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He now understood why his family had moved away from this area, well, his father and uncle at least. Huddling onto a bench facing the beach, the deserted boardwalk and the frigidly cold wind behind him, he ran his eyes over the ocean, taking in the waves with a wistful expression. It was the closest he ever got, though no one seemed to notice his ever present, alarming, achingly real fear of the water. No one ever asked, no one ever talked about it. No one ever talked about her. It was like she never existed but he knew that she had. She had existed beside him and completed his soul and those damn waves had ripped her and his child away from him. The thought of her didn't bother him as much anymore, not with Reilly to fill his dreary existance with much needed sunshine but today was the day of her death and she was haunting him. The day fit his mood, cold, overshadowed...the wind tossed about the waves in a fashion where he felt that they were mocking him, knowing what they took from him and taking pleasure in knowing it. The insane urge to throw something at the ocean hit him which made him smirk, running a hand through his hair as he dropped his elbows down to his knee's and rested his head in his hands. His eyes fixated on a crack in the board while his mind wandered away from him. He could remember the first time he saw Reilly, the way that she had reminded him so much of her made him want to be near her, to touch her and kiss her and pretend that she wasn't taken away from him. The more time he spent with the girl though, the more he fell in love Reilly, not the haunting resemblence of the girl he used to love. With a growl he looked up at the sky, begging her in his heart and soul to just leave him in peace, to let him love again. She had always been selfish of him, when they were engaged she had hardly left his side and now all he wanted to do was rid himself of her so that he could focus on a brighter future. The one dark cloud in that future mocked him though, reminding him of the confession he had to make to Reilly. A sigh wracked his frame as he kicked the stone on the boardwalk into the sand, his eyes turning back out to the rocky waves yet again...

• This is the moment that you know that you told you loved her, but you don't -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 1:28am PST
  • Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself and hidden in the public eye, such a stellar monument to loneliness. -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 1:38am PST

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• You touch her skin and then you think that she is beautiful -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 1:47am PST
  • ..and the grave that you refuse to flee...is the place you fear the most -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 2:00am PST

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• But she don't mean a thing to me -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 2:08am PST
  • His brow furrowed for a second, unsure what he thought about her having so little trust in his feelings for her. His hand slid up her shin and then back down slowly, his eyes going to the sand as it blew around on the beach. A soft sigh escaped his lips before he took her chilled hand, raising it up to his lips and pressing a warm kiss to her palm before he rested his cheek against, his eyes closed to the world and focusing on the feeling of his skin seeping warmth into her chilled hand. Thats what she did for him every time she touched him, it was like his body was cold and her's was warm and when she touched him she gave him some of that heat...making him not so cold anymore. He smiled a little at that, shaking his head as he dropped her hand back to her lap and looked over at her. "No...you make me warmer then all the sun in NC ever could." He stated honestly, his hand going back to rest on her shin again. (NT) -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 2:19am PST

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• Finished with her icecream, she set the cup down on the ground beneath the bench to be disposed of when they left, and shifted herself so that she was sitting in his lap, one arm looping around his neck and her forehead dropping gently to his. "Well, okay then. That's good..." She assured him and caught his lips for a warm, sweet moment before speaking softly again. "You okay?" She tried not to ask him too often, but she imagined it could get irritating, but it was only a simple inquiry when she posed it now. A yes, no, or maybe would suffice as a response - it was more just so that he knew she wasn't oblivious to the fact that something was bothering him. Her free hand spread flat over his chest and rubbed a slow circle as she softly kissed the side of his mouth and smiled gently again. "You smell especially good today." Random, yes, but that was often her style. (NT) -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 2:28am PST

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• He smiled a little against the kiss, slouching down a touch so she could be more comfortable and not nearly falling off his lap. "Your lips are cold." He murmured against them, his eyes smiling at her as he pulled back. "I'm better now..." He murmured softly, honestly. "You always seem to make things better..." He rested his forehead against her shoulders, a quiet sigh escaping his lips as he pulled her tighter against him. "Talk to me...tell me how your day was...I want to hear your voice." She soothed him, chased away his demons with a smile and the sound of her voice, he couldn't ask for more out of life then her and yet he still felt so haunted...it wasn't fair. (NT) -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 2:31am PST

