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Date Posted: 12:36:12 05/19/16 Thu
Author: Still Wondering
Subject: Re: Sexual abuse as a young boy and TGT
In reply to: Casseopia 's message, "Re: Sexual abuse as a young boy and TGT" on 10:26:55 05/19/16 Thu

It's not that it hasn't been discussed here -it's that everyone who has discussed and tried it ends up back here. You're hearing people speak from experience, not negativity.

You say: "the first, is my own curiosity and sense of closure. I'd just like to close this door with as much knowledge as I can find. I can't just slam it shut without knowing as much as I can know". Please know that what you just said is WORD for word what I said as I started to make my transition to a new life. I remember going back and forth with Patti (thanks Patti) and thinking what do these people know! And in the end....they were all right. But you can't see the correct path until you're truly ready to take it. My problem was that my need for knowledge and closure was nothing more than a vicious circle of trails that led to nowhere. Therapists, counselors, people with PhDs, my ex - all sent me down paths to find the truth. The problem is that no one knows, probably not even your husband. He will do or say whatever he needs to keep you. Take out the gay part for a minute. He's already proven that his path to keeping you is to mislead you. In the end, I didn't have peace or closure until I let go of the need for closure (ya -took me a long time to process that one).

No one is a nay-sayer here. We speak from walking miles in the same shoes. One person on this website would be one thing. Two would be a coincidence. 100s with the exact same experience is just the truth. I'm trying to convey that I know exactly what you feel. I was you. I was literally over him emotionally and physically. But my curiosity and need for answers and closure cost me three years of my life. And in the end, it just didn't come. And 10 years later, it still hasn't come. I'm sorry to say the only closure you will get is letting go. I can't tell you how many times all the nice people who were here years ago when I got here told me that. But it still took me years to give up. Don't be me. Don't get caught up in the need for explanations and closure. The facts are the facts and a liar is a liar, gay or not. That's all we're trying to say here.

There is good reasoning behind why everyone here yells GAY. It's not that we are skewed to lean towards "he/she is gay" believe it or not. Many people who haven't gone thru this assume that we are all that way. Take out the abuse - the one fact you already have in the palm of your hand is that he was on a gay site having sex with men. We don't yell run because we're close-minded. We yell run because 99% of us gave it a shot, the ol' college try, for years, 2, 5, 10, 20 years. We listened to stories of how abuse made him this way and if we could just hang in there, just give him one more shot, just be understanding....you get the idea. Us telling a new person to this site (who has concrete proof of gay cheating) is no different than us telling a 4 year old child not to touch a hot stove. That child may get angry or not want to hear it, but in the end if they touch a hot stove they are going to get burned. We know this from experiencing it and not only experiencing it but from knowing 100s of others on this site who have been in your exact same position. Of course no one can be 100% sure but statistics alone can almost guarantee that you'll be living this same life 5 years from now if you don't let it go and move on - mentally and physically.

It would be impossible to go back and read three or four years of posts (I'm not sure they are even archived that far back) but I'm telling you without a doubt we have discussed your same situation time and time again. You say you haven't seen any examples of people here saying anything but RUN or he's GAY, but just a month or two ago I can think of a couple of examples where the person didn't really have any concrete proof but just some strange experiences and the answers were anywhere from no, he's not gay to just keep an eye on him. There are most definitely situations where we have told a person to wait and see. But where there's smoke we know that there's fire and we call it out because we see truth where someone inside the situation can not always do so. We hear what you're asking - we're trying to tell you these things based on lots of experience and caring:
1. save yourself - don't waste any more time trying to understand something that can't be understood (that was the hardest one for me, letting go without all the answers)
2. gay doesn't matter in your case. He's proven to be a drug abuser and liar. That's enough reason to move on without closure
3. What you're hearing as bias is years of experience from people who have tried it

Did that help at all? I know it's difficult to process - I had the same feeling of: why does everyone keep saying the same thing when I'm asking a totally different question. But the truth was that the question I was asking had no answer and led down a path that wasn't going to end well. I get it now. Took me three extra years but I get it.

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Replies:

Re: Sexual abuse as a young boy and TGT -- Casseopia, 12:43:20 05/19/16 Thu
- Re: Sexual abuse as a young boy and TGT -- Still wondering, 12:53:43 05/19/16 Thu
- Re: Sexual abuse as a young boy and TGT -- Patti (..but you do), 13:46:38 05/19/16 Thu
  - Re: Sexual abuse as a young boy and TGT -- Sue (thank you), 19:47:55 05/19/16 Thu