Author: Lara H (sad) [ Edit | View ]
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Date Posted: 12:11:39 01/18/12 Wed
I guess my dyslexia never bothered me that badly before I came to uni. My mum has told me it did when i was alot younger but i don't really remember.
I am just tired and frustrated by it. I work really hard at uni, get all the help offered to me by the support services, spend ages on my essays, work ten times harder than all my friends, spend all my time in my room working and still don't get the marks i want. I have asked my lecturers for help but there is little they can do.
I just feel like its impacted on my self esteem massively. I have no faith in my ability any more. When I get bad marks I get so upset because I have huge goals and ambitions for the future.
I just think, I work so hard and get help, yet still don't get great marks. I feel like there must be something fundamentally wrong with me, sometimes even that I am not as intelligent as my friends (they get good marks so easily, with so much less work than me).
I am now in my final year and have started looking at getting a job in my area. However, every job I look at requires lots of reading, or writing, or presenting (i get confused). I just feel like i am lacking all the skills that employers would want.
I used to be more positive about it, but now its all faded and I just want to be able to achieve like the people around me. I want to be able to get out of uni what I put into it, rather than constantly not feeling good enough.
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