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• She was quite nearly fuming when she came into the apartment at midnight. They had been the talk of the party and he hadn't even been there. Unfortunantly, it hadn't been a good talk, instead it had been on how they had to have broken up and if they hadn't, well then, 'poor Bianca'. In fact, Kat herself had thought that they were no longer together. Not that Bianca ever talked about Gavin to one of her flings, but nonetheless, she tried to keep her boys out of the sphere of influence for just this reason. He had made her out to look like an incompetent fool who couldn't keep her boyfriend satisfied. The door slammed shut behind her loudly, her eyes sparking as she shrugged out of her jacket and kicked off her boots... (NT) -- Bianca, 07:13:00 01/21/05 Fri

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• "Good night?" He had that quiet, happy slur to his words that always signified a good high, and his smile was as heartfelt as it would ever get as he looked up to watch her. He hadn't the slighest clue about anything. That girl had been just another willing woman to warm his bed while on tour and it wasn't unlikely that he would have to strain to try and remember exactly when they had encountered one another and how things had worked out. It was all a blur - especially right now... (NT) -- Gavin, 07:41:06 01/21/05 Fri

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• She noted that he was high as soon as he spoke and she looked into his eyes. Shaking her head, she growled lightly, throwing a pillow at him as she walked by. "You just don't fucking think, do you Gavin? Or is that you just don't give a shit if you ruin me? Is that what it is?" Her voice was angry and almost hurt, not that he had cheated on her, but that he had done it so obviously. As she walked through the hallway she stepped out of her dress, tossing it to the side - leaving her in the expensive black bra and panty set and her strappy high heels... (NT) -- Bianca, 07:45:21 01/21/05 Fri

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• "Hey.. Hey." He protested and caught the pillow and tossed it half-heartedly back at her, brows furrowed slowly. Shifting to sit up, leaning with his elbows on his knees and one hand rubbing his opposite arm, his head tipped back a little so he could watch her. "I don't know what you're talking about, B..." His features were genuinely confused - their infidelities were an unspoken agreement and he didn't understand why she would be mad about anything having to do with that now, all of a sudden. (NT) -- Gavinm, 08:01:53 01/21/05 Fri

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• "Kat. I am talking about Kat Marino, you know, the girl you fucked in Philly? The girl I fucking work with?! The girl who came up to me tonight in front of half of the fucking city telling me how sorry she was about how we broke up, and me saying we didn't, and then her saying what a great screw you were last month!" She shook her head, her brow furrowed. "How could you do this, Gavin?! I don't care if you go out and fuck other girls, do whatever the hell you want, but don't you even think about making a fool of me like this!" She was nearly shaking with her anger, her eyes sparking, her hands on her nearly bare hips. (NT) -- Bianca, 08:14:12 01/21/05 Fri

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• "Kat.. The redhead? When was I in Philly?" Realization hit him then finally and his lips formed into a silent 'O' before he grimaced and ran both hands through his hair. "Right... Uh..." He didn't know what he was supposed to say and was just feeling all-around awkward right then - not unlike when he had been a little kid standing on a chair and stealing cookies out of the cupboard only to be caught by his mother. Bad feeling. (NT) -- Gavin, 08:17:51 01/21/05 Fri

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• She shook her head with a growled huff, the man was so strung out that he didn't even know who he was half the time right now. "Your...your so...I don't even know what you are!" One hand raised to run through her black hair, her brow furrowed as she shook her head. "Do you realize now, that everyone is thinking that I can't satisify my boyfriend? That I am somehow lacking so you have to run around and get your excitement elsewhere? You know this is going to hit the tabloids by Saturday!" She raised her eyes to the ceiling for a moment before she shook her head. "I hope she was damn good for you, for you to have fucked up this badly." With that she turned, heading into the bedroom. (NT) -- Bianca, 08:39:28 01/21/05 Fri

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• "Come on Bianca..." He protested with an almost whiney tone to his voice as he shifted to stand to trail after her. "Who cares what the tabloids say? Last thing I read, some actress was having the babies of an extreterrestrial." He rolled his eyes and dropped onto the edge of her bed, fingers linking between his knees. "You've fucked half my friends and I don't give a shit." He commented so casually, it was hard to believe the meaning behind the words escaping his lips. (NT) -- Gavin, 08:54:57 01/21/05 Fri

