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kim
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Date Posted: 11:31:41 01/12/05 Wed
In reply to:
mrsk
's message, "Re: help" on 11:09:33 01/12/05 Wed
hey there, too bad i didn't read these posts before i went kind of nuts. i just got done purging, it was the first time i had done it in awhile. at least the full out binge/purge thing. i think my roommate knew something was up. he kept trying to talk to me, and i was just like, i'm fine and locked myself in my room with a bunch of food. then i took a shower and was blaring music from 'wicked' while i was puking my guts out. anyways, i have to admit, it did make me feel better, but probably not in the way i should be feeling better. does anyone know what i mean?? this is such a hard thing to get over. it's like i get to a certian point of being stressed, and then i just want to do stuff like that which just hurts my body. i can't explain it, but i really do feel kind of nuts knowing i do it. and i feel even worse becuase i know that if i were to tell troy, he'd be absolutely dissapointed in me, not so much mad, but sad because he doesnt'w ant me doing that to myself. yet i allowed it to happen!!! aaugh, as far as the class goes, yeah, i dont know what i was thinking. i only have 3 days left though, and i dont know what i should do. i could drop it and get a w, or i could finsih it out, and get a bad grade and then RETAKE it again. but yeah you're right my brain needed a rest, i think that's why i did so bad today, is because i've been crammming and studying so much my brain was like overloaded or something! aaugh...so frustereating. its like i have been doing nothing but studying, and its not like it paid off that much!!
this whole ed thing is driving me nuts too, its like i really want to be a music therapist some day and help people with problems like this, but how can i do that if i can't even stop myself from doing it?? grr..anyways, thanks for listening to me. you guys are so great and soo supportive. its great to know i have a place i can always feel welcome at. thanks so much for everything. you are all sooo amazing!
thanks again and take care~
always~
Kim
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