need someone to talk to" on 18:31:32 03/19/05 Sat
I lost my son at only 2 months and a week. He was born 3 1/2 months early. He had to go in for major surgery. He went in on the 7th of june 2005 at 11ish pm. He had to go back to surgery on the 8th at 9ish. He fought untill he could no longer. The doctors told me that his heart rate was falling and that he would not pull through. He was only suffering. i chose to remove life support. It was the hardest thing that i had to do. To tell the doctors to end you childs life by will. I have a lot of guilt because of that. I held him as he passed away, looking on,and could do nothing but watch him die. You have to look at it this way, God called your child back home for a reason.... heaven has to have babies too. I dont understand it my self sometimes. Why would god allow us to have this wounderful being inside us, yet take them away befor we even get a chance to know them. It is very hard sometimes to deal with things. It has only been 5 months since i had to bury my son. My heart is empty. It feels like an eternty,yet he has been gone such a short time. Everythnig happens for a reason, and you have to believe that you will see your sweet child again. Feel free to e mail me. babyfrog_05@yahoo.com
