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Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Valerie [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] Date Posted: 22:30:10 03/03/10 Wed In reply to: Joan 's message, "Depression and Dyslexia" on 19:34:47 03/03/10 Wed Joan, First off let me just say….that I’m new to this site and can already feel some weight lifted from my shoulders after reading over the worries and concerns others have about being dyslexic. It feels SO GOOD to know that in a world where you feel all alone, your not. After reading your comment with depression and dyslexia, although I haven’t heard or read any information with the two being related with one another, I truly believe that they are. I say this because I myself, often feel down and out about everyday life and I know for a FACT it’s because of the struggles I face with being dyslexic. I spend a lot of my time thinking from all aspects about how much further along I would be in life if I wasn’t dyslexic. Talk about depressing… I could go on and on about the thoughts I have everyday and how much it brings me down. It’s sad writing this knowing that this is how I feel. I know that everyone struggles in their own ways with this disability, but it can really get the best of you knowing that there is “no cure” no quick fix or even a magic pill to make it go away. And even more so that in school we didn’t get the help we should have because researchers knew so little about dyslexia. So yes…in my opinion…I believe that they are related and if this is something you are fighting, my advice is to stay strong and do your best to surround yourself with things and people that make you happy and feel good about who you are. :) [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

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[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Paul [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 08:21:02 03/29/10 Mon Why wouldn't depression be connected to dyslexia it is a 24/7 condition. Consider just human interactions alone require the need to hide what can't be defined or cured. I read another response on this site that was very intelligent. They look at dyslexia as a gift rather than a curse. We all know we are different somehow. That we get from A to B around about. So in light of todays social jackpots out there we may be on the right path afterall. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Precious [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 01:00:58 08/28/12 Tue Hi, from your message I can see you very depressed by being dyslexic, but there some advantages I have recently find about being dyslexic that I think might very helpful. Most there advantages are this book :The Dyslexic Advantage: Unlocking the Hidden Potential of the Dyslexic Brain, By Brock L.and Fernette F. Find this book I'm telling you will be glad your dyslexic, There is a lot I didn't know in this book and it has changed the way I think about dyslexia [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: elaine paul (wot to do ?) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 07:28:51 07/18/10 Sun im a 44 year old female: since iv got back into the workforse iv notice more and more that tere is something not right about myself,my spelling,my reading,and numbers i get bk to front , my short turm memory is bad but my long turm is better!i have such a great laugh at myself with the things i do! but deep down i get frustrated with myself, my coordanation is shocking aswell , ill start reading a book or magazeen or paper and start reading it bk to front instead of opening the start off a book paper ect: lucky my boss understands i have a problem and laughs with me a bout it or i wouldnt have a job ! [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Brigid (FUNNY AND SAD) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 10:50:47 01/23/11 Sun I've for got your name already, is'nt that tipical. Elaine, i think. I've just come across this site and i laughed when i read your response to depression and dyslexia. Your the first person that sounds just like me. Its good to know we're not alone. your funny. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Great gal [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 16:35:23 12/29/11 Thu In africa a few people know about it!which makes it more ackward.am always in ma mind.my cordination sucks.am eva 4getn staf.en i cnt date cz ov ma insecurities.i fl lyk a beauty who fls ugly insyd.en is lockd up so dat no 1n knws.*tear drop*mum knws i gat a problem she js doesnt knw d problem gat a title.*sad*f dyslexia is a gft.ts painful. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Mark (Philosophical) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 11:02:50 08/22/10 Sun If, as dyslexics, we have to work harder to achieve what others take for granted. If, as dyslexics, we think in a different way so that people think we are unintelligent and unable then we need to remember that it is not us with a "disability" but that society has a disability. I have worked hard to achieve what I have achieved. I know that I think so differently from others and yet I get lost easily, have very little sense of direction. I have poor hand eye coordination in sport if I have to hit something but I can run and be happy with that. I forget things or repeat things that I have already organised. My mind is constantly trying to remember what it is I said I would do. My family find it so frustrating and it damages our relationships when they see the results of my dyslexia rather than me. Nobody is good at everything and there are plently of people who cannot do something and it is nothing to do with dyslexia. We are good at ideas not organisation. If we don't think and challenge the others then how are we all going to evolve into better human beings. Being dyslexic is a privilidge but a difficult one. I frequently suffer with low self esteem because of other people's expectations that I cannot meet. I need to have the strength of my own convictions. I am worthy and I do make a difference. We all do. So I get depressed but it is because of other people's reactions to what I do and not because I am not worthy of being special and held in high regard. