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Date Posted: 18:32:47 08/13/11 Sat
As someone else mentioned, its a 24 hour condition. In a lot of a ways it rules my life: my current, past, and future problems. I remember in school my greatest humiliations was my lack of hand-eye-coordination, doing bad at sports, being laughed at, and always being picked last.
I have great difficulties staying organized, which makes it difficult to keep tract of the goals I created for myself, and leading a fast-paced fully productive life with every moment used exactly the way I would of, I could of, planned using it. I have a pile of recreational books with knowledge inside each one I wish to obtain- but the battle with my focus, comprehension, and speed is too much of a struggle and painful strain.
I spent High School home-schooled because I was completely flunking out of and not keeping up with the Algebra of Junior High School. I procrastinated on and self sabotaged myself for a long time with taking the G.E.D. after I completed all the high school home school academy curriculum with my mother, because of an extreme performance anxiety that I felt I was still way too unprepared for it and that there was no way I could pass this extremely important series of tests that are the key before I can apply to a college. Now I am 21 and still haven't taken the G.E.D. tests, am so anxious to move into my own apartment and start my career- I still do not feel that I am ready for the G.E.D tests even after all the GED prep courses I have completed, but realize I won't ever feel confidently emotionally prepared. All I can do is get the extended time and such that is granted to me during the testing during my dyslexia and hope for the best. At any rate it is cause for great anxiety and depression.
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