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Author: dave |
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Date Posted: 23:18:36 02/12/05 Sat I just got back from this thing called Aquadanse which was this beautiful ritual of naked bodies in a warm pool doing contact improv and something like group Watsu. I feel really blissed out from the experience and its making me want to come clean about how I experienced last night's Demo and the mix of feelings I have about the whole scene at One Taste. On the one hand, I really feel a lot of love and respect towards just about every individual I've had the pleasure of becoming aquainted with over there. It was really beautiful seeing Allyson in such ecstasy and the pure glow on her lovely face when it was all over. But there was a point when it was going on and especially afterwards when people were sharing their frames that I was like - Did I miss out on the mushrooms that they passed out while I was in the bathroom because I didn't feel anything like any of these people are talking about. I felt a sexual charge in the room, but it wasn't much more intense than when I walked into the center on Thursday and Allyson and Nicole were sitting on the couch and I could feel the energy of some deep emotional conversation they must've been having. I've brought enough women to orgasm in my life to know that it is a huge turn on to be with someone in that state, but that I'm not going to feel what it is that they are feeling. I often find myself taking on the rebellious role in group dynamics because I feel that people often seem to me to lose their authenticity and individuality when it comes to situations where there is a certain worldview that people are embracing en mass. I am especially frustrated with politics and religion when people always surprise me at their capacity to lose all reason and jump on the bandwagon, be it patriotism or Christianity or Heaven's Gate or whatever. Of all the things I have questioned about myself, being insensitive is not really one that has ever come up. So I found myself looking around the room and wondering - Could all these people really be feeling these things when I'm right here with them and I definitely don't or is there some kind of mass hysteria happening or are people just succumbing to some kind of peer pressure to claim that they too had a powerful cosmic experience. As each frame was shared, I found myself going into more and more distrust of the whole thing and questioning the whole spectacle and the money involved and all that. I don't want to be cynical, especially when each individual in this group has something really beautiful that I admire. Can anyone offer any insight to help me reconcile these contradictory fragments of my experience? With love and respect and a desire to understand, Dave [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] |
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| A few thoughts.... | Nicole | 10:19:27 02/13/05 Sun |
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| Reflections on your thoughts | DJ | 16:03:20 02/13/05 Sun |
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| In the beginning | allyson | 17:22:03 02/16/05 Wed |
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