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• She set her jaw, her brow furrowed heavily as she thought about what he just said. She shook her head, clearing her throat as she tugged on a long tee shirt and then turned to face him. "Maybe we should just we did break up then." Whether or not she was saying that they should break up or just say they broke up was unclear but really, they barely even had a relationship, they just seemed to have sex occasionally and he stayed with her. She just didn't want all this scandel surrounding her and if there was no love in the relationship, what was the point in it? (NT) -- Bianca, 09:03:50 01/21/05 Fri

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• His brows furrowed at that and he sat up a little - as if struggling to work out what to say in response. "C'mon..." She was the single constant in his life and though they were the perfect image of dysfunction, atleast she was always around. A quiet sigh slipped from his lips as he shook his head a little. "Look, I'm sorry.. You've gotta know I never meant to 'ruin' your image or anything like that." (NT) -- Gavin, 09:11:57 01/21/05 Fri

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• She shook her head, a low breath escaping her lips as she slipped off her bra and tossed it onto the chair, sitting down on the bed and leaning against the headboard, topping her head back. "The damage is already done." There was no sense in him apolagizing now, it was all done and over with by this point and she was just trying to figure out the ways to fix it. Her eyes slid shut and she shifted a bit, her near perfect body obviously to skinny at this point, her ribs protruding a touch to much and her hips sharply angled... (NT) -- Bianca, 09:18:07 01/21/05 Fri

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• He sighed quietly and then laid back slowly, legs dangling over the edge of the bed and head tipped back so he could just see her, fingers linked over his stomach. "Want me to leave?" But he was going nowhere fast and she would have to specifically request that he get out of there before he would up and leave. He just didn't understand - this 'worked' for them, in his opinion, and the last thing that he wanted was to try to rearrange his life. (NT) -- Gavin, 09:24:47 01/21/05 Fri

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• She shook her head, sliding to lay down, her back facing him, on her side. "I don't care." In her mind, as of right now, the relationship between them was purely for professional reasons. As twisted as it was, in her mind, he showed he cared by keeping his infidelities under wraps and she did the same. Now though, he had changed that and the trust that was there was now gone and that just ruined everything. Plus, Kat's face was running through her mind and suddenly she had to ask. "Was she better for you then I was?" She questioned, still not facing him, just gazing at the wall across from her. (NT) -- Bianca, 09:28:47 01/21/05 Fri

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• "Get real, B... No one's like you..." He actually sounded a little surprised at that - as if it had never occurred to him that she would ever final insecure about his desire for her. Everyone else kept him busy and sated when he couldn't be with her, but if ever given the choice - he would choose her over anyone else in a heartbeat. He shifted onto his stomach slowly, head resting on his arm as he stared wordlessly then at her back. (NT) -- Gavin, 09:36:46 01/21/05 Fri

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• She let out a soft breath and if he had been looking at her he would have seen the depth of insecurity that was so visible in her dark eyes. For some reason, this one, this one hurt her. She felt betrayed even though she knew that he cheated on her countless other times and she had done the same to him. Maybe it was just the time of the month or something, but she was suddenly feeling like there was so much wrong with her life. She bit her lip, her brow furrowed heavily as tried to sort out her thoughts. "Does it bother you...to know I am with other guys when your not here?" She questioned softly, the words barely a whisper, her eyes still focused on the wall. (NT) -- Bianca, 09:40:10 01/21/05 Fri

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• He couldn't resist scooting up so that he was lying right behind her, and then shifted onto his side, a hand slipping from her hip - which he noted was lacking some soft flesh - to slide slowly over her stomach. "I don't think about it..." His voice was a soft near-whisper as he dipped his head to nuzzle her neck slowly, lips brushing behind her ear. He didn't think about it not because he didn't care, but because it would drive him nuts if he allowed himself to. (NT) -- Gavin, 09:52:28 01/21/05 Fri