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• "They'll warm up." She promised as she kissed his temple and then his forehead, and finally his jaw as if to make that point clear. She smiled gently and leaned against him with a quiet sigh, her fingers soothing slowly through his hair when he dropped his head. "Good... Anything I can do..." She meant that completely - it wasn't just something that she said. She truly only wanted to make him even just a little bit happier. "Well.. We were busy today. Lots of locals back in town after the holidays - wanting to catch some of the winter waves before they tame down for summer. We have a new girl working there, and she's a total ditz, pretty useless, but Darren swears he's in love." She worked with Darren most of the time - he was tons of fun, a year or two younger than her and just like a little brother, and the biggest fan of all girls. (NT) -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 2:40am PST

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• He smirked a little at that, resting his head comfortably against her shoulder still, he liked her fingers playing through his hair, it was comforting and soothing all at the same time. His hand moved to rest on her thigh, a content breath escaping him as her voice and touch chased away the clouds for a little while at least. He would be so lost without her, he'd be eaten alive by his own thoughts if he didn't have her to guide him out of his moods every now and then. "Good, at least he's not checkin' out your ass every five minutes now." If Zee had been more of a fighter then a lover he may have punched the kid but instead he just stared at him until the boy got nervous and walked away. Reilly had scolded him for it but he thought it was amusing. (NT) -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 3:16am PST

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• A hand dropped to rest over his and gave his fingers a gentle squeeze, then her other fingers twisted slowly into his hair to gently pull his head back a little so she could duck her face into his neck - her lips working slowly at his pulse before she spoke again, with a soft laugh. "He probably still is. All in good fun though." She teased him gently, because he was so mellow that she kind of liked it when he voiced his displeasure about the way that guys looked at her - it just reassured her that he still wanted her. Kissing softly up the side of his neck, she quit when she got to his cheek, and then just smiled, pushing his hair back slowly. "You should come visit me more. That will keep the boys away." Really, she didn't get hassled at all - everyone knew she was completely infatuated with her boyfriend, and she didn't care about the lingering looks. It was all harmless. (NT) -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 3:33am PST

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• "You ignore customers when I come visit you." He stated with a small smile, peeking up at her through his hair though he was feeling to lethargic from his place resting on her shoulder to lift his head to look at her properly. His hand soothed over her thigh for a moment before he suddenly spoke up again. "I wouldn't just suddenly up and leave, Reilly." he stated in all seriousness. "If I was to leave this area, it would be something we sat down and talked about, something we planned out together." He knew that he didn't always show that he cared in the right away, he had tried and sometimes he suceeded but he usually didn't just toss out affectionate phrasese or reassurances of loyalities. (NT) -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 3:42am PST

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• "It's okay. I'm the boss. That's why I have my underlings. They can tend to the customers while I fawn over you." She assured him quite matter-of-factly, and winked down at him, tugging gently on a strand of his hair. At his reassurances, she smiled softly and shifted a little closer to him, ducking her head to kiss his temple. "Okay..." She didn't need to say much else. If that's what he told her, then she believed and trusted him one hundred percent. Though her response was minimal, there was a definite relief that washed over her and she sighed in quiet contentment. "Good..." She didn't ever want him to leave - with school and work and her family here, but really couldn't up and go easily, but she would if he had to go and wanted her to go with him. It was just easier to stay here, not to mention she loved it here. (NT) -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 3:53am PST

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• He smirked lightly, just holding her close to his chest and let out a soft breath. He didn't want to be a hassle to her or anything like that, he would never want to upset her, so he tried to just hide most of these moods but occasionally he just couldn't get out of this funk without her - that happened sometimes. He pressed a warm kiss to her neck, hugging her closely as he smiled a little. "It's getting colder out..what do you say we head to one of our apartments, put on a movie and get some blankets?" He questioned softly, running his hand over her hair slowly, lovingly, he adored this woman. (NT) -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 10:48am PST