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Brigid (congratulations) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 10:59:14 01/23/11 Sun Hi Mark, it was lovely to read what you had to say. I have just come across this sight. Im sorry it wasn.t here years ago. Thats all we need is to be understood.I've been Dyslex for a long time, 53yrs and its been difficult. But im getting there. Im back at collage, and doing it my way. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Ash [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 14:15:56 03/04/11 Fri What a lovely uplifting message! Thank you!! [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Precious [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 01:08:37 08/28/12 Tue Thanks for this message Mark. considering the constant depression we face in trying to meet the standard and trying to be normal it is in such words that we find peace with who we are.. thanks again Mark [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Anita Howard (Damaged but looking forward with hope) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 03:08:33 08/31/12 Fri I'm not sure how to start, school was an unpleasant experience and my parents spent a great deal of money sending me to extra lessons for reading and later French. I have had dunces hat put on my head, teaches making me read because they new it would be entertaining for the rest of the class, stopped from doing the levels of study because I could not write well enough to in my final year when asked by my English teacher what I was planning on doing next year. To which I replied study Physicology , she laughed and said I was so dumb I would not even matriculate. I did not discover until I was 53 that most people did not see the printed word As I did with every letter having an after image. I now at 56 with clinical depression am trying to come to terms with my past. This year I have completed 2 writing course and yes I still have my spelling and reading problems, but I have discovered that I can write and with this new released ability I am writing some children's stories where because of a difficulty or two the child has gained worthy gifts that they might not have had otherwise, I hope these stories might bring some hope to others. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Sam (thanks for sharing) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 07:01:46 04/09/13 Tue Hey Anita thanks for sharing.... all these stories all seem so similar and its nice to read them because I'm sure we all feel we are alone in this. I to hated school and was picked on from a very young age, I'm now 33 and Photographer my Dyslexia has cost me a few jobs at newspapers getting the names wrong ect very hard to handle as I'm a very good photographer its just all the other stuff I can't do. I'm living in Spain now and trying to learn Spanish and let me say it is very hard to stay positive but we can do anything we want it just takes long than others. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Sam (I'm not the only one.) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 06:52:21 04/09/13 Tue Hey Mark thanks for sharing pretty much everything you mentioned happens to me and its nice to know I'm not the only one. I'm a Photographer living in Spain trying to learn Spanish on the hole I'm a happy person but this learning Spanish has really brought up all the pain and frustration from my earlier years. It's hard not to get depressed when you pretty much forget everything you learn and do in a day or so unless you keep on going over and over it. My new girlfriend is great about it but I often see her thinking we only spoke about this yesterday. Dyslexia is a gift and I love the way it has helped me connect with Photography and the arts but everything else is just bloody hard work ! [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Allison [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 15:47:45 10/09/10 Sat I agree that Depression and Dyslexia are related with each other, but not way doctors and psycology believe it is. From my experiences with own dyselxia, I believe that we suffered from high level of low self-esteem, which is brought on by people within society, who express that our difficult does not exist or is real. This make me really angry, as I have suffered this disability all my educational life. I was diagnosed when I was 10 years old, younger to be helped you would think, but because Australia is backwards in education of Dyslexia this was not true. I struggle through school, and today I still struggle with my life, especially when people cristise my dyslexia or anyone else who has dyslexia. I supposed this why I have a passion to work with children who have a disability, especially those who have disability cannot seen by the physcial eye. Throughout my life, espescially when I was at school, I had many sucicde thoughts. I am glad I never carried them out. But I still have them today, especially when people can't accept who I am. If anyone has read JK Rowling books (Harry Potter) they will understand what I mean when I say I feel Remus sometimes, especially when people express in their actions that they afraid to employ us, because it will ruin their repuatution. Some of the saying that helped me to feel better are: A picture say thousands words and actions speak loud than words. I think these saying describe ability and success in life. