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Date Posted: 00:33:12 10/27/08 Mon
Author: Sidhe
Author Host/IP: r74-195-252-169.stl1cmta01.stwrok.ok.dh.suddenlink.net / 74.195.252.169
Subject: Sidhe in Oklahoma

I was going to email you, but clicking the link into my email didn't work.

My name is Sidhe. I live in Oklahoma. When I found your site, I was initially taken aback. Why would a grown man dress like you dress? Why would you wear fairy clothes? I had never come across anybody like you before, but I felt a kinship with you. My favorite story when I was a child was the story of Peter Pan, because it represented freedom, and escape, and childhood, all the things I never had even as a child.

I was curious about you, and I slowly read everything on your site over a period of several days. I read your wikipedia page and I watched all the videos of you that were available online. I slowly turned everything I learned about you over in my head and I tried to understand you a little better.

What I ended up doing was understanding myself better. As I read your website and as I watched the videos of you, and as I continued to methodically turn everything over in my head, I was inescapably reminded of a part of myself that I had tried not to think about for a very long time. I was reminded of the child that I had tried to forget, the little girl and the little boy (I too am androgynous) who were still at play in some long-buried playground in the bottom of my self.

I am female in body but a mix of both in my mind. I've tried very hard to love what my body tells me is the truth and to ignore as best I can what my soul tells me is the truth. On top of that, I am still very much a child, and I don't know how to come to grips with that. I'm very much a boy, regardless of what my chromosomes tell me, and very much a girl as well, and I don't know how to reconcile them to each other.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that you've made me think about a lot of things that I otherwise wouldn't have. And I think I understand a lot more about myself than I did a few days ago. I'm finally able to say-hey, it's okay to be the person I am. Look at this guy! He's doing it! He's normal and well-adjusted and sane and he's even engaged to be married and he dresses up like Peter Pan! He doesn't give a crap what other people think about him, and above everything else, he's happy! Surely then it wouldn't be totally crazy for me to buy a suit? Or wear fairy wings every now and then?

I am inspired by you. You have a confidence and a self-assuredness that I hope one day to share. Keep doing what you're doing-I and many others are cheering you on!

Sidhe

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