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• "Can we just stay here a little longer, then go? Or are you totally uncomfortable out here?" She responded quietly, murmuring gently into his hair and then pressing a sweet kiss to his cheek - on the ride of bone just below his eye. She was just so comfortable, and she loved it out there - even though he was right and it was getting chilly out, but it wasn't unbearable yet, and besides, they could just keep each other warm. "Couple minutes, then we can go back to your place?" She liked his apartment more than her place - it was just so chill. One hand brushed his stomach slowly and absently and her other fingers lingered in his hair - gently toying with the soft strands. (NT) -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 7:47pm PST

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• He wasn't a big fan of the waves unless he was cursing them and he definately didn't like the idea of her being anywhere near them. His arms tightened around her and he let out a deep breath, biting his lip for a seocnd, burying his face in her neck. "Sure baby..." He murmured softly, if they went back to his house they could turn on the fire and lay around and maybe that would give him a chance to just chill. A smile played on his lips as he closed his eyes, biting his lip lightly as he tried to just focus on her instead of his memories. (NT) -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 9:16pm PST

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• Though he had never really said much about it, she kind of got the feeling that he wasn't all that keen on her surfing, so she tended just not to mention it - she was always safe when she went out, and with at least one or two other people. There was no sense in worrying him, and it wasn't like she was lying about it. "Okay, alright, sure. Let's go..." She stated after a few more long moments of silence, and then shifted to hold his face in her hands for a brief but sweet kiss before she stood. "Did you drive here?" She leaned down to gather up her garbage, and crossed the boardwalk to deposit in to a receptacle a few steps away while she waited for him to get up and ready to go. (NT) -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 9:36pm PST

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• He nodded a little, standing up and stretching his arm out above his head slowly, yawning a touch as she threw away her trash. A low breath escaped him as he eyed the waves before he looked back to her and then slowly made his way over. His arms looped around her waist as he ducked his head to press a warm, lingering kiss to her lips, his hand moving up to run through her hair slowly, just wanting to touch her for a long moment. When he broke away, he smiled a touch, brushing back her hair from her face as he spoke. "So..my place?" (NT) -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 10:05pm PST

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• As he approached her, and put his arms around her waist, she dramatically wrapped her arms tightly around his neck and stood up on her tip-tops - though she was a pretty tall girl and not actually all that much shorter than her - to return his kiss completely willingly. When he drew back, she kissed his cheek sweetly and allowed her hands to slide down to spread flat over his chest, nodding easily. "Yep. I'll meet you there?" She had some spare things there - a couple changes of clothes, pajamas, and the basic necessities - so at least she was always prepared when she ended up spending the night. (NT) -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 10:17pm PST

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• He nodded, his eyes loving on her as he brushed his lips across her forehead lightly. "Yeah, drive safe alright?" He questioned, his hand going to find his keys in his pocket. "Lemme walk you to your car...." He stated softly, his hand moving to rest on her lower back as they started walking towards the stairs that led down to the streets beside the boardwalk where they could park. He was down a ways but he wanted to make sure she safely got to her car first. "You'll get there before me.." He stated, taking his apartment key off his keyring. "You should just keep that one." He stated absently, there was no reason that she hadn't gotten one by now other then he just hadn't thought about it. (NT) -- Zee, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 10:26pm PST

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• "No worries, baby..." She promised him - he was so cute sometimes, such a little mother hen. Leaning close to him, her arms wrapped around his waist as they strolled to her car - looking very much like the young, affectionate couple that they were. She smiled quietly at him as he handed over the key, and then dropped her gaze as she slowly added it to her keychain. She didn't want to make a big deal out of it, because that wasn't really either of their styles, but she did pause for a moment to kiss the side of his mouth warmly, and then stepped back a little to pull open her car door. "Thanks love... Take care. I'll see you in a couple minutes." (NT) -- Reilly, Tue, Jan 17 2006, 10:31pm PST