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Kye (Happy) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 14:11:00 08/14/13 Wed Allison, i completely agree with you and many others on this site. I believe depression is connected with dyslexia. We try so hard with everything we do and we often get negative results. Thats enough to get anyone down in my eyes. Our peers work hard and get good results and we get negative. One gets rewarded or moves forward for working hard and our results sometimes stay the same. I know that i am smart person and am good at things but i feel so stuck sometimes. Fear takes over and i'm scared to try something new all because someone might say i'm dumb. I'm actor so i still daily get up and make a fool of myself. You would think i would of learned by now. haha [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Neil Alexander-Passe (Happy) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 15:05:21 01/24/11 Mon Dyslexia and depression is a really interesting subject, and a subject close to my heart, as a dyslexic myself who struggled in school. So much so, that I began to do research into this, studying 29 dyslexic adults, 22 had depression. You can read this research in my book 'Dyslexia and Depression: The Hidden Sorrow', or look at my research on my website: www.dyslexia-research.com I found that the depression that dyslexics develop comes from how the deal with a inhospitable world that values reading and writing above all other skills. As a designer by training, I know that there are so many other skills that dyslexics can use to gain self-worth. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Elaine (Questioning) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 10:26:29 02/19/11 Sat I have only now, after 47 years, decided to face my dyslexia. It has kept me from moving forward and chasing my dreams. My occupations have always been in the retail field, it allows me to communicate with people one on one, rather than focus on skills. My love for people and my need to others has moved me back to college. My first test in reading an A, my second was a D. I almost died.... identifying a topic sentence. This for someone who can't organize your thoughts has me going crazy. I will not fail. I'd love some advice in how I might strengthen my skills, and appreciate any suggestions. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Ash [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 14:27:07 03/04/11 Fri I find computers have changed my life!! Try downloading Claro V5!! You can get it for free for the first 15 days and I have to admit it is the best thing I have found in a long time!!! I hope it will help you!! [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: chichi [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 22:24:09 10/28/11 Fri To everyone who is in college or who plans on going back to college,I highly recommend the use of the school's writing center. I will also suggest the use of a close and reliable friend who you can confine in without disregard of rejection to edit your papers. I personally used my mother through undergrad, but I try really hard for her not to check my work while I'm in my master's program because I want to see my academic growth without her assistance. However, the on campus "free" writing services on campus are a huge help. They won't only help you but provide explainations to why something may be wrong. I also would suggest to plan ahead, schedule down time and go back to edit your work. If you rush to complete assignments you will look over simple mistakes. Read aloud to yourself and you may notice that what you said may not be what is written. These tips have helped me through the years. Hope this helps! [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Ann-Marie O'Leary [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 16:16:37 03/29/11 Tue Joan Thank you so much, just knowing someone else feels the same way thanks Ann-Marie [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Linda Farnsworth [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 19:42:50 05/20/11 Fri I have taken antidepresive medication for 30 years. Yes it is depressing to try and function this way and it takes all you have to hide it from everyone. Teacher,other students you name it. You do not want anyone to know you can't read. I have 2 eyes that didn't work together. In other words all text was blurred. I didn't know it was any other way. Then I find I am dyslexic and I have ADHD. Having ADHD makes it hard to stay focused long enough to read.I had this texting done when I was 54. