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Date Posted: 21:14:50 06/10/01 Sun
Author: j-skee
Subject: hello

Well Anna it is nice to have family around. It is nice to go and hang out with them over at my moms house. But you would think that would help me, but I am still annoyed. Because now I wonder what they are doing now that they have even more time to be together alone. Not that she would care weather or not I cared. I just think that I need to get up the nerve and ask her what the heck is going on. It just bothers me that all of her actions seem to be still saying the same darn thing. That she is trying to persue him. I know this is the nastiest thing a person could say but I hope that for some reason he hurts her, not physically of course. But I hope that at some point he get tired of her and doesnt let her down easy, that he is mean and nasty to her. Oh my gosh I just actually wrote all that stuff down. Now I am really getting bad and annoyed with this whole situation. Ya know the question I keep asking myself is "Why does this whole thing bother me so darn much?" Maybe someone else could give me some insight as to what they think is making me so annoyed. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Sorry I needed to do that. Don't want to bust anyones ear drums so that is the best scream I am allowed to do since screaming right now would not be a wise decision. Or would it be at any time considering I live in an apartment.

Okay here I go again rambling on and on about my pathetic life that really is not as bad as I think it is, just my love life is as bad as I think it is. Do you know that the feeling that I might not ever meet someone to spend my life with eats away at me every day. I have to say that I think about weather or not I am going to find somoene at least once a day. Now tell me that isnt sad. I really, truely, actually feel that I am doomed to spend the rest of my life alone. I always question why me? I don't in any way blaim God like I would have in the past. I know that he has a plan for all of us but it scares me to think what if his plan for me is to spend the rest of my life alone without anyone but friends to share it with me. I hate not knowing and I hate not having a stable mental life. Anna I am sure there are days where you wish you could just drown all your worries, pains and sorrows in a bucket of water and dump that bucket in a river and watch it float away. Well that is the way that I am feeling right now. Life is such a deep and complex unaxplainable mess. How do we sometimes survive each day knowing that we have to face the next day, the next week and even the years to come and we don't even know what to expect? Its way beyond the sheer understanding of even the smartest people in the world. What motivates and drives some of us to live every single day where there are those that just purely give up on life all together. Why is the mind so complex it drives us to emotions so far beyond our touch and understanding? Emotions that can drive us over the edge into an abyss of darkness. Okay I think I need to stop where I am before I start to not only confuse myself but confuse everyone else here, if I have not already done so.

I guess now that it is 11pm I should go to bed. I have to get up and go to work in the morning. I have no idea where Catherine is right now, annoyed, annoyed, she is probably doing somehting with Josh. Oh well I will try and stop by tomorrow after I hang out at moms. I love and miss each and every one of you guys. Lots of love and hugs.

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