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• She shifted to let her body curl into the shake of his, her eyes sliding shut with emotion that she wasn't sure was even there before now. Her hand fisted in the soft flannel sheets as she cleared her throat. "I don't know what happened to us, Gav..." She murmured softly, her eyes remaining closed as she shifted even closer to him, spooning. She really didn't know what had happened, she could remember at one time them being together, with only one another and so in love and so happy and she didn't have all these problems she seemed to have now. (NT) -- Bianca, 09:57:33 01/21/05 Fri

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• "Me neither..." He murmured softly as his arm slipped around her and held her close to him. It was amazing - when they were kids and had nothing but their supportive families and dreams bigger than the world itself, things had been so good. But now that they both had more successes than they had ever imagined, they had more insecurities and vices and dysfunction than one would have thought possible. Sometimes he felt like he had gone to bed a kid who just wanted to play guitar and woken up a celebrity user who played guitar because it gave him an identity. (NT) -- Gavin, 10:02:29 01/21/05 Fri

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• "I don't think about you being with other girls either..." She murmured softly before she turned to her other side so she was facing him, her face tucked into the curve of his neck as her hand shifted to fist over the tight skin on his side. Her eyes felt suspiciously wet and she still wasn't quite sure why but it was obvious as she blinked against his neck and the moisture seeped onto his warm skin that she in, or close to being in, tears. Letting her hand slide to wrap her arm around him, tugging herself closer to his solid, oh so familiar body. (NT) -- Bianca, 10:10:16 01/21/05 Fri

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• He sighed quietly and just tightened his arms around her, one hand fisted gently in her long, dark hair and then relaxed to smooth slowly down the back of her head. There was nothing he could really say to her and so he just remained quiet, but after a moment of silence, dipped his head to catch her lips for a lingering moment, eyes sliding slowly shut. His kiss was soft and tender, more loving than he would ever be able to express through words. (NT) -- Gavin, 10:21:45 01/21/05 Fri

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• Her hand slid up to rest on his cheek as she returned the kiss, letting out a ragged breath when it broke. She didn't want her life to be like this anymore but it was beyond her on how to change it. Instead she just clung to him tightly and spoke the words that came to mind without even pausing to think about them. "Come to Milan with me." She requested softly, her head still resting tucked in the curve of his neck. She just wanted to be with him, to fix all of this, not just her image but also her relationship with him.... (NT) -- Bianca, 10:24:26 01/21/05 Fri

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• The thought hadn't occured to him, but he was struck suddenly with how much the idea made sense. He was off till March at the earliest, and would likely have just sat around here or in scummy bars all the time that she was gone. Milan could be fun, and the more he thought about it, the better it could be for them - either that or he would end up on a plane home three days into the trip because they couldn't stand being around each other that much. (NT) -- Gavin, 10:36:04 01/21/05 Fri

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• Since he didn't answer her, she just assumed he was still thinking about it. She just let out a soft breath and slowly relaxed into the bed and into his arms. It had been a long time since she had fallen asleep with his arms around her but she was about to now. She just wanted to be close to him right now, to take comfort in his embrace and knowing that he would want her above anyone else. Her chin lifted to allow her lips to brush his softly once again before she settled her head down on the curve of his arm, her eyes slowly sliding shut. (NT) -- Gavin, 10:40:23 01/21/05 Fri

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• "Yeah, sure..." He agreed finally and offered a small smile before tightening his arms around her and ducking his face into her hair to inhale softly. He wasn't really tired - sleeping wasn't his thing - but he was content and comfortable to lie there with her as long as she wanted to. This was the story of their tumultuous relationship - they hurt each other, they fought, they made up, only to start all over again the very next day, or a few days from now maybe if they were lucky. (NT) -- Gavin, 21:28:43 01/21/05 Fri

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• She nodded a bit at that, still hiding in the sweet sanctity of the curve of his neck. A soft, warm kiss was placed on his neck, lingering there for a long moment before she shifted so she could kiss down his neck more intently. If there was one thing that made her different about all the other girls he slept with it, it was that she knew every nook and cranny of his body, every spot that made him moan and tremble. She knew how when he felt intense pleasure, his hand shook a little a bit, how his eyes closed and his body arched when he was overcome with passion and how he enjoyed watching the pleasure he induced reflected in her eyes. He always softly requested she keep her eyes open when she finally hit her peak, so that he could see her as she lost herself in pleasure. Those were the things that made her different from all the other girls... (NT) -- Bianca, 21:37:12 01/21/05 Fri