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: dee,tee (happy,sad,lost,found,not, yet,,,) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 07:44:03 02/03/12 Fri forgot what you said,already,but get what you,ment,when i read,ur comment,am kinda like,you,am 52,not been checked out yet,scary,the thot,not done the antie deppsesants,been kiddin myself,,hid behind,drink,smoking,the happy,stuff,none of it works,,havin glass o wine now,wonderin,when,,am gona have the currage,to go to docs,to find out if am just stupid,or dyslexic,,see i work for nhs,helpin poeple,with dementia,sometime wondering if av got that,thats scary to,hope not,,anyway,,time,to find out for me,my son,grandson,and thanks,,you just brought it all back to me,not that its ever,,left me,as you can,understand,, [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Gus (Sad) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 13:58:51 05/17/12 Thu Drink to cope I no this is not answer but helps [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Mars (: ) refreshing) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 14:10:39 06/12/11 Sun I too think there is. I went to the Drs the other month due to depression and it was strongly linked everyday stresses building up, frustrations, low self esteem and little focus. etc. It is very refreshing to hear of similar dyslexics. I am getting on better trying to be more focused and positive! Mars [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Christine Grace [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 18:32:47 08/13/11 Sat As someone else mentioned, its a 24 hour condition. In a lot of a ways it rules my life: my current, past, and future problems. I remember in school my greatest humiliations was my lack of hand-eye-coordination, doing bad at sports, being laughed at, and always being picked last. I have great difficulties staying organized, which makes it difficult to keep tract of the goals I created for myself, and leading a fast-paced fully productive life with every moment used exactly the way I would of, I could of, planned using it. I have a pile of recreational books with knowledge inside each one I wish to obtain- but the battle with my focus, comprehension, and speed is too much of a struggle and painful strain. I spent High School home-schooled because I was completely flunking out of and not keeping up with the Algebra of Junior High School. I procrastinated on and self sabotaged myself for a long time with taking the G.E.D. after I completed all the high school home school academy curriculum with my mother, because of an extreme performance anxiety that I felt I was still way too unprepared for it and that there was no way I could pass this extremely important series of tests that are the key before I can apply to a college. Now I am 21 and still haven't taken the G.E.D. tests, am so anxious to move into my own apartment and start my career- I still do not feel that I am ready for the G.E.D tests even after all the GED prep courses I have completed, but realize I won't ever feel confidently emotionally prepared. All I can do is get the extended time and such that is granted to me during the testing during my dyslexia and hope for the best. At any rate it is cause for great anxiety and depression. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: chichi [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 22:36:11 10/28/11 Fri Hey, I strongly encourage you to just "do it" like Nike. Testing for anyone is hard but with dyslexia it can be even harder. You have the option to use extended time and use a less restricted environment if you request it. Use the acommodations that you have. There's nothing wrong with that. The only person stopping you from success is you. What's the worse that could happen...? You may have to retake it but on the brighter side you know what your weaknesses are.Don't hold yourself back from success. Once you get your GED you canapply to a community college (no weight on GPA or SAT scores) and gain additional skills. Under the Disability Act it is required that you get academic acommondations. You will not fail but you do have to put in the work. Think about what you like to do on a regular basis and place it in a career field you may enjoy. What you do today affects tomorrow...Good Luck! [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: chris (fighting) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 12:18:07 08/18/11 Thu i can understand what people say here about depression and dyslexia ......i wasent diagnosed until i was 17 ,young age but hated school since first day at an age of 6 so damaged was done,no self esteem and no support from parents and school ,special class didnt help made it worse......until i skipped 290 days during my last 3 years in high school,went to therapist and he diagnosed me and told i have a special gift and school wasent good enough so he took me out,best decision he ever did for me..........im 30 and still feels like im fighting against the world ,no one understands me ,feel alone sometimes .................i know how it feels [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: dyslecsic people Author: stephanie [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 02:08:09 04/11/12 Wed being dyslecsic is not a problem it is a solution for manny problems people with dyslexiea have the BEST problem solving skills they are verry smart not with school but with life unfortonaly people dont see thatthey are generaly closed minded and fortonaly people with dyslexia are not and most inportantly we are not folowers we think outside the box most become inventors just look up famus inventors most of them are dyslecsic and struggled through schools if only teachers will see that try new aproches and harness this gift called dyslexia [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Rosemary Clarke (sad, frustrated and angry) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 03:00:54 05/07/12 Mon Hi everyone, I really value all of your open and honest comments. I took a Dyslexia Test 18 months ago, found out at the age of 49 years that I am dyslexic. I have been treated for depression for the past 30 years. Learned to read at age 11. Struggled at school, constantly bullied. Depression and Dyslexia go hand in hand. I've struggled all my life, with learning difficulties, everything