Author:
julie monahan
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Date Posted: 00:58:22 04/08/09 Wed
It was a god-send to me, when i got pregnant at 35 and stopped working at 8 months, and have never really gone back to the work force, because i sucked at it! I'm not lazy, i'm very clean and for about the last 10 years have been pretty organized in my life. Thank god my husband is the bread winner and we only have our 1 child. We would like to buy our first home but cant afford to do it on 1 salary. I would like to earn money, but can really only make a minimal amount of & because it takes me years to feel good and comfortable at my jobs because o all of my dyslexic problems. Over the years though i have been able to become more comfortable EXPLAINING MYSELF TO PEOPLE ABOUT MY PROBLEM. Even the smart jerks who think and talk too fast for me. I was extreamly shy my entire life, until around 30. I still suffer from a lot anxiety, but found lots of help in THE SELF HELP SECTION OF THE LIBRARY. And some counseling, the very little that i could afford. I soak-up every little good positive bit of info that I can to make myself feel good and strong and self assured. I used to go to the bathroom at work, lock the door, cry in silence, flush the toilet then wash my face a little(cant rub off make-up) look at myself in the mirror, SMILE and give myself a pep-talk about all the good things that i was capable of doing. GIVE YOURSELF POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS, WHILE SMILLING AND LOOKING AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR! It really does start to help you stand up for yourself and feel good and worthy and smart and needed and pretty. Take deep breaths and go to your HAPPY PLACE IN YOUR MIND. You have to get to a place where you start to crawl towards feeling goog about yourself and strrong before you can coax yourself into selling yourself the idea that YES YOU CAN TELL OTHER PEOPLE about your problem. Start with the people that you feel close to and comfortable, even if it means talking out loud to yourself at home in your own privacy or to the cat or dog or small child. Start practing on them. Like NIKE says (JUST DO IT)
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