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• His hand slipped up and down her back slowly as he shifted more onto his back and tugged her more over him, eyes fluttered slowly open. It was quiet truthful moments like this that he felt that he did love her, and maybe she felt the same, and he was reminded as to why they stuck it out through all the turmoil. With so much uncertainty in both their lives - their careeers could literally be over in an instant for one of a million reasons - he knew that he needed her, if for nothing more than the knowledge that her bed would be waiting for him whenever he came home. (NT) -- Gavin, 22:03:00 01/21/05 Fri

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• She let out a soft breath as he rolled over more onto his back and she settled her thin frame slightly over his. Her eyes - full and deep - meet his for a moment before she ducked her head to gently find the sensitive skin that connected his throat and his jaw, softly sucking there for a long moment before she kissed down over his collar bone. He was the one person she was - more often then not - herself with and she needed that release in her life. She may be a model but it seemed like, more often then not, that her choice career was an actress, she was always being someone she really wasn't. (NT) -- Bianca, 22:06:51 01/21/05 Fri

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• His eyes - quiet and subdued - followed her for a long moment before shifting up to study the ceiling, hands playing slowly through her hair, skin tightening beneath her lips... (NT) -- Gavin, 21:37:15 01/23/05 Sun
  • He was, surprisingly, quite sensitive. He was a musician afterall, even if he was 'just' a guitarist in a rock band - and it worried him when she got all 'weepy' like this, just because he knew that he could hardly keep himself happy, so how could he try and help her out? (NT) -- Gavin, 21:38:26 01/23/05 Sun
    • It was a tough call, and he didn't really like just moping around feeling sorry for himself, but every once in a while, they entertained these little pity parties. (NT) -- Gavin, 21:39:31 01/23/05 Sun

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• After a few long moments of just letting her lips explore his torso, she raised her head to meet her lips with his, kissing him softly as her long fingers - perfectly manicured - slipped beneath the waistband of his boxers, easing them down to allow him to shift out of them. She just wanted to lose herself in him for a little bit of time, just forget about their problems and enjoy having sex. The silence was almost comforting, definately not uncomfortable - so she decided not to break it as she just kissed him quietly... (NT) -- Bianca, 02:44:09 01/24/05 Mon

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• His eyes lingered open as he looked back down to watch her for a long moment, fingers slipping down to her hips to curl into the hem of her tee and draw it slowly up and over her head before he met her lips for the soft kiss. His hands ran up and down her sides slowly before settling just ah her ribcage - fingers resting on her smooth back and thumb slowly brushing the soft swells of her chest as he settled easily into her kiss, eyes lightly shut. He too was perfectly content with the idea of a quietly passionate evening - it was easy to lose himself in the act, especially with her. (NT) -- Gavin, 09:15:30 01/24/05 Mon

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• She dragged out the soft kissing and touching, leaving her own marks on his neck and other places on his body before she rolled over onto her back, allowing him to take her. Probably the only healthy part of their relationship was the sex, it was always equally giving and taking, though generally quiet, they responded physically to each other well and just pleasured one another the way that they knew the best. It was just her way of showing him that she still cared on some level. (NT) -- Bianca, 09:22:43 01/24/05 Mon

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• At her attention and their brief kissing, he just nestled into the couch and watch her, fingers twisted gently into her hair. When she was ready though, he willingly took over control and settled over her easily to take her completely - though there was something a little more careful, a little slower, almost actually tender, about his actions this night. He was almost afraid of hurting her or something - she was just seeming especially delicate... (NT) -- Gavin, 09:29:52 01/24/05 Mon

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• When all was done, she was still breathing a little heavy and there was a light sheen of sweat on her bony body. Her lip was tucked between her teeth, her cheek resting on his chest as her fingers danced gently over his abs. A low breath escaped her as her eyes slid shut, clearing her throat softly as she tried to regain her composure. She had hit her peak hard, powerfully, and it still took a bit out of her everytime it happened like that. It was a bit different with him, well quite a bit... (NT) -- Bianca, 09:37:28 01/24/05 Mon