I have achieved, has taken tremendous effort, and this is emotionally draining. It's uplifting to know I am not alone! Yes we have all experienced more than our fair share of knock backs. "I believe that there is a genetic link to dyslexia." My father and brother, 'all though never tested', both showed signs of being severe dyslexics. Both men however are SO intelligent! They have fantastic memories, and are outstanding public speakers. My brothers art work, verges on genius! I believe Dyslexia is linked to intelligence. We dyslexics know how frustrating it is not to be able to get our points across, either written or verbally or BOTH! It is the world and not us who are missing out, as we are some of the most intellectual, peoples in this world. What we have to do, is learn to harness our individual talents. I keep trying to achieve the impossible. I am a natural artist, and must return to the paint brush. We all have individual talents. Value yourselves, and others will follow! I must learn to be my own best friend, so when depression comes knocking, I will be able to face it square in the face! And so can you! [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: sam (thanks for sharing) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 07:17:29 04/09/13 Tue Thanks for sharing, its really nice to know I'm not the only one. I'm a talented Photographer but sometimes struggle with my self worth and confidents... I do believe we all have or talents its just the rest of the stuff that i hard work [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Toni (Visual thinker) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 04:16:58 06/19/12 Tue Hi everybody, I have diagnosed and treated dyslexia since very young. I went to college and get licensed in Fine Arts. I suffered bulling from some class students at high school, because somehow they felt I was different of them somehow. Teachers didn´t help much either and my father always considered me lazy or stupid. Nowadays I feel proud of being different and in many ways better than non-dyslexic people. I have an special 6th sense, something like an intuitive inteligence wich makes me see things in a way others dont realize. The worst side of being dyslexyc arrived when I finished studies and started working. I have had many problems and I have finally ended working in the family bussines. I have a cronic psicosomatic disorder since I was a teenager and I have to take medication for depression and stress, and I guess it will be all my life long. Even I now realize advantages I have as a Dyslexic person I think my depression is not biological: It is because of what being a dyslexic person involves in our society and misunderstanding from class companions, some stupid teachers and family sometimes wrong attidude. My conclusion is that most dyslexics are quite more intelligent than average people; But don´t have the tools to fully develop their habilities. This non functional potencial gives you a great sense of frustration. To end I will just add that dyslexia offers us some gifts: It maybe great imagination, empathic habilities, artistic skills, etc. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Katie [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 18:47:24 08/02/12 Thu Hi there, I believe there may be a link in relation to how dyslexia feels which may cause depression. I was diagnosed during a sevre episode of depression at the age of 10. I believe of a lot of why I was feeling so low was because of the mis-understanding between myself and the adults/teachers around me. My mother forced me through counselling, etc to help me. It did to some extent but now I more keep those feeling hidden from her due to Bad experiences with several counsellers who didn't understand and thought I was just making it up. Still to this day, I go through stages of depression mostly relating to how frustrate and how I feel it is pointless to try and explain, get help to further my education, etc. I'm glad I am not the only one out there who has had an extreme issue with this. My big brother- being the first out of the family had a lot more support and help. The same approch was taken with me- unfortunately. I don't feel it was as effective. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]

[> [> Subject: Re: Depression and Dyslexia Author: Sam (happy sad) [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 07:57:45 04/09/13 Tue Hey Joan, I don't think dyslexia and depression are directly linked but I do think dyslexic people have a higher possibility of becoming depressed. After reading through the messageboard it seems like everyone on here has gone through very similar experiences. I found out I was dyslexic at the age of eight, I had the most supportive parents in the world. My mother worried sick about me 24 seven, and was constantly looking for a cure. It would be very hard for anyone not to get down and depressed when everyone in the class can read and you're struggling with the very basics. I have struggled on my dyslexia and carved out a pretty successful career as a photographer but there are days that I will hide from the world! I think the hardest thing about dyslexia is people just don't understand, people think you're even stupid or lazy or both it really is the invisible disability which people choose to not understand and just think you're stupid. I'm currently living in Spain trying to learn Spanish, WOW it's so hard and my new saying is you have to laugh at yourself or you cry. I want to thank everyone for sharing there thoughts on this blog. I was really great for me to read and helps me see I'm not alone. Sam [ Post a Reply to This Message ]