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Subject: Re: He hurt my feelings


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Heather
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Date Posted: 16:26:13 03/20/07 Tue
In reply to: Shari 's message, "Re: He hurt my feelings" on 15:36:26 03/20/07 Tue
 Shari - That is exactly what I needed to hear.
I don't know exactly how to explain it to you, but I know that what you just wrote to me was sent from God. I prayed last night and the spirit was flowing and he told me to let it go and let him handle every single dealing in my life. I guess I didn't realize that I had such a firm grip on my life. I let him have it all and he will take care of my boys and me. I do see that right now with his addict behavior, he would cause alot of damage to my little boy. Like I said previously, he treats our son the same way he treats me.
In a way I am ashamed for letting this happen yet again, but in another way, I am only human and I love him and I wanted that family with him. He really worked me over again. Sad but true. How did I allow it? I really don't know. I thought it was real. I thought everytime was real. He gets better and better at this manipulating thing as time goes on.
Sitting here today thinking back, he is the strangest man I have ever met. His mind does not work normally. Is that him or is that the drugs? I don't know anymore. But I know that I cannot deal with him. Each day was bringing me further and further down. I am glad I read his text messages. I asked him if I can see his hand held and he was right there while I looked through it. He was really close then, probably cause he knew he had something to hide.
I just feel so bad that my son got hurt in all of this. I handled it wrong. Not too bad, but just a little. I allowed him to say words to my kids before he left because I went to the shower cause I was livid that he did this again. He told me kids that anything I say about him is a lie, then he tore up a family picture in front of my kids and left. My baby boy is so hurt and of course blamed me for making him leave. I feel so terrible cause my son loves his dad so much. Things were going great before I allowed him back in our lives.
Please pray that God gives me the strength to make better decisions. THis up and down life is not healthy for me and my kids and I am actually pretty sick of being down and out. Life has to offer something more than this. There has to be an end to all of this suffering and I need to find it soon.
Thanks all for your support.
Advice and comments welcome please.
I am feeling sorta distraught at the moment.
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Re: He hurt my feelingsHulalea12:27:04 03/21/07 Wed
Re: He hurt my feelingsShari21:16:53 03/21/07 Wed

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