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• He exhaled a low breath as he dropped his head back into the pillows and closed his eyes lightly for a moment before glancing down to her, his fingers running in slow circles over her back. "Okay?" His voice was low and a little hoarse, a little concerned - on top of everything else, he was starting to get a little worried about her health. His free hand raised up to push back his damp hair and then run down his face before just resting behind his head as he watched her. (NT) -- Gavin, 09:44:23 01/24/05 Mon

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• "Yeah...." She stated softly, clearing her throat a touch herself before she just rested her hand - palm flat - against his stomache. "Sleepy now..." She could be so soft and delicate at times, and so almost ferocious and conniving at others, it was amazing that it was really the same girl. She nuzzled her cheek against his chest for a moment, before she spoke again - the conversation quiet and lazy. "Where the other boy's stayin' at?" She questioned curiously. She liked all the guys in his band, they were all great and mostly attractive. She had never slept with anyone - Much to Johnny's, the drummers, disappointment - because of the scandel it would create when/if it came out mostly. (NT) -- Bianca, 09:48:55 01/24/05 Mon

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• He nodded slightly and offered her a small smile before pulling her gently closer to him and then tugging a light blanket over both of them and brushing a hand slowly through her hair. "Their respective homes.. Johnny and Mike in Chicago and Dustin in LA. Talked to D the other night and I guess all is well with everyone..." Though he would never admit it, he missed the guys already - despite their intense differences, they had great chemistry and all took care of each other. He missed the security of it... "Need a smoke..." (NT) -- Gavin, 09:57:37 01/24/05 Mon

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• She nodded a bit against his skin, her brow furrowed gently as she shifted a little bit reluctantly. "Want to go smoke?" She questioned, the sheet falling down around her body in an almost provactive fashion. Her hand lifted up, brushing down his jaw and then to push back his hair, her head tipping to the side and her eyes sparkling affectionately. "Need to tie it back." She murmured, before she shivered obviously. Considering she had basically no body fat, she got cold very fast. (NT) -- Bianca, 10:08:13 01/24/05 Mon

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• "Yeah... Be right back." He promised her as he shifted out of bed and tugged the blanket back up around her, narrowing his eyes goodnaturedly at her teasing. Pulling his boxers on, he paused to return to lean down to catch her lips for a warm, lingering kiss before smiling a little and then heading out of the room to catch a smoke and grab some water. He returned before long, as he had assured her, and set the glass of water on the bedside table, and then crawled back into bed beside her. (NT) -- Gavin, 10:12:47 01/24/05 Mon

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• As soon as he was back in bed, she cuddled back up with him, her head going to his chest and her fingers tucking into the waistband of his boxers. Her lips brushed gently against his chest absently before she yawned. "I am going to fall asleep soon..." She murmured softly, her fingers gently rubbing over the sensitive skin of his lower stomach. "We should go out for breakfast..." She murmured gently, really she just wanted to spend more time with him like this... (NT) -- Bianca, 10:21:00 01/24/05 Mon

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• "Good.. Sleep is good..." He assured her softly and sighed in quiet contentment as he nestled down into the plush bed and tugged her closer to him, one hand twisted into her hair and the other behind his head. "Sure... You need to eat more, Bianca. You're too skinny..." He stated very matter-of-factly, though he knew that she did eat a decent amount, but it was the purging that was so unhealthy. (NT) -- Gav, 10:25:52 01/24/05 Mon

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• "Am not to skinny..." She argued, though she was obviously drifted out and the words came out on more of a pouty tone than an indignant one. Her eyes were heavy and before long her breath evened out and her bare form wrapped around his barely clad, lost in sleep for the night. (NT) -- Bianca, 10:33:54 01/24/05 Mon

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• "You are." He stated right after her refusal and shook his head a little before leaving her alone to sleep - she needed the rest. He didn't know how to make her see that she was getting way too skinny, and he really didn't want to argue with her, so he let it go for now - but did intend to look into it more another time. He held her closely while she slept, and even drifted off himself for a few hours.. (NT) -- Gav, 10:40:48 01/24/05 Mon