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Date Posted: 22:54:45 04/29/01 Sun
Author: saira
Subject: this is the never-ending finish to a day that sucks ass

i hate being appropriate for you.
with just the right step,
in the right tune.
everything to satisfy your control over a negative me.

stepping away into you.
but always walking.
and when it's spoiled once,
the scar appears with each listen.

and it is so hard to escape when the first
thing i hit is your name.
twice over.
it's pointless to place your true self in a
guarded pocket when all you want is to be known.
cos each time you change your name,
you lose yourself from me.

so you're placing pennies
on your eye lids when you sleep.
that is why we're here, after all.
to sleep all the time.
only some dreams seem much more real.

and when i wake up to another dream,
i still taste you everywhere.
and i find myself inhaling you with every blink.

you record each word that slipped by,
only to replay it in my face.
i'm in the black until my spine is curved.

as the collection builds up, you stuff your mattress,
the one i lose myself in.
but i always have enough fear to be found.

i hate watching you walk away because in the corner
of my eye i always see you stumble.
and that's my heart beating itself up again.
i would expect it to fall apart any minute now,
but you know how to hold it so it screams.

but when we confront each other,
i'll read your anger or your lust.
whatever it is that's left in your defiant mind.
maybe i'll behave accordingly,
cos to displease you would cut lies on my tongue.

one-armed embraces are all i can steal from you,
and that's only when you're looking at me looking at you looking at your face.
one side of me is always left cold.

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